KURTS SUICIDE_CUT

ONESHOTT-SUICIDE

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

My whole body shook with tears as I began to write his final goodbye.

Dear father,

I am sorry that it had to be this way ,that I never got to say goodbye or tell you how much I love you im sorry I was such a terrible son …

I dropped his pen my I couldn't write this it was to hard and it was unfair on my father.

A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see

I let out sigh as I picked up my pencil and scribbled one last word ...GOODBYE...

I Do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I know once I make the first cut all my pain and worry will go away and I will be free and happy No more slushy in the face, no more battles for solo's no more rejection ...But the more I relied what im leaving behind

Like how im gonna miss glee ,and Blaine and my Dad and merecadies and Even Mr shu.

"No Kurt pull your self together this is the only way out"I said to my self .

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anaesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside.

I Breath in deeply this is it time to free myself

My hand are cold and sweaty as I grab on to the wooden handle

of the knife. Its strange to think that something as simple as a vegetable Knife could kill someone.

I sigh again as I raise the knife and point to my wrist I cant actually hear my heard beating ...beating faster and faster as the knife gets closer and closer to my wrist until …...I let out a small cry of pain as the knife sliced into my skin and blood began to poor out.

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alore

For a moment I just sat there numb and mesmerized until the pain started

It was blinding like nothing I have ever felt before the pain was so unbearable I didn't even notice I had started to scream and cry.

It must have been about a minute and a half ago .

I couldn't feel the pain any more but I felt sick and dizzy mu sight was blurry my ears were ringing and I knew This was it Death was coming .My eyes were beginning to close when into my blurry vision Came FINN

I wanted to shout no don't save Finn leave now but it was to late My eyes fluttered closed and I was dead to the world.

I 'n not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

(Thanks to Katie for these lyrics) song is cut by plumb

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