If you love reading tragic love stories you've come to the right place.

Kurama/Shuichi might be OOC but hey this is how he might act.

And if you complain to me about Mary-Sue crap, I just wanna say; Get a life, people. It's just a FAN-FICTION story. There's more important things to worry about then how the characters acts. Eesh. D: If they didn't act like Mary-Sues then the story would be just plain boring.

Disclaimers: I do NOT own Yu Yu Hakusho nor Kurama. I only own Yuhana your role playing character.

Little notes before you read:

"Blah." This ish when a character that is dead is speaking. If this doesn't make sense you'll understand soon.

"Blah." This ish when the character that is also dead but when they are talking with the living.

'Blah.' As some of you may know, this is thinking.

This story is in Sec POV. Meaning: " When YOU got up-blah blah blah."

Well that's all.

ENJOY!!

You were walking down the street very happily. It was so wonderful... Children laughing and playing chase in the park. People leaving house and apartments saying good bye to their lovers or their children; it just made your smile bigger at this happy scene. You arrived at school, a little earlier then you usually you do, but that's was fine with you. The wind blew, blowing your lovely wavy, shoulder-length creamy orange-red hair around gently as you walked inside the gate. You bright baby-blue eyes laughing happily at the most beautiful person you ever laid eyes on, Shuichi. You weren't a fan-girl like all the girls in school were. No, you always watch him from afar. Yes, you do like him, but not for his looks. No, you fell for his kindness and his warm smile.

He had helped you out many times and there was no way you could repay him back. He would always say "There's no need to do so. I'm glad that I could help." and give his famous warm smile. Shuichi was so different from the other boys. Other boys would tease you or literally push you around. You're not beautiful, nor ugly. Just a plain looking girl. That's what you always been: plain, and unlucky. That's why you have never even talk to Shuichi so much. Who would go for a plain and non-pretty girl? These have always what you thought about yourself. Your smile dropped seeing pretty girls talking and clinging on him.

You were never bold or couragious. You never had the courage to tell him how you felt, but today was different. Today was the day you would walk up to him and give him your letter. The letter expressing all how you felt for him and how you loved that he'd help you. Even if he didn't have the same feelings for you, it was alright. As long as you gave him the letter that would be enough for you to know you were going to change from being a shy and sweet little girl to a bold and courage's one with a stronger will. That's what you wanted. Truly this was all you ever wanted.

You gave a nervous smile and trotted over inside the school. You were planning to give it to him right now, but since the girls were all over him it scratch out your plan.

You were sitting in the back row, in the corner that was right next to the window. You loved the view, a very tall tree and below the tree were surrounded by flowers. A squirrel ran up the branch that was next to the window and stared at you. You giggled and gave it a small wave. The squirrel seemed like it smiled at you and scurried off. Right now it seemed your smile could not be ridden of. You hummed softly while twirling your mechanical pencil around. You're the only one in the class right now because having to look at this view without a disturbance was Heaven to you.

Lost in your daydreaming, you failed to notice that someone had entered the room. The sound of the door closing snapped you out of it and you whirled your head around to look who came in. You had lost your breathe. It was him. Shuichi looked over to you and smiled and waved. You gave a weak wave back and gulped hard. He walked over to his seat which was two sits in front of you. He pulled out a book from his bag and started to read silently.

Your heart pounded loudly, your body tremble slightly with hope and fear. Here he wasThe guy of your dreams; your LIFE is sitting not too far from you and you couldn't move a single inch! You slightly clenched the letter and gulped. 'Come one Yuhana...He...He's right there!! Go! Move!!' Your conscious screamed at you. There he is, Shuichi. Sitting no less then 5 feet in front of you and you STILL couldn't move! It was the right moment; no one else was in the room, except you two. You rose very slowly your seat screech slightly as it scooted back as you rose. As you took a small step away from you desk...the bell ranged and everyone piled into the room.

You gaped and sunk back into your seat defeated. 'Unlucky...I'm so unlucky...'

You sat in class not even paying attention the whole time. You kept your head down as just listen to your conscious scold your till the end of class.

The final school bell rung and you stood up from your seat packed your things and headed out the door. Scolding was all you could hear, your damn conscious once again screaming at you. You wished you had powers because right now you wanted to be invisible. Why? Because all through the tries to give Shuichi your heart-filled letter, you kept messing up and failed at your heart-wrenching mission. At lunch you planed to give it to him thinking he was alone for sometime but how wrong you were. Girls and his friends were all around him, that plan failed before it ever begun. During study-hall you two had with each other and a few other students, you tried but slipped and hit your head on a desk. Everyone laughed at you; all you could do was stare hard at the floor. Shuichi came over to help you but you pushed his hand away. Ashamed, hurt and embarrass that he had to witness it.

What hurt you must is that he actually chuckled at you.

A lone tear fell from your eye and you hurriedly wiped it away sniffing loudly. You walked with your head down the hold time as you just walked out of school, you bumped into someone. Your letter fell from your hand into the dirt and slightly crunched up. You kneel to grab it but a foot stepped on it. You gasped as your eyes widen. You looked up and God did your conscious cursed you out. It was one of the bullies that pestered you the most. What was horribly worst; he was a friend of Shuichi too. "What do we have here?" He chuckled as he grabbed the letter. "N-no!!" You went to grab it from him but his friends held you back gripping tightly at your upper arms. His eyes traced the letter, every inch and every word. Everything. His eye shot up and looked at door entrance of the school. You looked over and nearly screamed. Your insides crunched up as your throat became dry like a desert plain. Shuichi was coming out of the school is heading your way!

'NO!! 'You heart raced, pounding harder against your chest by the minute. "Hey!! Shuichi look what I have here!" His friend yelled out to him waving the letter in the air knowing he was taunting you. You lost your breathe and your voice. Shuichi stepped next to his friend that held the letter wondering what he and his friends were doing to you. "What is it, Kyou?" Shuichi asked trying to see what Kyou has. He cleared his throat and smirk darkly. "Well...let me read it to you." You shook your head making shredder tears fall from your eyes and off your cheeks. You started to struggle hoping that you'll get away in time but...

Remember you're an unlucky girl.

"Dear Shuichi-san ..."He stressed the 'san' and every word was in a mocking tone of a girl's voice." I'm giving you this letter as it is that I am to shy to even speak clearly to you. What I am trying to tell you plain and simple is that I'm in love with you." Shuichi shot his head towards you and Kyou read it even louder for some students that were a bit far coulc hear. "I didn't fell for your looks, for your good grades nor your athletic skills, I fell for your kindness and how you always helped me. Even your smile. I have felt this way just a little after a year ago I met you." Shuichi's eyes grew wider with every word and you just wanted to melt into the ground and never be seen again. "I don't mind if you don't feel the same for me. I just wanted to tell you how I feel. Love, Mikuharu, Yuhana. Aw, isn't that just so sweet?" He burst out laughing along with his friends. Shuichi was shocked and wasn't able to tear his eyes away from you. Tears ran down harder and your sobs grew loudly along with your distress wheezes. You screamed out and roughly push the two who held you and towards Kyou. Grabbing the letter and pushing him aside as you ran way crying out your soul and your body. As Shuichi's friends kept laughing he ran after you.

You ran out of the gate of the school hearing Shuichi's calls. You ignored him and kept running into the street. Why can't you just get powers so you can just GO AWAY?!

'WHY?! WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN!?! WHY CAN'T ANYTHING HAPPEN MY WAY?! ' Hearing a loud sound you slowly turned your head and screamed.

'Why can't something go my way...Just once? '

Shuichi stood there gaping at the sight that held before his eyes. He slowly walked over to your body that was lying on the ground being slowly surrounded by your own blood. A car's front window was smashed through completely with some shards of glass that is still hanging on was stained in blood. Another car's-that was in front of the other one- back window was completely destroyed along and the trunk... You laid there motionless on the blood stained concrete. Your body mangled sickenly...

"Y-yuha-...na..?" Shuichi lightly touched your pale bloody, disoriented face. His mind was still trying to let this scene sink in but it wasn't going down willingly... He gently grabbed your shoulders and shook you lightly for any hope of you turning your blood-shot eyes to him. "Y-Yuhana! Yuhana!! YUHANA!!" He screamed your name to the Heavens but you made no response. He knew but he didn't want to believe it. Bystanders and students gathered around. Even they knew...

You're dead.

"W-what happen...? " Blinking confusingly and painfully to the light you looked around and looked towards the ground. Your eyes widen and you screamed falling backwards whooshing back up as fast as you fell. Down there you were lying there as Shuichi shook you arms. " Th-this doesn't make any sense...Why? I don't get it... " You grabbed you head and shook violently. Pulling away your shaking hands you stare at them, more like THROUGH them. "A-am...Am I a ghost...?" "That you are, my dear. My, my I'm surprised. "You whirled around to a girl floating on an oar smiling sweetly. " Most humans don't grasp the concept that they're dead so quickly." She smile as she cover her giggle with her kimono sleeve.

" ...Who are you?" The girl with blue hair giggled and floated closer to you, you looked at her not believing any of this. "Nice to meetcha!! I am Botan, Guide to the River Styx, also known as the Grim Reaper. At your service." She said cheerfully tilting her head to the side. You stared at her slightly weird-ed out by her odd perky behavior, but dismissing it you smiled shyly and was about to introduce yourself when, "There's no need to tell me who you are! I already know, you see I am the Grim Reaper. "She said happily clapping her hands then pulling out a black book and flipping to through the pages. She turned the book to you and you gasp seeing your name and picture. She laughed at your reaction making you blush.

It had been two hours since your death and meeting Botan. You were following Shuichi who was walking home from the hospital. You had watch everything that happened; him screaming for help, screaming still when the ambulance cam and him yelling at the medics to let him ride with your body.

You watched everything.

Botan stayed there at your side the whole time feeling sympathy and great pain for you and her friend. Something was strange though. Where ever Shuichi went you 'followed'. "Yuhana you don't have to follow him... " Botan stated very unsure if she should had said it or not. You face her -your legs Indian style- and smiled at her weakly. " I know that I don't, but for some reason if I try to pull away I'm back following him again. "

Botan looked at you long and hard. She sighed but nodded understanding.

You turn back around and watch sadly as Shuichi walked home as he's silently crying. 'Oh Shuichi...Please... there is no reason to cry for someone like me...' You thought sadly closing your eyes and holding your hands to your lips. You curled into a ball and rested your chin on you knees as your arms tightly hugged your knees, all as you floated into the air. It was silent, neither you nor Botan dared to speak both of you knew it wasn't the time right now nor there isn't anything to be said. You watch Shuichi silently walk along the bridge, your eyes reflected his every move. He stopped and rests his forearms on the rail of the bridge. His tears fell from his face into the river underneath him. More fell as you flew down under his tears. You straighten out your body; you knees went into the slow moving water but you weren't getting wet; you couldn't even feel the coldness of it or feel your socks become soak. Actually, they stayed perfectly dry... You look to Shuichi and your face sadden more. He eyes were tightly shut trying to stop the gushing tears as he gritted his teeth trying to muffle the sobs.

The sight was too heart-breaking you could barely look at him. "Yuhana...I'm so s-sorry..." He whispered after he let out a little sob he wiped his tears away even though he knew it was useless to do. You flew up to meet him and you raised your transparent hands to cup his face,"Shuichi...There isn't anything to be sorry about...I should be apologizing. I shouldn't have even tried to give you the letter. This is what I get... " You whispered hoarsely trying to hold a sob back. When you went to hold his cheeks they fazed through almost as someone didn't want you to touch him. Tears weld up and fell in the river.

The tears didn't even make ripples... Almost like the tears never existed...

'Kurama's so upset that he can't even feel her presence...Oh...' Botan thought sadly.

Botan and you floating above Shuichi's house watched Shiori,-Shuichi's mother-tried comforting her son but Shuichi had locked his door and shut out the world. Shiori walked down the stairs feeling horrible and helpless that there isn't a thing she could do to comfort him in his time of need. You watch solemnly, wishing that this was a nightmare and you would be waking up soon.

Of course, reality has to be a bitch...

"Yuhana-chan... " You looked over to Botan with the same familiar heart-broken expression. She floated over to you and hugged you solemnly. " I'm sorry... " She whispered down-heartedly. " It's not your fault...Please don't apologize..." You responded quietly as you turned your eyes back to the roof of the house.

"Let's hurry." She said after a minute. You looked at her with a shock expression. "Are you taking me to the after life?" You yelled fearfully. She let out a little giggle, "No, silly! I'm taking you so you'll be able to come back your life and be with Kur-Shuichi." She said happily and giggled at your flushed face; slowly a smile graced your face.
"I-I can come back to life!! " You said letting out sobs of happiness letting Botan hugged you smiling thoughtfully...

A rose sheds tears of happiness and pain.

There'll be something soon I will gain.

The petals shrivel as my heart aches...

But soon something will come in my wake.

I cry alone...

Her spirit will roam...

But something will be known above,

As I feel my Ghostly Love...