A/N: this is my first work so please have a little understanding. Please? I wrote it at 1 in the morning while listening to the last song on Loreena McKinnit's CD The Book of Secrets and then My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion. Anyway it came to me while listening. I was apprehensive to put it online but then I thought hey, what the heck? So please tell me what you think and if it's bad enough I'll dispose of it. Maybe more letters if half-way decent. Thanks, the Sleuth.
Disclaimer: I don't own them. I wish I did but I don't. :(
xxooxxooxx
I miss you.
More than anyone could understand.
I sometimes wonder if even you could understand.
But that's crazy.
You loved me.
Just like I loved you.
No...love you.
Soul mates.
Forever and always.
I can hear you at times.
In dreams.
Laughing, crying, singing.
Then your face comes to haunt me.
You soft lips turned up in a smile, a mischievous gleam in your eyes.
Your beautiful face... now gone forever.
Can I ever get over this terrible pain that rips through my heart like a sword.
I see that horrible fire ball, and it only makes the pain worse.
It should have been me!
I should have been the one to die that day!
Not you...me!
I couldn't save you!
Frank held me back!
He did it so wouldn't die too.
But I wonder if it would be better to be dead than live in constant agony.
I miss you.
Will I ever feel whole again?
Never.
I will always remember you.
Forever.
As long as I live.
I see the face of the man who killed you and I feel hatred.
How could anyone be so evil?
I almost killed him.
Almost.
But if I killed him I would have been like him.
A murderer.
I could never do that.
Never.
It wouldn't bring you back.
And Frank was right you wouldn't want it that way would you?
He still didn't pay for what he did really. He would rather die than get caught and face what he did.
And he got his way.
Coward.
So now I sit here, on my bed, writing to you.
I know you will never get these letters but it makes me feel a bit more whole.
It's like you are here and I can talk to you about anything and everything.
I miss you so, so much.
I will love you always,
xoxo Joe Hardy