It's strange,
I don't think any of us expected the sovereign to be the phoenix mega,
I mean, after talking to that old friend of Lee's dad (about we shall evolve
upon the awakening of the dreamer or something like that, I think all that
time alone in the digi-world made him flip), I was actually more confused
afterwards then when we or rather I started this quest in the digital world.
I'm getting
off track aren't I? Anyway, when he told us about the four guardian digimon,
Lee was the one who made the connection, but I was too into finding out
how Guilmon was made to really pay attention to him. I had the card game
of course, I knew who the four megas were. But who would of thought the
Sovereign, our ultimate enemy, was also the guardian of that sector of
the digital world, and also the source of the D-Arks? Copied off the destines'
design.
Anyway, what
I'm trying to get to here is . . . . how can I put this? . . . .
I think I'm cursed. Don't look at me that way give me a second to explain.
Anyway, finding out that the four megas were real, (heh, and we all used
to think digimon weren't real) then maybe, just maybe, the destine were
too, maybe our fiction is just a shadow of their actions, or maybe vice
versa, who knows, the point is is that Tai . . . Davis, looking back on
them, you have to admit thing didn't really work out for them. Tai didn't
have the guts to tell Sora how he felt, and lost her. Davis tried just
too hard to impress Hikari, and she just decided to ignore him. I think
about Jeri and I wonder, if this track record continues with the 'goggle
boy' of the group as Rika would say, what's going to happen to us? This
digital world is vicious, dangerous. I found out from one of the K boys
and Gaurdramon about what almost happened with Jeri while me and Lee were
separated from the group. Tai lost because he didn't try. Daisuke lost
because he tried too hard. What will I do wrong? Rika would say I was reading
too much into things, but this is the girl who thinks digimon were programmed
only to fight. Or maybe it won't be me. Maybe it will be something else.
An outside force? Something beyond my control? Or something I could of
controlled if I had just been smarter, or faster, or something.
Jeri knows
how to light up a room with just a smile, but . . . I seriously think she
has no clue how deadly this world really is. Or maybe I'm just underestimating
her. That's how it always goes in these adventure stories. But . . . I
can't help but worry.
What's going to happen with us Jeri? Will we find someone else? Will one
of us (mostly likely me) do something incredibly stupid? I don't know.
And that's what scares me. This world is a death trap. And it's only a
matter of time before one of us trips. Time and again I ask myself, did
I do the right thing by bringing her here? Then again, look at Suzie. But
. . . Jeri . . . I think I might love you and . . . ever time we fight
recently, I keep expecting one of us to die. And I keep looking at you,
to make sure you're safe. I know this will cost me dearly eventually, but
better me than you Jeri, better me than you.
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