HI!! I'm back with a new fic! This one is about Kagome and Sesshoumaru. I been thinking about this fic for a long time... So anyways.. review all right? no review... no update!!! I'm so sorry... I tried making up names but I'm not good at it!!! *cries* whaa!!! I don't think Saunna is even a name...

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or Sesshoumaru or Kagome or anyone else in this fic.

chapter 1:

The castle of the Western Lands seemed to be plagued with a curse as it overlooked the lands. The radiance and bustling beauty seemed to disappear under the cloudy skies. Everything seemed gray and lonely. Each blade of grass seemed to limp and the sun didn't glow as brightly as before. The Queen of the Western Lands wasn't herself lately and neither were her people.

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Queen Saunna brought her teacup to her lips. Sipping the sweet liquid, she gazed out the window. She could see Sesshoumaru playing by the pond, splashing in the murky waters for a frog. Her little Sesshoumaru was a carefree boy. He doesn't deserve this... Saunna's lip began to quiver. Her hands trembled from abuse. She set her teacup down quickly. Smoothing her kimono, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She closed her eyes for a while, drifting off into a daze.

KNOCK

KNOCK

Saunna opened one eye. "Yes?" She waited for an answer. One of her servants came in.

"Lunch will be ready shortly, you highness." The scrawny girl said, bowing.

"Ahh... I don't feel so good. I'll just skip lunch and take a nap. If I don't wake up for dinner, don't bother waking me up."

The girl nodded and bowed out, shutting the door as she left. Saunna remained in her position. She stared out her window. She didn't see out the window, she was deep in a blank thought. Suddenly a question popped in her mind. The same question that haunted her for the past months that she had returned home. Saunna clenched her fists as she trembled from not wanting to cry.

If he knew this was going to happen, she wouldn't have married her husband. Save him and her from her grief. Saunna stared at the expensive teacup on her table. She would gladly exchange her life with a peasants if that meant she would receive the love her craved for. Saunna bit her lip as she flung the teacup against the wall. It broke at contact, shattering into thousands of pieces on the floor.

Why doesn't he come to me anymore?!? She shrieked desperately inside of her. Saunna clenched her fist, thinking of an explanation. He must have known. He must have known what had happen to her. He despised her now because she was no longer his anymore. A single tear trailed down her face. She betrayed him. She betrayed herself. All because of that awful youkai. She was stained forever. When he had forced himself on her, it felt like he was tearing her soul apart. She still felt dirty. She's not Saunna anymore. She wrung a piece of rope in her hands as streams of tears rushed down her face. Her eyes were hollow. There was no more sparkle of life inside them anymore.

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"Your Highness, I have something to discuss with you." The young mistress broke off the kiss between her and her lover.

He pulled apart from her, staring into her dark eyes. He waited for her to continue.

"I'm pregnant. I thought you might want to know."

"Hmm... How long?" He asked her. He didn't mind another kid. It was just hid mistress. He had been seeing his mistress since his wife was kidnapped. When his wife was recovered, he couldn't stop coming to Jun. She had him wrapped around her finger. He couldn't resist her luscious form. Never in a million years, had he thought he would be attracted to a human.

"For three months already." She looked at him for any expression. He smiled and ducked in to take her lips again.

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Saunna jerked up from her nightmare, screaming. Huffing, she clenched the sides of her arms as if to warm her from her cold sweat. She shook viscously, sobbing into her hands. Trying to stop from cry, she screamed hysterically, ripping her satin sheets with her claws. Then when she calmed down, she broke into more sobs, shaking. She rubbed the sides of her arms, trying to calm herself. She focused her eyes on her feet.

Saunna jerked her head to right, convinced she had heard something. She saw that bastard. He was in her room. He walked toward her, grinning crookedly. Saunna leaned away from him, clutching her legs close to her. He reached out to touch her.

"NO!" Saunna screamed, closing her eyes, wishing he would go away. Then he pounced on her. His breath hot on her neck. Right before Saunna's eyes, the same exact scene replayed and then he disappeared. Saunna quickly sat up. He must be in her room somewhere. She jerked her eyes from corner to corner. No one was there.

Saunna felt around in the dark for her husband but she didn't feel his presence. Saunna, legs against her chest, rocked herself for comfort. She was alone, all alone. Her eyes wide open and alert. Saunna needed her husband. She needed him to hold her in his arms. To tell her, he loved her and he needed her.

Saunna looked up to Her husband by the bed. She lunged at him to hug him but she feel against her mattress.

"Saunna." His smooth voice called from behind me.

She turned around to see him standing at the edge of the bed. He had a dark expression on his face. Saunna froze at the empty look in his eyes.

"You wretch! You're ruined now! How can I ever take you back?" He looked distant to Saunna as he said the heart burning words. "You deserve to die!" He reached out to grab her throat. Saunna backed away, shocked from his words.

"No!!!" Saunna shut her eyes, grabbing her hair. Tears gushed down her cheeks. Her husband didn't want her anymore. He hated her. He would never forgive her.

These words laughed at Saunna. She covered her ears from the painful words. Stumbling out of bed, she shook her head form side to side, trying to make the visions stop in her head.

Saunna bumped into her table by the window. She opened her eyes and saw a piece of rope she had had earlier. How it got there, she didn't care. She constricted the rope in her hands. This would help her get away.

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The servant girl thought she heard something in the Queen's corridor. She rushed down the hall. She knocked on the door. No answer. She decided to open the door to make sure. The scene that lay before her eyes struck her.

"AHHH!!!! Help! SOMEBODY HELP! QUEEN SAUNNA!!!" HELP!" All the commotion brought the night guards, the King, and the prince to the scene. The King shoved aside the guards, only to see his beloved dangling from a rope. He rushed to her.

"Quickly help me!" The King ordered the men to help the men to bring the Queen down. The servant girl noticed the prince. His face was a ghostly white and his eyes were wide open. She jumped to cover the prince's eyes and led him away. She brought him into his room.

"You highness, you must sleep." She explained to Prince. He still had the same expression on his face. Tears rolled down his rosy cheeks.

"Is mother dead?" He whispered hoarsely as he replayed the scene that his golden eyes witness in his head.

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Omg.. a traumatized Sesshoumaru... So sad!! WHAA!!*starts crying..* I give you a preview of what happens next... Sesshoumaru grows up to be cold.. revenging.. youkai...