Mizu_Tenshi: Constructive flames only please, no ranting and raving.
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"…" Speech
'…' Thought
*…* Implied words

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Chapter 1: Better off alone?

Bathed in soft moonlight Kai Hiwatari stood leaning almost casually against the balcony railing of his
hotel room. The wind's invisible fingers slowly caressed his slate blue hair and the sound of leaves
rustling in the breeze made broke the almost perfect silence. On the surface he looked calm and relaxed
but inside he was tense and submerged deep in thought.

It had been three whole weeks since the world tournament and ever since his loss against Bryan he had
been training harder than ever. He was so sure that he would loose his place on the team yet here he
was still with the Bladebreakers only two months away from the next tournament in New Zealand. The
thought wasn't exactly comforting to him, he had hated being on a team full of ammeters ever since the
beginning and, even though they had come a long way, they were still clueless.

"I'm only here because they still need me," Kai muttered. It was true, they needed him, he was still the
most powerful blader on the team but as soon as they got stronger they would realise that they no
longer needed him and they would leave him.

It was not surprising or the least bit hurtful for him to face the fact that he deemed to be true. Others
before had used him and then thrown away after he had served his purpose, it was like an unavoidable
spiral that tossed him from one user to the next.

'I'm stronger than that,' he told himself, he knew it was true, he was stronger than that but saying it
somehow made it feel all the more real. He was better off on his own he had been used and wanted for
the wrong reasons for too long, all he could do was rebel while keeping his distance from the world.

'"Not anymore," he said. He was tired of being everyone's puppet. His so called team mates had
convinced him that he was wanted, that's why he gave up Black Dranzer, he really believed that he had
found somewhere he belonged, he was a fool. He was an idiot to even ponder the slight possibility of
belonging anywhere. He was a stray and a renegade; he was better on his own.

Humans must be constantly surrounded by others; they cannot live without another

That was true. Humans depended on each other to survive but he, he was not trained to be human, he
was trained to be a fighting machine with no emotions; he was not affected by that rule.

There was once a time when he believed that one-day he would find his place in life but he was young
back then, naïve and foolish. He never gave thought that perhaps he was just destined to be alone that
maybe he might even be *better* on his own.

He had believed he would find his place, a home, somewhere to go and someone to love him, he had
believed all that and got his heart killed. He had believed in hope and then Biovolt came along,
shattered his fantasies and opened his eyes to his inevitable fate.

Looking back into the hotel room his eyes slowly skimmed over his sleeping roommate; he felt his
hand reach into his pocket and remove a crumpled sheet of paper. Something was written on it in
Russian but Kai understood it perfectly; his grandfather wanted him, he had a use for him.

Kai balled the piece of paper and threw it over the balcony, he wouldn't let his grandfather control him
anymore, he had to leave and start a new life.

'There'll be things I'll miss,' Kai thought as he watched the sleeping figure, the slow and steady
breathing and the aura of calm kindness that emitted from the figure. 'There'll be some things I'll miss,'
he repeated.

He knew it would hurt them to find him gone the next day. "You were going to hurt me, you might not
realise it but you were eventually," he told not just the sleeping figure but the others in the rooms next
to him. "It's only fair, I'm just looking out for myself."

'If I don't take care of myself who will?' he wondered as he packed the last of his things and left. 'Who
would care for me?'

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Mizu_Tenshi: Very short but it's just an opening. Tell me what you think.