THis fic is about Cloud wishing Aeris is still alive. Of course, don't blame me if he sounds a little mad.


My life is nothing without the Aeris. It really is nothing.
But if you force me to join her now, I wouldn't.
I wouldn't though my heart is there.

It would be wrong,
I couldn't die.
I couldn't leave Tifa and the rest of my friends.

Especially Tifa.
God knows she would just follow in my footsteps.
And take the path I took if i plunged.

I want to cry,
I want to bawl,
I want to scream.

But I wouldn't,
I wouldn't.
I'm the hero, ain't I?
Heros don't cry.

Sometimes my dreams are too real.
Sometimes when they really are,
I really want to cry.

When I find out that it is but a dream.
I want to cry.
Desperately.
I want to cry.

But heros don't cry.
They just don't.

Dream dreams that are impossible,
And bear the weight of it forever.

Forever.

I'm begaining to sound like VIncent now,
ain't I?

I understand him now.
Losing both Luceria and her son,
He still lives on.

I should too, you know?
I should.
But Aeris...
My life's nothing without her.

Impossible dreams haunt you till the end of eternity.

They haunt.

They haunt!!!

I run.
But too no avail.

I run.
They find me somehow.

The dream slows me down.
It kills me.

But I still love the dream.

I love it.

Some call me hopless,
Some call me mad.

I don't care.
I love the dream that kills me slowly,
As it can never be achieved.

I love it as it kills me.
I love it.

I cling,
I dream,
I...

I wish it is true.

I wish .

It never is,
Never will be.
Never till the end of time...

Never.

This is so great.
I'm really begaining to sound like Vincent.
Seriously.

But I understand him now.
Maybe I should ask him how I should stay alive,
When Aeris is gone.
When Aeris and Luceria and Sephiroth is gone.
Maybe I should.

But what if he's like me too?
He wants to jump off the next cliff...
As I want to too?

We'll both jump together.

That would be great.
Really great.

So I think I'll just dream my dream alone,
Dream though it's an illusion,
A delusion.

I immerse myself in my illusions.
Aeris is still alive.
She really is...