I want to reconcile the violence in your heart.
I want to recognise your beauty is not just a mask.
I want to exorcise the demons from your past.
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.
Matt's POV
We'd just finished recording 'Undisclosed Desires' – one of the songs I'd written about Dom, but as if I'd admit to that – and we were just leaving the studio. Chris had to get home to his wife and kids, the names of which I couldn't remember for the life of me. I turned to ask Dom, but I couldn't find him. I guessed he must have left something in the studio so I just thought I'd wait outside for him. I called for a taxi, and whilst I was waiting I decided to (attempt to) check my email. 6 new messages from Gaia. Pressing the delete key I thought to myself, she left me so why won't she leave me alone? Is this supposed to make things easier or does she just want to hurt me more? It's just too hard... Mid-thought, Dom sauntered out of the studio door, pushing all thoughts of Gaia out of my mind. He looked utterly delectable in those leopard print skinny jeans and that black v-neck top that showed just enough ski... Stop it Matt. He's your best friend. Nothing can ever happen, you know that.
Dom's POV
I'd just gone back inside to find my phone and it took longer than I had anticipated because I couldn't find it anywhere! Turns out, it was on the snare. I don't even know how the hell hat could've worked – unless Chris was playing another practical joke, a fail at a practical joke but never mind. You'd think that for a married man he'd be a bit more mature but no. He's almost as bad as his kids. Slipping my phone into the back pocket of my favourite jeans, the leopard print ones, I headed through the door to find Matt staring at me. Was there a glint of admiration in his eye? Don't be ridiculous Dom. That's just wishful thinking. He could have anyone he wanted – any girl he wanted – so why would he want you? But I couldn't put my finger on what that look was. Maybe I imagined it. It wouldn't be the first time my imagination had gotten the best of me when Matt was involved.
Matt's POV
After half an hour of waiting and talking about the different types of insect repellent, the taxi arrived. Dom and I both climbed into the back which I thought was unusual as Dom always called Shotgun if Chris wasn't there. But I wasn't gonna complain. We gave the driver both of our addresses and we set off. The taxi was growing closer and closer to Dom's apartment and I had conflicting thoughts running though my head: Just ask him to stay for a drink. Just a drink. – No. You know you'll try something and then you'll lose him forever. "Dom, do you wanna come have a drink at my place?" The words were out of my mouth before I'd even realised what I'd said. Matt! You absolute idiot! Why did you do tha- "Yeah, that'd be great". I looked up to see Dom smiling at me – he always looked majorly cute when he smiled – and I momentarily got lost in the greyness of his eyes. I'd always loved his eyes.
Dom's POV
The taxi turned up after about a half an hour. Matt had been chattering on about insect repellent or something, and I'd responded with nods and surprised looks in the right places and the like, but the whole time I had been staring at Matt. I loved it when he talked about something he was really interested in. Granted it's usually aliens and government conspiracies but it was still great to hear his voice. Anyway, the taxi turned up and I thought: Why not get sit with Matt? You know you want to, and now Gaia's not around there's nothing stopping you... I had to stop myself from thinking those types of things, but I got in the back seat anyway. Something seemed to be troubling him most of the ride and I had to stop myself from asking him what was wrong. I didn't want him to get upset in case he was thinking about HER. Why would she leave him? Why would anybody leave him? If I had him, I'd never let him go.
Suddenly, he turns to me and says, "Dom, do you wanna come have a drink at my place?" and I immediately responded "Yeah, that'd be great". I couldn't believe it. I'm going to Matt's. It's gonna be just me and him. Nobody else. No distractions. Just me and Matt. I've obviously been to Matt's before but it had never been without the rest of the band, or at 11'o clock at night. It occurred to me that I may have seemed too eager in replying to Matt's offer of a drink, but he was too busy looking out of the window at this point. Probably looking for aliens again, I thought to myself with a chuckle. Matt turned his attention away from the window and looked at me quizzically. Damn, I love the way he looks at me with those deep blue eyes and that half smile he does when he's confused. It made him look softer, more vulnerable. More needed to be looked after. I could do that... If only he'd let me. But I knew that would never happen. Could never happen.
The car pulled up outside a house that I knew all too well was Matt's. I tried (and failed) to convince Matt to let me pay for the cab ride but he refused and looked at me with that half smile that I love so much, and with a cheeky wink he sent me inside. The front door was unlocked as usual; because of course, no one would ever break into the house of Matthew Bellamy from Muse, so shaking my head and grinning to myself, I let myself in and went straight for the drinks cabinet in the kitchen, followed closely by Matt. I pulled out a bottle of vodka and was just filling two shot glasses to the brim, when I felt Matt's arms wrap around my waist. My whole body tensed and my heart beat quickened, and Matt immediately dropped his arms down. I knew he thought he'd done a bad thing because he frantically ran his hands through his hair, making it stick up at odd angles, looking even more adorable than usual.
"Dom... I... I'm sorry... I don't know what came over m-" He was cut off as my mouth found his.
Matt's POV
Dom was kissing me. I couldn't believe it. The moment I had dreamt about for years was finally happening. He tastes so good, I thought to myself as my tongue ventured towards his. My hands moved up the sides of his slender body, needing to feel the warmth of him, and my fingers quickly pulled that black v-neck over his head, leaving his chest exposed. He removed my shirt with the same speed, powered by lust, and began to trace my spine with his fingertips, lips still connected. I tried hard to keep control of my mind but I couldn't. Or my body for that matter. The intensity of the kiss made me lose feeling everywhere from the neck downwards as all my senses were concentrated in my lips. He bit down and pulled on my bottom lip slowly and my legs went weak. He must have sensed this as he started walking me backwards until I was sandwiched between some hard surface and Dom. I shuddered with pleasure as feeling returned to my limbs. With slightly more force than I meant to exert, I grabbed Dom's left hand with my own and led him through the kitchen doorway, lips still against one another's. As we made our way through the dark house, I ran my spare hand against the cold walls, clutched my fingers to the shadowed doorframes, and stroked every visible inch of Dom's hot body. At the bottom of the stairs, our lips finally parted and with a wicked grin and wink from me, we sped up the stairs, pausing occasionally to kiss.
I pulled him into the bedroom and pushed him against the door, my lips at his throat now. My tongue darted out to lick his soft skin and his hand moved into my hair and grasped it tightly, making me moan against his neck. I took his hand out of my hair and pushed him down onto the bed. Leaving a wet trail of kisses down his front and gently biting at the skin, I moved down with my mouth never losing contact with his hot, firm body, and unzipped his jeans with my teeth and pulled down his boxers. I then yanked them off and threw them across the room. Dom, who would usually make a fuss at his clothing being abused, didn't even flinch. He just stared at me with those gorgeous grey eyes and a seductive smile hovered over his lips. With that look, I could feel myself begin to harden. Christ, I never thought anyone would have this effect on me.Dom's POV
It took me a while to register what had happened. I had kissed Matt, and now I was lying naked on his bed. I knew what would happen next and I most definitely wasn't going to argue. Matt stood at the foot of the bed and removed his trousers and boxers, and I had to stifle a gasp. Sure, I'd seen Matt naked before on tour and stuff but this was different. Now he looked... He just looked... "Beautiful. So fucking beautiful". I hadn't meant to say those words out loud, but seeing that that single phrase, along with my body, had turned his eyes practically black from lust, I didn't deny saying them at all. Matt climbed on top of me and fiercely kissed my lips, the both of us letting out a moan as our erections brushed against each other. I opened my legs slightly to intensify the feeling. His lips moved across my jaw line and down my neck, where he bit down hard on my shoulders. All the while, his hands were busy stroking the inside of my thighs, and when I shuddered from the contact, I felt his smile on my skin. He once again traced his lips over my chest, stopping to lick around my belly button before carrying on down. I would never have believed that one drink could lead to this.
My breathing started to get heavier as his lips brushed against the tip of my hard-on and I couldn't help but moan when his mouth enclosed over and gently licked around it, pushing his tongue through tenderly then retracting it again in quick motions. All the muscles in my legs tensed as his mouth went further and further over my hard-on. I had slept with many women, and so had Matt, but nothing had ever felt this good before. Matt's tongue traced around my tip as he guided it in, then the licking stopped to be replaced by sucking, and my entire body quaked uncontrollably. I could barely draw breath. I could barely hold it in any longer. Then Matt's lips stopped sucking and uncovered me swiftly. I was confused and more than a bit annoyed and was about to object, but the next thing I knew, Matt's lips were at my ear. "You don't want this to be over too quickly do you?" And the annoyance was gone. Then I had a thought: If he thinks he's taking the lead, he's got another thing coming. I took him by surprise and rolled Matt over so I was on top. He struggled, obviously wanting to be in charge but my years of drumming meant that I had a good hold on his wrists. I've waited too long to kiss him, touch him, make love to him so he's gonna have to wait his turn.
Matt's POV
I had taken Dom into my mouth and loved every second of it. The taste of his skin had been intoxicating but I had forced myself away because I didn't know when I would get another chance like this and I refused to let it be over that quickly. I wanted to make him feel the way he made me feel. He seemed irritated when my lips moved away, but he couldn't have been too annoyed as he flipped me round so he was on top. I struggled because I had wanted to have all of him but being stuck underneath Dom was a great feeling and it gave me the chance to take in how pretty he was. Pretty, but in a grunge-y kind of way. And I liked it. I looked his body up and down, examining the soft contours in his chest, trying to understand how someone could be so perfect; realising that I'd fallen in love with my best friend. When he finally released my wrists to stroke up and down the sides of my waist, I reached over to the dresser and picked up a small tube. It made me sick to think how easy it had been for me to find it, how many times it had been opened, but I refused to let anything ruin this moment of pure bliss. I pressed it into Dom's hand and looked up at him, pleading with my eyes, knowing how that would affect him. I was not disappointed.
Dom's POV
I finally had Matt under me. I watched his eyes as he looked down my body, the coal black of his fluttering eyelashes contrasting with the bright blue of the eyes I'd gazed at in the moments when I thought he hadn't been looking. It was hard to believe that this stunning creature could ever want me the way I wanted him. His eyes met mine and Matt was looking at me with that expression that I'd seen him use on female groupies, and even then it had turned me on. So now that this look was aimed at me, I felt hotter than I'd ever felt before... Looking at what Matt had given me; I opened the tube and covered my fingers with the substance inside. I glanced down at Matt, who now had his eyes closed and whose breathing was very shallow, and I slipped one finger into his tight entrance, receiving a quiet moan as a response. I added another finger, and then another, each time the moans growing louder. I could tell that he was in discomfort but was trying to hide it and I hated the idea that although it felt good, it hurt him also. So, removing my fingers, I moved them up to one of his nipples and started to rub on it until the nub hardened. I leant over to kiss Matt once again: this time starting by nibbling on his earlobe (where I was rewarded with a soft groan) and again kissing down his jaw line to meet his lips. As I pulled away, I grazed over his bottom lip with my teeth, and licking my lips I slicked my now hardened cock and moved myself to sit directly above Matt. His eyes opened as my weight shifted and then widened as I leant down over him and pushed my way inside of him. It felt incredible. He shrieked both in pleasure and pain. I stopped focussing on anything other than pleasing Matt because after so many years, I finally had him and I was not going to fuck it up now. I concentrated only on his face, his heavy breathing, the way his body responded to mine. I wanted to taste his lips again, but instead I took his hand and put his index and middle fingers in my mouth, imitating his earlier actions.
Matt's POV
I cried out as Dom entered me, part of me begging him to stop but the majority of me wanting him to be deeper and faster. "Dom... Oh my god... Fuck! Oh, Dominic!" I couldn't help but shout his name. I could tell that he enjoyed hearing it, as every time I said it, it would be countered with a roll of his hips. This caused a new sensation inside of me that I had never felt before. It was one that caused me to grasp the bed sheets and that made my toes curl back. Dom must have noticed this because he repeated the same movement, each time making me scream his name again and again. Keeping the rhythm as he drove himself into me, he grabbed my hand and before I could ask why, my fingers were in his mouth. The feel of his warm, wet saliva on my skin made me shiver – the movement obviously pleasing Dom as he smiled into my hand.
It soon became too much and I was convinced that my mind would explode if he didn't stop completely, but Dom let go of my hand and grabbed hold of my cock. It was obvious that he was trying to go slow to prolong the experience, but the heat of the moment and the amount of sexual tension in the small space between us meant that the movement of his hand increased in speed very quickly. Whenever I'd been with a woman, I would force her to start off slow, but this was different. This actually meant something and I wanted Dom to enjoy it as much as I did. The combination of his hand movements and his deep penetration meant that I soon couldn't control it anymore and I came over the both of us.
Dom's POV
Seeing Matt so hot because of me was amazing. For the first time in ages, I felt cared about. No woman had ever responded to me in such a way as Matt did and this sent me into positive ecstasy. Although he had already climaxed, I was still inside of him. He was still moaning and whispering my name. I stared at his beautiful face and when he arched his back and bit his bottom lip as I hit a sensitive spot, it sent me over the edge and I came, collapsing on top of him. The both of us were sticky, covered in Matt's cum, but neither of us cared. We just lay next to each other, our breathing heavy and uneven after our rough bout of lovemaking. When I felt that I had caught my breath, I turned to face Matt. "Matt... Matthew... I've wanted to tell you something for a long time now... I... I think I love you", I said. Feeling my face flush, I looked away. But Matt put his index finger under my chin and kissed me softly. He pulled away and I was left looking deep into those beautiful blue eyes, and that's when I got the response I'd been waiting for ever since we were kids. "Y'know what Dominic? I fucking love you too. Always have done". :]