Summary: One of the Gravitation characters finds out he has HIV, and now has the daunting task of telling his lover.
Immediately he blanched as he read the words on the letter he'd received, a formal typed letter from the hospital lab—after spending the past two week feeling tired and sick all the time, he had some tests done to see what was wrong. Now he wished he hadn't, or that he hadn't requested to be informed through the mail. As he read the words his mind went blank, it wasn't real, it couldn't be real—he couldn't have it.
That was what he kept telling himself, though he knew it was quite possible, quite highly possible that he did—with how many lovers he had had in life, he was surprised he hadn't contacted everything out there. Slowly he slumped down on a chair, letter still in his hand, wondering why he even agreed to get the tests done anyway.
Yes—it was because his partner had started coming down sick like him, catching his colds easily—he worried that he was causing his lover's sicknesses; now, eyes widening on his blanched face, he realized he probably had.
"Shit, no…." He dropped the letter without noticing his mind wrapped in his guilty thoughts—he hadn't been unfaithful during his and his lover's relationship, but he should've been smarter about his sexual encounters before that. He should've been tested before this, he should've used protection each time he had sex—then he wouldn't have gotten that letter.
He wouldn't have this worry eating away at him, worry that he had given his lover the deadly virus—worry of what would happen once his lover knew, did he even have to tell him?
Yes, he decided. Yes, he needs to know—but how can I tell him? How can I tell him he needs to get tested for HIV?
A/N: Short first chapter, but I want your opinion first before I continue—I originally had this planned to be a Yuki/Shuuichi fic, but then the idea to make it a Tatsuha/Ryuuichi fic came to me; Now it's up to you fans to decide—which couple should this story be about? Or should I write a version for both couples?