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Tonks. My name has so much more meaning than anyone could possibly even imagine. Nymphadora . Tonks. I've always been the girl with the alter ego, the other me if you please. Have you ever wondered what me I truly am? The successful Auror or the greatest clutz of the century? Is it really possible to be both? Silly of me to ask you must be thinking. Aren't I both? Aren't I the one who works for the ministry and can't manage to walk down a hallway without knocking down a coat rack? Have you ever thought it was just all an act?
Maybe I truly am meant to blast death eaters into the next oblivion-but there's more to me than meets the eye. I stopped battling evil a long time ago. My new battle? Sadness. Grief. Fear. Terror. Evil has it's own side effects and here I am stuck in the middle of it all. Let me show you through the world the way I see it. Maybe you'll learn to see why I am truly Nymphadora but why Tonks has become a part of me that I cannot lose. If I lose Tonks I lose my sanity. Myself. The one thing that can help me get though these dark days.
Maybe I turn my hair pink to get a smile out of at least one person in the morning. Let that one smile pass to the others. Maybe changing my nose into that of an animal will help fill the walls of this empty house with laughter once more. Maybe tripping over my own feet will help lighten the mood when we're heading through a dark tunnel that leads to a place unknown. Maybe…I can't stand being surrounded by people who are uncertain and in pain. If I see another crying-I cry. Instead of spreading the tears-I try my best to spread the smiles because I want to come out of this happy once more. I want to be happy about the simple things again. I want to enjoy the sunny days and the breeze blowing through my hair. I don't want to be afraid about opening up the morning Prophet to see the list of more who have died in war. I don't want to be afraid.
Is happiness to much to ask?
A/N: Ok, so this was a simple one-shot I had written before Deathly Hallows came out, but I edited it now so it fits with the story. Please tell me what you think. Review!