Edward a vampire accidentally kills Bella in Breaking Dawn while making love. This is his POV after they bury Bella.
I don't own the lyrics to this song, or Twilight. I just thought this fit perfectly to the idea that popped in my head.
Alice in Chains -Down in a hole songfic
Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here
I sit Holding rare flowers
In a tomb... in bloom
Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who wont let himself be
Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' control
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied
Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath
Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' control
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied
Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb... in bloom
Prologue
"Bella, I promised we would try, but if I hurt you, you must tell me at once". Those were the words I spoke to her before I took her life from her. Bella, so trusting, so loving swore that I could never hurt her, she was wrong, so very wrong.
She kept her word though, as soon as I entered her soft fragile body she started to slap me. I was so wrapped up in the feeling of her warmth and the marvel of how it almost warmed my skin up and made me feel almost human again, that I didn't feel her hitting me, I didn't hear her screams of pain, or the shattering of her hips. I continued to pump in and out of her while I slowly and painfully killed her. When I climaxed and realized she wasn't breathing and there was too much blood for it to only be her virginal essences leaving her body, it was too late. I had brutally murdered my love, my life, my existence.
Present Day
Now here I sit in her tomb holding these rare flowers in bloom. I don't know if I can be saved, I don't want to be saved. Carlisle thought it best to fake my death as well, and bury Bella here on the island, for the safety of all my family. I didn't go to the Volturi this time. My punishment would be to suffer for all eternity with the pain and the loss that I caused myself.
No one understands how this could have happened from the man who they all thought I was supposed to be. Now I am a man who will not let himself be. I sit day and night next to Bella's tomb, apologizing and constantly replaying the death I caused my beloved.
I feel so small so broken. I know I'm losing control and I relish in the fact that this is my hell and I will never have the wings that my Bella now has to carry me away. I will never be with her again, she was pure and I am the monster I tried to convince her of so many times before.
They built her tomb around me, enclosing me inside so the sun no longer shines upon me, I sit in utter darkness, wallowing in my grief. How I wish I could be in this tomb with my Bella, rotting corpses but together in our heaven.
I will speak no more of my feelings beneath, until the end of time I will be here in this hole, out of control, sitting until I feel no more.
The End