What's up? Haven't published a new story in a while:)

I got this idea before I went to bed last night and I just had to type it out :D

Thanks to BookVampire for beta-reading. You're SUPER awesome!

I do not own Night World.

I Hate That I Love You

If you looked at us, you'd say Morgead and I had a complicated relationship. Well, I'm not trying to deny it, because we do.

We're just not used to this whole love thing. I think we're too used to hating each other.

"What the hell are you talking about?" Morgead yelled at me.

Yeah, another one of our fights. It's like a daily routine to us. Wake up, kiss, then piss each other off, and argue.

"Do you hear yourself? Goddess, leave me alone!" I yelled back at him.

He got pissed at me because I flicked him off after training. All this Wild Power business was really exhausting and I didn't need more shit piled on me.

"Jez, what're you so freaking mad at?"

"The world! I'm mad at all this save the world stuff, being locked down for safety, and I'm mad at how you keep smothering me! Leave me ALONE!"

He stopped talking and just looked into my eyes with that look. That stupid look he always gives me when we're fighting. The look that says everything. Everything I didn't want to hear. How did he sum it all up into one look?

"Don't look at me like that," I said trying to avoid eye contact.

He looked down at the floor and his jet black hair fell in front of his face.

"I smother you because I love you, Jez," he said still looking at the floor.

I love you, those were three words that I could never say as easily as he does. Anytime I try to say it I choke up. He tells me that he understands that I'm not used to this and I needed time, but I know it kills him.

"Not now, Morgead. Please… just don't," I said and walked out the room.

"Jez!" He called after me, but I kept walking.

Okay, I was lying earlier. I'm not used to the whole love thing. Morgead is madly in love with me and oh boy, does it show.

I kept walking until I got up to Rashel's room. Rashel was my best friend in Circle Daybreak. We had an instant connection when we met and I could go to her whenever I needed her.

I knocked on her door and stood back as she opened it.

"Hey Jez," she said smiling.

"Hey, can I talk to you for a second?" I asked.

She raised her eyebrows then nodded. She moved away from the door and I walked in. After she closed the door she laid down on her bed with me.

"Okay, what do you have to talk about?"

I stared at the ceiling as I told her this. For some reason I couldn't look people in the eye when I talked about Morgead and my relationship.

"Rashel, I can't say "I love you" to Morgead."

She turned her head to look at me.

"Why not? You do love him, right?"

"Absolutely. I love him so much, but…."

"You don't know how to express it?"

"Exactly."

See, this is why I love Rashel. She understands things without me saying it.

"Well, how does he express his love?"

"By blurting out I love you and kissing me hard."

She laughed gently and said, "That somewhat reminds me of Quinn when I'm mad at him."

I giggled and thought about Quinn acting like Morgead.

"You've tried saying I love you, right?"

"Yeah, like a thousand times, but every time I choke up. He said he understands that I'm not used to it and stuff. But I know it hurts him."

"Love is a 50:50 relationship, but love doesn't just come overnight. It requires progress and building. For sure Quinn and I don't have the smoothest road. There are a few bumps here and there."

I snorted, "There must be like a million bumps in my road."

"Hey, that's progress for you," Rashel said.

"So what do you think I should do?"

"Get away for a bit. You're a Wild Power, that's defiantly hard and stressful. So you two should leave the mansion for some time and work out your problems."

"Yeah, maybe we do have to get away. We'll go back to San Francisco for a bit."

"That's perfect," Rashel said and sat up. I sat up with her and gave a her a quick hug before getting up.

"Thanks so much Rashel," I said smiling at her.

"No problems. Have fun on your getaway!" She yelled after me as I left her room and walked back to mine.

I pushed open the door and saw Morgead lying on the bed, watching T.V. He turned his head to me and gave me a small smile.

I smiled back at him and lay down next to him.

"Morgead, what do you think about getting away from the mansion for a bit?"

"Hmm, doesn't seem bad. Where would we go?"

"Back to San Francisco."

He smiled to himself and nodded.

"I don't mind going home for a bit."

"Same here," I said and snuggled into his neck and his arm wrapped my waist.

"Listen about earlier… I'm sorry. I'll back off if you want me to."

I turned his head to me and looked him straight in the eyes.

"Morgead, don't. I… I…." I started to stutter. My throat felt like it was closing and it got hot in the room. Why? Why couldn't I say it?

Hurt flashed across his face, but he covered it with a smile.

"Don't worry, Jez. I understand."

"Morgead—"

"Let's start packing." He got up and walked away from me.

There goes another failed attempt.

Poor Jez ):

IF I WERE HER, I'D BE TELLING MORGEAD I LOVE HIM ALL THE TIME!

Anyway, thanks for reading :)

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-Ness