Long Lost Never Returned
I remember when we first started school, you where friends that boy the rude one. You never made fun of me but you never stopped it either. I think if I hadn't always raised my hand you might never had noticed me. I was shocked you even felt the need to help me on that late Halloween night. We became tentative friends after that. I was sad to see go afraid that by the next year you wouldn't want to be my friend any more.
The next year on the plat form I was so relieved to see you I almost cried. Later when I was hurt I didn't want you to see me weak like that. When I heard what had happened I almost passed out, it was then I realized I harbored feeling of you but I pushed them aside. Your happiness comes first.
Our third year came with a shock; I never expected to be able to help you very much in any of your adventures. When we flew through the air it was the first time I had enjoyed anything to do with large heights. At the end of the year I was afraid again to let you go. Would you push me aside? Would I just be in the back ground, your shadow?
When your name flew from the goblet I felt disbelief. Later when they blamed you saying you cheated I felt burning anger. How dare they do this to you after all you've done for them? Seeing you fly away from that dragon my heart almost stopped. When you disappeared and reappeared in the maze I think for awhile my heart did stop. Don't ever blame yourself for what you could not have known would happen.
I wonder what would have happened if I had listened to you, would Sirius and Dumbledore still be alive? Would we still have been betrayed?
Staying in the tent with you and traveling through Britain on the search was hard. Hiding my growing feeling for you and pretending to love someone else; after awhile with everyone telling me that Ron and I belonged together I began to believe it. But on the search realized I loved you; even though you didn't know it. So I stayed around Ron trying to convince myself that I could grow to love him.
It never worked, I think he noticed it but brushed it off as me worrying about you. I never told him otherwise.
When you proposed, married, and had children with Ginny I felt like I would break. I loved my own family, but sometimes I would find myself imagining what our children would have been like. I think Remus and Minerva noticed it I would sometimes look up to see them give me sad almost but not quite pitying looks.
I think I can move on now. I've found peace inside; I can be your friend and not feel like my soul is being ripped out. I can remember Ron, without feeling like if had told him how I really felt; I could have prevented his death.
You took something from me over those years. You took my heart. And I'll never get it back.
Hermione J. Granger
She put the parchment on the table and walked out the door. Standing on the path she looked back smiled softly and with a pop disappeared.