About to lose me
It was perfect, I was ready. I was taking the first step into my new life, then everything changed. Everything went to shit.
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Prologue
"As easy as breathing"
When I stood in front of him that day, I had no idea the true thoughts running through his mind. How those feelings coursed through his body and invaded his soul. The brain is an amazing thing when you consider the things it does, but it is in some ones heart that the true person lies. The actions they take to remain loyal, to protect no matter the pain it incurs. I thought for a long time that I knew what true love meant, that the feelings that I felt for another were of the truest and purest form. I was wrong.
Chapter one.
I stood beneath the cover of the forest. The trees hung high but heavily above me, only allowing a gentle trickle of the pounding rain to hit me on its way down. I was wet through and my thin clothes clung to me like a scared child to its mother. The winter had drawn in quickly and the wind flew around me, hitting me like a hard crack of a whip.
However, as I stood there, staring at his house I felt nothing. It looked hollow and cold; almost as if it never held the love and energy I always associated it with. The same red paint, crackled and almost burnt looking coated the small fragile building, door hung that little bit too high, windows with that little tint to them showing their age. Yes, it was the same building in itself, but without him, it was almost non-existent. It simply faded into the surrounding world, swallowed whole by the deep forest that had now closed in around it.
I felt like an intruder, prying in on something that should just be left alone, allowed to fall and disintegrate into the ground beneath it. However I felt glued in place, memories flashing before me like a worn out movie on repeat. My eyes filled with salty tears, stinging before rolling down my reddened cheeks.
I did this.
"Why are you here Bella?" A gruff voice came from behind me, causing me to fall from my reverie. I turned to find Embry, taller, broader than before. He looked grown up, he looked pissed off.
"I'm, well...I just" I stuttered in reply. I couldn't answer him; I had no idea myself. I sighed heavily and hung my head, unable to keep looking up into his questioning eyes. I had no idea why I was putting myself through this. I knew one of them would turn up; In fact I was shocked it took this long. What wasn't shocking was every time I looked at Embry I saw him staring back at me.
"Bella you need to leave" his voice was deep and harsh. The words striking deep like ice cold daggers straight into my heart, I was expecting it, but it hurt all the same. Unable to lift my head I mumbled incoherently in reply before turning my back. I was buying time, he knew, I knew it.
"Don't do that Bella. Don't act like you're the victim in this. You made your bed so lie in it" Embry growled stepping up behind me and spinning my body to face his. I felt his hands strong but gentle wrapped around my upper arms, the heat melting my frosty skin.
'It would be as easy as breathing with me Bella'
The memory pierced into my mind making me flinch back from Embry's grip. I shook my head to clear my mind and looked up at Embry's dark eyes and it broke me. Every part that I had held on to these last few months fell away. Then something in me clicked, I didn't fall to the floor in a helpless mess, I ranted.
"I'm sorry; I didn't get there in time Embry. I'm sorry that I was too caught up in myself to see what was right in front of me, that I didn't listen, didn't act. But he didn't tell me, I didn't know and I can't read minds. I'm only human; I'm not a vampire who remembers everything that's been said. A wolf that could be in his mind to see it. You all hate me because you all think it was my fault, but not one of you told me the truth. You preach about choices, about how I needed to make my own, but how could I when I didn't even know the full story, when I wasn't even told. You all blame me! Well wake up because it's your fault too!" I screamed in his face, fresh tears flowing now like a river down my face. Adrenaline pumped through my veins thick and fast. My fists were balled tight by my sides and I squared up to the trembling wolf before me barely half his size.
"It was your fault too" I growled between clenched teeth.
There was a sudden loud snap and I found myself on the floor a good 4 foot away from Embry, my head hazy and my face throbbing like I was just hit with a sledge hammer. I turned and looked up to find Embry staring at me in shock, his hand still in mind air.