It hurt. It hurt more than she thought it should. After all, she had been through a war, people she knew had died. Friends had died. She had cried more tears than she thought her body could contain, until she thought she would never cry again. But she did. And no matter how many times she told herself that compared to what she have lived through, of what she had gone through, this shouldn't matter so much. She shouldn't be feeling this much grief. But she did feel it. And when she let herself think about it properly without feeling guilty for all the people who had died in the war, and left her feeling next to nothing, because she didn't bloody well know them… it was as if a friend had died. Her only friend for a long time, in a certain period of her life when no one else wanted to speak to her.
Crookshanks was dead.
Crookshanks was dead and she couldn't stop crying.
Crookshanks her beautiful, fluffy, brave pussy-cat, who had helped sirius in her third year, who had been her only friend when ron and harry wouldn't speak to her, who had let her cuddle him, and cry into his fur when ron had left her heartbroken in her sixth year. Her one friend who had never hurt her, or questioned her, or demanded anything from her apart for some affection and some food.
He was gone. Gone. And it hurt so goddamn much. And no one else understood, because he was just a cat. Just a cat? Just a fucking cat? Her baby, her best friend was dead and no one would just let her grieve him damn it!
So really, when she though about it, when she really let herself think about it… she wasn't all that surprised of how much it hurt. Another friend was dead. Another friend she would never see again. Another ache in her heart that would never go away. Another person to grieve.
She should make a fucking list.
It was the one year anniversary for the death of my cat a week ago, and it still hurts. And I think that Hermione really loved crookshanks, and that she would be devastated when he died. But I'm an animal lover so maybe you don't think she would have reacted this way? Feel free to let me know!
I don't own Hermione or Crookshanks or anything else Harry Potter related...