Inspired by Rehab by Rihanna
I still remember the fist time I looked at him across the Pit, his eyes shinned bright as he caught me staring at him. My breathe caught in my throat. I was suddenly unable to speak before this magnificent man. He swept me off my feet before I even realized what I was doing.
When we first met, I never felt something so stronger
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
Four was magical, every kiss left me breathless. I was floating on cloud nine whenever I was near him. All our time spent together was behind closed doors ravaging each other's body. He worshiped my body in ways I never knew were possible to experience.
Every thing seemed perfect in my eyes...
I didn't expect him to up and leave me, I thought what we had was unheard of. I thought he loved me past loving my body.
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow
Depression soaked deep into my bones. Wallowing in my self pity near the chasm. Silent tears fell from my eyes burning my cheeks on the way down, pulled by gravity. I felt used, like yesterday's newspaper; tossed to the wind to be picked up and thrown away all over again.
And I never gave myself to another the way I gave it to you
I gave four my most precious gift. He owned my body and soul. I never understood what it was like to feel alone until Four left me. I vowed to never let another man in to where he had control over my heart.
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
It was easier for me turning into an ice queen, a cold hearted bitch. Anger pulsed through my veins when I saw him from afar with her wrapped in his arms. He's the one that should be suffering, not me. Albeit here I am, determined to not give a damn.
And now I feel like I can put this relationship to an end
Oh, you're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed
It's like I checked into rehab
And, baby, you're my disease
I was addicted to him. I loved the way he smelled. I loved the way his eyes burned a flame for me. I loved they way he took my breathe away.
Damn, ain't it crazy when you're love swept?
You'd do anything for the one you love
Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using you
But now that I know it's not meant to be
It gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you
There is no turning back at this point. There is no going back on the things he took from me. I can only hold my head up high and move on, not dwell on the past.
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
Authors note
Hi everyone I wanted something different. Something that was poetically expressed for those tho have been hurt by a relationship./p
