Where Would We Be Now
"Where would we be now?"
I keep asking myself that question every day. I miss you so much. Would we still be together now if you hadn't died? Could I have forgotten your past even if you had changed? Starsky said you were going to give it all up just to be with me. I loved you so much I think I would have tried. Why couldn't you have just been honest with me, Gillian? Maybe this wouldn't have happened. I could have protected you, but where would we be now? Could I have lived knowing what you did? Could I get over all those strange men touching you, touching my girl, my beautiful Gillian? Would I have been proud to walk into a room with you on my arm? I ask myself if we would have married and had children. Would we be happy, or would your past come back to haunt us? Why can't I stop thinking about you? Will it ever go away? I love you, Gillian, and wish you were still here so I wouldn't have to ask myself, "Where would we be now?"