At the temple
There is a poem called "Lost" carved into the stone.
It has three words, but the poet has scratched them out.
You cannot read Loss, only feel it.
Memories of a Geisha
I sighed and closed my book. I looked around in the hospitalroom, it was empty. With the first smile, I'v smiled since that day, I lean back against my pillow and close my eyes. Two weeks since that day at the ministry. Two weeks since he left me. A week, since I ended up here. "You are eating and sleeping way too little Mr. Lupin" the healer had said "We're gonna keep you here until we believe you are ready to be on your own". "You cannot use magic the next 3 weeks" I had snorted at him. Magic. I'v lost my magic long ago. It went with Sirius, behind the veil. I could feel the tears runing down my cheek. I promised myself I wouldn't cry. But, Sirius. "Sirius" I say out loud "You promised too.. Remember?" "You promised that you were here to stay. You said that the moon would never be without it stars. Guess we both didn't keep our promises"
It was our second year. I had just been confronted by my very first, and only friends, that they knew what I were - a werewolf. In shock and fear of losing my friend, or getting kick out of the school and getting Dumbledor fired, I ran. Out too the easttower. I sat there, alone, for a long time. Until Sirius ran in. "R-remus?" he gasped "were you here all the time?" I nodded "why did you run?" "you hate me now, don't you?" he shook his head. "We could never hate you Remus" he sat down beside me, and looked up at the sky. It was night and the stars light were shinning down on us. "Look at that star" he had said "that's me, Sirius, the dog star" I nodded, I knew that. He pointed that the moon. "And thats you Remus, the moon" I became confused "what do you mean Siri?" I whispered. "The day our eath was born, the sky, sun and the moon were too. The sun had the day, were we human were there too keep it company. but the moon had the night, all alone and it felt lonely. So the sky decised too give the moon the stars. The stars and the moon became friends. And the stars has yet to fail the moon. Allways will they be there. The moon will never be without the stars."
We sat there all night. Looking at the stars and talking. When the time neared sunrise, but the sky was yet dark with the stars upon it I said: "Sirius, you are the dog star.. Dog star.. Padfood" He grinned at his new nickname. "Thank you .. Mr. Moony"
"Remus, you should get out more" Tonks had said to me, the day befour I ended up here. "I'm worried" I knew she didn't mean it. Sure, she worried about me. But I knew she allso wanted too lock herself up in her house, just sit there, not eating, not sleeping. Only waiting. Wating for Sirius too run in that door and yell; "it was all a prank!" abd I would hug him, I would be angry, it would be an evil prank, but I would hug him. Tell him how much I loved him. But it wasn't a prank. Sirius was dead. And I had yet too accept it.
Tonks felt as if it all were her fault. If I just could show her, that it wasn't. But when I say that it's mine she starts crying, yelling that it's not. But it was. It is. I could have kept him at home. I could have stayed home with him. But I myself, had too go, not because they needed me, no I needed them. I needed too fight for Harry. Too help Harry. Just like Sirius.
Deep down I knew that, me staying, wouldn't make him stay. Sirius would have found a way out. Like allways. Just that, this time, he didn't, he's still in there. He was yet too find a way out.
I sighed and closed my eyes. Feeling the need too sleep. I prey for a good dream, a dream were in I, remember all the good times with the Marauders. James, Remus, Sirius and even Peter. If not, espeacilly Peter. I want, no, I need the good times back.