My name is Evie, i have an average life, a mum who couldn't really care any less about me, a step dad who never has and never will show emotions, an older sister who cares about nothing more than having sex with her boyfriend and using people whom she should love in order to get what she wants, and then there is my baby brother, so cute, so sweet but he doesn't have a clue what life is really like because to him, life so far is just having everybody's attention on him, getting fed and making sure he takes his daily afternoon nap. He is unaware that as he grows up he will realise how different life really is to how he sees it now. Life is so easy for him but that is simply because it isn't life, life doesn't really start until you understand it but no one can ever fully understand the concept or meaning of life so really we are all dead inside.

Which is how i feel anyway but i have taught myself to ignore and escape the real world by creating my own world in my head, its happy, it's easy and there is never any sight of my real family, in this life there is no such thing as family because family only causes upset and regret. In this life, people live and work on their own, they don't care about anyone else but this isn't because they are arrogant snobs it is because there is no one to care about. All problems and misery in life start with just two things, these are family and love, these are also the two things in life that are most easily lost, it only takes words, actions and mistakes for all happiness to turn into sadness and disbelief, that is why in my world there is no family and no love.

Yes, it does get lonely, but loneliness is better than grief and loss. I only live in my own world some of the time though that's because i have to live in the real world the rest of the time to keep whatever sanity i have.

One day, in the real world this is, i woke up and was laying in bed staring at my MCR calendar wondering what on earth i was going to do because it was a Saturday and that meant my mum would be at work my sister would be at her boyfriends and my step dad would take my baby brother to my step Nan's house so he could get some gardening done for her and so my Nan could see her one and only grandson. Which only left me, my best friend was on holiday and my boyfriend always had some excuse for not hanging out with me. I decided to get dressed as i had nothing else to do so i went to my messy dark wardrobe and pulled out my MCR top and my bullet for my valentine hoody, i grabbed a pair of black jeans and my dark purple converse and got changed into it, i walked over to my desk and picked up some skull earrings and a big handful of black gummy bracelets and then walked up to my mirror i applied my overload of eyeliner and walked out the door. I got to the hall and not knowing what i was going to do decided to "borrow" some money from my sisters money box then i sat on the top step of the stairs, i pilled my phone out of my pocket and went onto create text message then i texted my boyfriend:

'Hiya im bored so im coming ur house, if ur not ther den i wil go into town nd w8 4 u by da water fountin no excuses if u don't meet me ur dumped'

It sounded harsh but i hadn't seen him in ages because he just stayed at his mates all the time, he saw them more than he saw me!

I carried on down the stairs putting my phone securely in my pocket and went into the kitchen; i wasn't feeling hungry so i got a cup of coffee and a couple of digestive biscuits to dunk in it before starting my journey to my boyfriend's house.

When i got there it looked lifeless there were no lights on and no sound coming from the house i knocked on the door but there was no answer so i walked up to the window but i couldn't see anyone in there. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my phone i texted my boyfriend again

Hey im at ur house but der aint ne1 home so im goin town memba wata fountin i wont w8 4 long

I put my phone back in my pocket and left his house to head into town.

Town wasn't very busy at all which is weird for a Saturday but i kept walking as i walked past all the shops there were no people in them and all the shopkeepers looked bored and depressed. I wondered why no one was in town, i hadn't heard of any kind of event. I ignored the silentness of town and went and sat on the bench by the water fountain.

..............................................................3 hours later..............................................................

I had been there for 3 hours, i had texted my boyfriend 15 times and rang him 10 times but there was no sign of him and never and answer or reply. Where was he? Where was anybody?

I decided to give up and go home maybe there was something more interesting to do there.

Even though i was about to dump my boyfriend, i didn't feel at all sad i felt no emotions really i slowly made my way home and when i got there the door was unlocked someone was in there but who could it be? I heard someone upstairs so i slowly made my way up the stairs, they were in my sisters room so i walked in there, it was my sister she was crying and had her head rested on her knees as she was sat in the corner of the room sobbing into a ripped up tissue.

Without even thinking i power slid along the floor to her to see what was wrong. I lifted up her hand and tried to get to her face i asked her what was wrong but she just looked at me