All You Wanted
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me… NOTHING!! *turns and sobs*
Yes, I have been on a temporary writing hiatus. I just didn't feel like writing my English essays at the moment, but I still felt like writing.
This one kinda reflects on recent events in my life. Yeah… that means I like a guy *blush*. SO WHAT??!!!! *chibi folds arms and pouts*
Hope you guys like this one… I dunno if I will *shrugs*. Oh well! On with the fic!!!
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"EHH??? NANI?!!" I slammed my history book as hard as I could on the floor, sudden anger rushing into me. I think a couple people were staring… but that didn't stop me from yelling, of course. "WHERE DID YOU HEAR THAT?!"
My burgundy-haired friend standing opposite me by my locker seemed to hesitate; she also looked a little exasperated with my reaction. "Uh… Now, don't get me wrong or anything… But I don't remember…"
"YOU DON'T REMEMBER?!!!" Wonderful – just perfectly, absolutely, positively, howdy-doody wonderful. She doesn't remember where she heard this rumor… and now, the entire school knows, probably.
… Probably…
"Sora! I'm really sorry, but it's word of mouth – I was probably standing around somewhere, and then suddenly just heard it as conversation behind me!"
"But…" I took my algebra book out of my locker, ready to let that one violently join the Japanese history book on the cold tile floor. "WHERE could you have HEARD such a thing?!"
"Calm down – it's nothing! It'll-"
"What do you mean, 'IT'S NOTHING?!' OF COURSE, IT'S SOMETHING!! How couldn't it be?! I'm not going out with anyone, and now everyone will think that I'm taken! I don't like anybody in this school, really, and I don't plan on going out with a lot of guys for the rest of my stay here…!"
I was lying, of course… I mean, there were a couple of guys I had my eye on – but none so much as one guy. One guy that stole my heart the day that I met him. One guy that made my heart stop pounding everytime he came near. One guy that I could just hug forever and stay like that… just like that.
"As I was saying… It'll probably go away with time, so you don't really have to worry! Just let it go!"
I picked up the heavy books and put them into my black messenger bag, wondering how I would go on the rest of the year carrying so many things around. I also wondered if that one guy knew about the rumor, too… "But that's just it – people will probably think that we'll go out FOREVER, and that we'll NEVER separate!"
"You're looking into this too much. I think you should just go on throughout the rest of the day and act as if nothing has happened, ok?"
"Ok." I sighed – hey, that one guy could always never know, and I could go on liking him without him knowing… Yeah, that sounds like something I wanna hear. Cause every time I see him… he just… Ah, forget it – there was something else on my mind, too. "Hey, did you get the bio homework last night?"
"OOO – HERE HE COMES!!" And that one guy was fast approaching as Yukari continued to squeal.
I couldn't believe her. I would have smacked her, had I still had that algebra book out… But then again, she IS talking about that one guy that I do like.
That one guy that just about every other girl in school is head over heels for.
Yukari really can be ridiculous sometimes. "Mah – weren't you the one that just said to forget about all of this?"
"Yeah, but I was telling you, not me!"
I really did want to slap Yukari. But that would result in her hating me for the rest of my life, and I would never be able to spill to her during lunch how much I was in love with this one guy. This one guy that was right behind me, and probably wondering why I didn't turn around to greet him. He knew that I knew he was there (thanks to Yukari's wonderful, yet very quick, display of obsession) - … I guess he just didn't care, and thought nothing of it. Why do I always think about him so much?
"Hey, Sora. What's up?"
I put on my greatest fake grin in the world – the one that every one of my friends knows – the one where I flash some teeth, and then quickly drop my lips into a pout because I'm covering something up that's seriously bothering me. Wow, this is seriously bothering me. "Konnichiwa, Yamato. Nothing, to tell you the truth." I really hoped that he didn't hear what was going around the school…
"Did you hear that bogus rumor about us going out?" Too late.
"Don't tell me you knew about this before I did…?"
"You mean you only found out today?"
I was so steamed. I just leaned onto my locker… and felt disappointment within me increase with every word he spoke of the matter. "WHY am I ALWAYS the very LAST person to find out about things?!"
"Don't worry. Everybody'll soon realize that it's just a rumor."
"Yeah… sure…" I hoisted myself off of the cold metal green door, my stomach pleading for food within me. Thank God for an early lunch period.
I heard Taichi's voice greet Yamato, and then Yukari and I ahead of the two of them. "Hey guys! What-"
"IT'S NOT TRUE!!" I shouted at the top of my lungs. I think everyone heard me that time.
"Well, ok, Sora – but I was just gonna ask you what's going on…"
I turned around, an annoyed smile plastered to my face. "Oh… Well, in that case – nothing, and it's not true." My grumbly, blatantly-annoyed look returned as I grabbed Yukari's arm and headed into the cafeteria for our usual table in the corner. A couple of our friends were already sitting down, and one of them waved to us.
"Hey, Sora! What's wrong?"
"Nothing really, Akiko… It's just… I don't know…" I headed over to the corner that Yukari and I shared, dropping my bento on the table, my messenger bag on the floor. I sighed for about the hundredth time that day, and sat down, pulling out the contents of my bento. I just couldn't get my mind off of him – I mean, I never really could since one month ago at the dance. Maybe that's what started all of this…? I really didn't care – I now think it rather funny that people thought we were going out. I wonder when somebody started saying something? Oh well.
Wait, 'oh well'? Why am I saying that? Of course I want people to think – no, I want people to know that we're going out …
But only when we actually are going out. The problems with this, though, are that A) we're not going out, B) I'm a complete fool for him, C) I don't know how he feels.
You know what, this isn't the time or place to think about this – too many airhead minds exist around here that one could actually hear me thinking, and then start telling everyone that I really do like him.
"Ne, Sora – come on, really, what's wrong?"
I looked over Yuriko's pleading eyes to his table, watching him tell Taichi and other various friends and band members something. I turned back to Yuriko, feeling my little trance had taken too many seconds. "It's just… complicated. I can't really tell you now. But when the time comes, I promise, you'll be one of the first people to know, ok?"
Yuriko didn't sound convinced, but I think she bought it anyway. "OK, Sora – just don't feel bad about it, whatever it is – I'm sure it'll all fizzle out in no time."
I smiled; I knew that Yuriko was one of those people I could count on for advice.
I wasn't so sure about Yukari. She touched my shoulder, and I allowed my attention to switch. "Come on Sora, can't you tell me?"
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"Come on, Sora – please!"
"Yuriko, be quiet – every door is open down this hallway and it's the middle of the period!"
I walked down the halls with my very loud friend, trying to keep her quiet. "I'll tell you when we get to the library, ok?"
"Sora… come on – what's this all about, and why can't you tell me right here?!"
"It's private, that's why! I don't want a lot of people to know this, ok?"
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"Really, Sora – tell me already!"
"It hasn't even been two minutes since you asked me that, Yukari – will you calm down, already?!"
As we entered the library, I could already hear somebody shushing me off in some back corner. I glanced at the librarian; she didn't looked to enthralled with my entrance, either. "All right – let me just get my biology homework out, and then I'll tell you, ok?"
"Ok…"
Yukari grabbed my messenger bag from me and, with a loud clanking, it landed on a free table in the corner of the book-filled room. She proceeded to tear everything out of my bag until she had my biology binder out, and then slashed through a few of my old lab write-ups to find my unfinished homework.
I hadn't even sat down when she asked me, again, what was wrong. I gave her an aggravated look. "Since you're so persistent…" I really wasn't in the mood to tell her what was wrong now. I wasn't in the mood, since she just took my entire bag and tore it all to shreds, and now she wanted me to tell her that I was hopelessly in love with one of my good friends.
"Come on, spill!"
"It's about…" I could feel my cheeks get redder – did this always happen when I thought about him?
"About..?" Yukari's eyes seemed to grow glossier, and I was suddenly aware of the fact that she was leaning desperately on the table, hanging off of my every word.
"About …" Now I had something to frustrate her with. "Well, why don't you guess?" I smiled sweetly, satisfied with my decision.
"No, Sora!!!" I never really noticed how loudly Yukari whined. We were shushed again, and I think the librarian got a little more annoyed with us.
"Please," I spoke in a soft whisper.
"All right – but I want a hint, first!"
Hrm… where to start… with hints. "OK – it has to do with a guy…"
Her face grew into this unmistakable grin, and I think she knew right away what was going on. "You really ARE going out with Yamato?!"
Or maybe not. "No, no, no! Guess again!"
"But it does have something to do with him, right?"
I nodded, starting to finish my biology homework; I only had a few questions left. I was starting to get in the mood of telling her what was going on.
"Then..? Do you - … You like him?" Yukari sounded kind of serious – maybe she was trying to be sincere. I really wanted an honest listener in this – after all, what kind of a person wants the entire world to know that you're in love with your best friend?
I looked up, a little happy, a little distraught… confused, embarrassed, frustrated… Everything was just jumbled into one expression on my face.
"Yes."
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Hehehehe!!!! Oh, I just LOVE being bad… I hope you all liked that lil… wait … nono… just … I'm ending it here!