Prologue
Why did I put myself through this again? What is so great about his love that I got so lost in it? I have compromised myself yet again, for a man whose love is like a revolving door. When will I learn?
Every wall I'd built against the pain his love had caused me came tumbling down the moment I knew he was alive. The walls that protected me not only from him, but myself as well. It was almost as if they completely gave way without putting up a fight and my mind was flooded with dreams of a life never lived. I found a way to let him in again, even if it was at the risk of losing who I am. Because that's the cost every time I get involved with Jason Morgan. I lose myself in him and become someone I never want to be again. Pieces of the woman I have become begin to chip away revealing a very cunning, deceitful, and vengeful Lizzie Webber.
It's quite ironic really, that the man whose love and embrace that once brought me security now brings out my inner demon. Lizzie, is why I swore to never fall in love with Jason again. She is the part of me that is addicted to this crazy rollercoaster ride called "love" Jason and I got on all those years ago. I can't live my life like that anymore. I can't love him anymore. It hurts too much. I've come to hate the one thing I've wanted so desperately my whole life, LOVE.
Love was the most fleeting emotion in our relationship. One minutes it's there and the next it's completely gone. Almost as if it was never there to begin with. Hell I'm beginning to doubt if it was ever real. Maybe, I am the goody goody muffin face who saw a chance at being with the bad boy and couldn't handle it or better yet the one-night stand who wouldn't go away. I just don't know anymore.
What I do know is, is that Elizabeth "Lizzie" Webber is taking a sabbatical from love and all things Jason Morgan. Let Jason enjoy life with Sam, Carly and Sonny. As for me, I think I'll take up where Patrick left off before he fell in love with Robin. I am the town pariah after all and nothings hotter than a bad girl.