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Why am I alive…?

That was the question that recently took shelter in Natsuo's mind. Why was he alive? He had lost to Soubi in a battle so he was useless in Nagisa-Sensei's eyes, and Nagisa-Sensei knew all…right? Well that's what Youji thought. Natsuo though thought otherwise.

He sometimes got the feeling that Sensei's pigtails were too tight. When he'd say that to Youji though he'd just laugh.

Natsuo rolled his eyes, looking at himself in the mirror as he brushed his teeth getting ready for bed. He knew why Youji thought so much of Nagisa-Sensei. It was because she treated him in a way she treated no other. It made Youji feel special, as he had said once, and Youji rewarded her by giving her a soft smile. A smile that he keeps hiddend within himself blossoming only when Sensei does something as simple as pant his head.

Some might think that Natsuo should be jealous of such a thing, but in truth he is not. Sensei's actions make Youji smile and they sometimes make him wag his tail. Natsuo couldn't and wouldn't stop anything that made Youji happy.

Natsuo rinsed his mouth with water and spit into the sink. He wiped his mouth and turned off the bathroom light. He sighed stepping out of the bathroom.

'but it would be nice if she liked me too…' Natsuo thought as he made his way to the bed.

Natsuo sat on the edge of the bed turning over to face a sleeping Youji. Too bad for him Youji had his head turned to the wall so he was unable to see his sleeping face. Instead he settled for stroking his long blue hair.

'Are you still Sensei's favorite Youji?' Natsuo thought as he paused to undo a tangle. He probably wasn't since she hadn't bothered to call. What will they do know? They had no where to go if it wasn't for Soubi they would have most likely died on the streets.

Nagisa -Sensei didn't want them back. To her they were no longer useful no longer Zero.

'So why am I alive?'

Natsuo removed his hand when he felt Youji lightly stir. Youji still sleeping turned over to Natsuo's side facing him a sigh on his lips. Once Natsuo saw the look on Youji's face the answer to his bothersome question flashed in his head.

He wasn't useless as Nagias- sensei says he could do anything he sets his mind to, as long as he had Youji by his side. He did have a reason to live. He lived for Youji, as Youji lived for him.

Natsuo smiled and laid down on the bed. Getting under the covers he turned to face Youji and placed his arms around his waist hugging him close.

"Youji I will always be by your side" he whispered "and as long as we're together we will continue to live for each other."

As Natsuo drifted of into sleep he thought he saw Youji give that special smile of his as he too placed his arms around Natsuo's waist.

Natsuo smiled warmly at him and hugged Youji tighter against his body.

Short. Quick. Sweet. Yeah?

I hope you liked it!"J I'm going to sleep now I wrote this in 2:00 in the morning!

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