And there they were the Winchester's men sitting around the dinner table eating a normal fast food meal as they always did. And strangely they were laughing and enjoying each other.

"So dad how was that hunt that you pulled off lately I heard that it was a tough one" said dean with all the confidence he could pull off.

"So son from were or let me say who actually told about the hunt in the first place!" john was actually joking himself around with dean he didn't really mind the kid knowing but he did mind to know the one who was telling him.

"Well you know I have a lot of resources and people to help me through your plans and actions" said dean sarcastically but he was met instead with deep looks that send him all anxious and trembling.

"So you were looking threw my stuff?" john actually knows that dean wouldn't search in his belongs without a permission he knows the kid too much even if either of them doesn't quietly admit it.

"What! Dad …. Sir no I wasn't... what made you think of that …well actually I... mmm… Caleb told me I didn't ask but he mentioned it and I was aaammm you know you didn't tell me anything so?!" dean was surprisingly finding a hard time to come up with what he wanted to say it seems that his words left him all alone for this battle and john was keeping out a laugh of his own along with a confused Sammy, but dean was confused cause he knew the consequences of looking threw his dad's stuff as well as Sammy

" take it easy son it doesn't matter but there was something important that I want to tell you Sammy " Sam was silent all this time locked in his own thoughts this was actually the only time that his family seemed at least normal but he knew deep down he knew that it is not going to last.

"Yeah! " Indeed sam was lost in his mind if he actually had a one to respond to his dad like that.

"Excuse me young man!?" said john throwing is son a threating glare.

"sorry I mean yes sir "Sam corrected himself instantly knowing what would be the consequences of his fall asleep word that his father hated just hated his sons unaware of what's happening around them because he knew that these actions no matter how small they were might put them in danger sometimes and he couldn't tolerate it but he is not going to push it through this time because Sammy is going to learn that and a whole new stuff real soon just like his brother did.

"So Sammy you are 3 months away from turning on 16 "said john with all the pride he felt but it didn't register the same reaction from his eldest son who dropped the food of his hands like it was poisoning him he locked petrified and worried so worried than he ever seen him and it looked like sam saw it too

"Yes, I know. Hey dean what is wrong? you look so pale !" thought dean didn't hear him he was too hurt and scared to notice he was in his own mind reliving what it seemed like an anguish memory , and dean never digged his memories except when thinking of his mom and that sent sam puzzled not knowing what to do until dean finally found his voice

"Sir, please I'll do it I'll train him just like you did with me just …. "With all pleading eyes and it seemed like his voice cracked at the end and the fact that his brother said sir and please at the same sentence meant that he was begging the older man and sam sent his eyes straight to his dad as if asking for explanations but yet not expecting any.

" dean !?" and that syllable was enough to send his brother silent and contempling the floor seeing more interested in her patterns than a losing battle it wasn't all that angry nor all that compassionate but it held some understanding seeing how protective dean was and just when sam was about asking some questions his dad turned his focus to him continuing " these 3 months you're going to spend them with me training " an although it seemed very simple sam questioned it since nothing is that simple in the Winchesters way of handling matters .

"but I already know the basics from you and I train with dean every day practically all of it so what kind of training do you really mean "that was true since they grew up in a military way that no child should be raised in it even bobby and others helped training them to be able to protect themselves and their family. they rarely slept with no pain at all it was either aching muscles or injuries or broken bones and dislocated shoulders it was always something that kept them from sleeping comfortably . It was their life and they accepted it.

"It is another kind of training it's for survival and to learn some skills that can keep you stay alive. and we are heading tomorrow so say good bye to your brother because you won't be seeing him for quite a time " and all of a sudden dean raised his head looking at sam and saying " I hope you make it brother and stay alive" just listening the word stay alive broke john's heart and it sliced him to know that he is the one causing all the pain and suffering for his sons he raised them in a different way he was too hard on them he didn't accept any mistakes or misbehaviors nor even simple actions that were considered normal for their ages and they got punished severely for each and every one of those though it didn't stop them from doing more nor stopped their father from punishing them but he knew he needed them strong so he shut his heart for these emotions with that he rose to his feats and went to the closest part to forget his own pain .dean was already in his bed and that left sam alone on the table not really sure of what just happened because one minute they were all happy and in another the atmosphere went all dark and crazy and he did not get all the worry about this training what was about he didn't get but he knew that what was absenting his brother wouldn't certainly amuse him … so he went to his bed stared to his brother and asked " hey dean what is this whole training issue about ? " dean didn't actually want to talk about it but after Sammy pushed the matter he said in what it looked like barely a whisper " do you remember when you stayed at bobby for 3 months …" and his voice trailed at the end " yeah I remember dad said that you was with Caleb hunting and stuff and you were injured and they had to take to the hospital and I couldn't go there because ….. mmm because you were really hurt and em you know dad wouldn't let me because he was being dad you know ….. " said Sammy in a shaking voice remembering how was it like without his brother and how much he was worried about him all the time and begging his father to allow him to go and see his brother even for a few seconds he begged and begged and begged but nothing worked with his father who instead of trying to steady the12 years old pushed him away giving him more chores more works more training and reading old books , he Spend those 3 month isolated from the world he didn't talk much nor smile or do anything bobby tried everything to sheer him up but nothing worked he was just waiting the time to pass and see his brother again even and when his father came around which was like 3or 4 times he wasn't that excited to see him and john certainly knew that since the kid wouldn't say more than yes sir and no sir .

" well I was then your age I was 3 months away from turning 16 so me and dad went in a sort of a camping trip alone …. " and he paused remembering something looked from his face expressions horrible extremely horrible . "and it seemed that dad is going to do the same for you maybe he won't leave you in the woods like he did for me but hey you never know!" dean tried to light up the atmosphere by joking but his plan didn't actually work instead he saw all the color drain from Sammy's face "dean when you came home it wasn't you at all I felt at first that you were replaced or possessed or something?! You wouldn't even hug me when you came back and how worried I was ….. "he was so confused and couldn't get the words right but he continued "you were all kind of weird and strange you wouldn't let anyone come 5 feet close to you. you used to go al defense and military and ready to fight if someone even dared to look at your food you wouldn't sleep the first weeks and we had to drug you sometimes …. You changed a lot "sam started to remember those times when he had to give his brother a needle every night to sand him to sleep even if it was for a couple of hours a week when his brother begged him to stop injecting him with all the sedatives that turned his hands black and purple but Sammy couldn't and that hurtled him the most seeing dean's eyes directed at him full of hope and not being able to stop his suffering. Sam changed with his brother he took responsibilities that no child his age should carry he wanted to blame his father but he knew that it won't change or help anyone so he buried it deep down until the right time. He didn't dare to ask his brother about what happened those three months which is surprising considering how curious sam was but the worry he held made him want to forget the whole matter and put everything behind and then he understood why his brother liked to forget some stuff and not talk about it because it hurts deep down and open old cuts that no one can imagine those kids have endured but they are Winchesters in the end and that is how the Winchester's roll. with time sam learned how to deal with his brother and with a little patience everything went to normal sure dean fought better stronger more feercefulll like it was about life or death but that only made sam stronger with each cut and scare and brose a lot of them through the years .

" I don't remember a lot of this …" dean was definitely lying he remembered everything but he didn't want to look more pathetique so he continued with a shrug " anyway I hope you do your best and make us proud now we need to sleep before dad come and punish us both for staying late and not resting for your long day tomorrow " dean was trying to end the conversation but clearly sam wasn't thinking in the same line because he said " dad left you to survive on your own in the woods ! what kind of parents would ever do this to his kids " he was mad really made and he didn't care saying this to dean face who responded like he was really offended " you know dad does what he has to do in order to keep us alive and without his trainings we would be long dead and you know it " sam really knew that but it was unfair to live their lives like this and dean also knew that their dad was a Huelva drill ass Sargent and some of the choices he made weren't all right but in the end he was his dad's son older son and needs to keep his family in one peace . Sam was caught in his own mind until dean yelled in his face calling " hey , you need to survive this to stay strong to accept whatever dad ditches on you do what he orders and give your best because I won't accept less than that nor dad you understand me Sammy do you understand me " he was shaking his brother at the moment " yes dean I understand " dean knew what was going to happen at the end his brother would be broken and he will be left to collect the pieces when his dad will be somewhere else trying to forget the guilt squiring inside him for all that he has to put his sons threw for all the pain and suffering and hard upbringing but at least he will still have them alive, for terrible consequences of course but, alive that's what he keeps telling himself and that's what hardened his heart all this years for his son's pleadings and screams of pain in injuries in punishments even in trainings that's why he keeps pushing them over and over again until they can't move or speak anymore because they're too exhausted to put in the effort , dean remembers these times very clearly he remember when he first cleaned his father wounds he was maybe 5 then he cleaned his 7 years little brother cuts after a training with his father then he had to watch his brother take care of his cuts and stitching him when he wasn't older than 11 years he forced this memories to go away as he tried to get some sleep through the night .

Sam woke up in the morning around 4 o'clock feeling a hand shaking him up so he said in a mumbled voice " hey I am trying to sleep here leave me alone jerk" he didn't know he was talking to his father until it was too late " it is me Sammy your father !" and when Sammy heard the grumpy voice he instantly got up on his feats in a full posture rubbing his eyes slightly embarrassed " sorry sir didn't know it was you… em… should I pack some stuff or you know … ah "

"I think you forgot how to speak right young man, want me to teach you again "john Winchesters was a strict man who cared a lot about respect and especially his kids respect for him and he certainly didn't accept sam losing his words in front of him the kid knew better than this and should have learned from his mistake last time but he didn't want to push the matter more so he gave him a hard look that send the boy mumbling again "what dad .. sir no... I I … am sorry " sam started to remember the last time this happened to him he got the chores all himself and he called his father sir for a whole month which wasn't that hard because he usually calls him that but the worst thing was that he got extra trainings for discipline and self-controlling which hurtled like a bitch he just hoped that his dad will forgive him this time but the Winchesters old man doesn't forgive that easily " okay young man I warned you and your brother not to use this language in my presence but it seemed like you too won't get it so give me 100 pushups to wake you up in the morning and count them out loud " his dad usually used young man when he was about to punish one his boys when they were young and that kind of amused same a bit who with no hesitation dropped his " sir ,yes sir" to impress his father and then laid on the floor and started that 100 pushups in 4 am in the morning while his dad went downstairs to put himself a cup of coffee and sam continued ALL the 100 out loud which woke his brother dean yelling " hey stop yelling I am trying to sleep here … hey what are you doing" and when sam started to speak dean cut him off" you know whatever I am heading to the shower" sam is used on doing his punishments alone dad didn't even need to watch them because none of the boys dared to break his word even in his absence he taught them very well . 3 things john made sure his kids never ever do: disobeying, disrespect, and lying they got punished severely for each and every one of those things and john Winchesters is a man of action and not just words he was a marine and a hunter and you can imagine how his punishments would be and how he raised his sons alone being the head of the family and on top of the chain of commands.

When sam finished he packed his clothes in a small backpack and when he was about to finish he brother got off the bathroom all dressed up and looked at him in his shiny bright green eyes sam hold his breath waiting for his brother to speak and when dean didn't say anything sam went to him hugged him and said his good byes but surprisingly he felt something being placed in his hands it was a pocket knife " listen keep this with you, you are going to need it and keep it in your pocket and change your clothes come on harry up before dad comes !" sam was surprised but he did what he was told and he put on deans jacket that he gave it to him with a long sleeve sweater better than the summary one and he was ready he hugged his brother a second time with tears in his eyes ,dean did one last thing " hey take this it will keep you safe " he took his necklace from his neck and put it in his brother's " thank you dean " he got another hug from his brother and a nice comment too " now go on you better keep these chick flick moments to your girlfriend" sam laughed at that one because he knew that dean meant get down before dad kills both of us so he dragged himself downstairs he saw his father waiting him after that they got in the car and went in the daylight to nowhere he knew he starred at the window of the impala thinking about the journey ahead , ,, about his brother words about not giving up and fighting till the end he didn't want to let his brother down and for once he wanted to make his father proud .

The drive went for hours and finally sam went to sleep and the next time he woke up in his father was shaking him telling him that they arrived sam got out of his dad's truck and h saw a small wooden house he got confused for a moment seeing all the snow and the house but his father's pushing hands forced to clear his mind from all doubts and head to the door he never knew what his father had planned for him but he certainly knew that it wasn't going to be easy as he desperately wanted to be . they arranged everything in his suitable place and sam and his father sat by the fireplace contempling the fire and remembering the old one that lead to all this events that cursed fire that destroyed their family forever that fire that deprived dean and sam from their mother their normal life and their dad who once was the most gentle father any kid could possibly dream about and not the ex-marine and hunter who wanted his kids to survive everything even if they hated it and refused all of it from the training to the locking and hard supervision to the strict roles and orders . they sat in silence for a couple of minutes until john finally said " we're going to start tomorrow so you better catch up some sleep cause we're starting early ….." and then he continued after a breath "for the next two months " sam knew that these months are going to be the longest in his life he didn't want to sleep since he slept in the car but he is not arguing with his dad it is not worth it after all so he took a breath of his own and gave his " yes sir right away " with not even looking away from the fire or raising his head and it didn't surprise him the feel of his father hands lifting his face so that their eyes are connected ,john starred at Sammy really long and although sam tried to do the same he couldn't keep it up for too long so he pushed his dad's hand away from his face and went to his bed as quickly as possible he didn't want to face his dad just yet and he was already missing dean's presence john knew that knew the strong connection between his boys and that's why he was planning to disguard Sam's behavior for the time being .

Sam tried to sleep really tried but there was no point he just kept thinking and thinking and thinking about everything about dean about what his dad had planned for him about his future and his abilities to make his dad and brother proud he wanted to be strong to never brake but now he is not that sure about it he is starting to doubt his strength but no way he is going to survive cause if dad hated his sons week he hated them giving up more and he wasn't going to do that he is going to fight till the end to fight and fight and keep fighting he kept saying it until he fall asleep.

Sam woke up at the smell of fresh coffee that his dad knew very well how to prepare them he went straight to the kitchen hoping to get a smug and a big one actually but it seemed that his plans weren't going well "hey dad what are you doing "said sam in a lazy voice not even caring to put the words together his father raised his head from the cup he was staring at and looked at Sammy who instantly changed his posture to the full ready to fight soldier that he knew his dad wanted but he was stunned to see his father smiling and handing him a cup of his own which drew a wide smile on his face that he didn't really know he can give to anyone except for dean yet his dad wasn't the kind of person who could give a thing without a fight so he didn't move an inch from where he was standing and he said " okay dad what do you want me to do for this you don't suddenly start giving away your drugs for nothing! "he mastered his point with all the sarcastic he could pull of and ohh boy he was 100 percent right since his father finally spoke "500 in 5 " sam was really confused then he didn't understand his father and he didn't want to look dumb in front of the man but that cup of coffee deserved everything so he asked "what do you mean ?" john let out a small laugh this is the few times that sam doesn't guess what he is talking about "500 pushups in 5 minutes you think you can do it for a cup of fresh smelling coffee " sam wanted to slap himself how the heck didn't he guess that one it was pretty oviece instead he focused on that cup and he accepted the offer throwing himself on the ground landing on his hands and starting to work on his pushups counting them loud so that his dad can hear him clearly in the other hand john set the time and waited sam barely reached the 100 when the time finished he was all sweaty since he tried to do them really fast but clearly it wasn't enough so he got up on his feats awhile after his father said that the time is over to see the old guy drinking what it was supposed to be his coffee he didn't know what to say until his father saved him from the embarrassment "the offer is still on until the end of this month" and with that he went outside telling Sammy to change into his sweaters and sneakers and to follow him .sam did as he was told without even thinking about breakfast , he saw his dad leaning on the truck waiting for him so he headed towards him already knowing what he was going to do since it was a morning routine for him and his brother and they got used to do it occasionally with his father wish was like a nightmare since they were able to run .

Nothing was said and the only hearable thing was the sound of their footsteps looming in the early hours of the morning creating a beautiful relaxing rhythm that used to always steady their nerves and bring them the peace of mind they desperately needed in their lives. Sam and john ran together side by side the father and his son and what a beautiful scene it was well before sam reached his limits and couldn't walk any more. they started slow to warm up then john started to get faster and faster and sam kept up with him in spite the 16 years old boy he was he never slowed down to take a breath or never asked for a break he just kept pushing and pushing until all his force and energy was consumed he stopped dead In his place hands on his knees and trying hard to calm himself in a second his dad was right by his side they were running for 3 hours straight and in a speed routine that sam and dean rarely tried it unless their dad was watching or to finish sooner , nevertheless john gave sam some time and a bottle of water and they sat on the side walk in an awkward silence until john finally braked it saying "you need to step it up Sammy" he stopped for a while letting the talk sink than he continued" imagine a ware wolf on your tale , what were you going to do ? you can't get tired just after 3 hours "john didn't really want to say it he knew the kid did pretty good for his age and the speed they were running in but it wasn't enough not if he was going to revenge his wife's death or to keep the kids alive and strong and he knew sam would respond to this and indeed sam responded with the only answer he was taught long ago to say in front of his father ever since he learned how to speak so he threw his " yes , sir " and that conversation was long history as they run for another 2 hours before john called It a quit .

As the signs passed on and on and ooonnnnn sam wondered when his dad was stopping for lunch he was pretty hungry after that run and he didn't even had breakfast he was about to ask his father when they had stopped in nowhere "we'll be hunting for food from now on "he said in a normal voice that sounded gruff and there was no need to explain more. And finally after another two hours of hiking they found their feast a nice gazelle now they only thing left was for them to hunt it and that wasn't that hard since they hunt usually monsters so they used one of their simple plans where john shoots and sam goes around to have another chance if his father failed wish is practically impossible and at the end they had the gazelle was dead but they still had to clean it and prepare it to be cooked but that was easier said than done sam never saw an animal with his guts being ripped off he was about to throw off to went all yellow and pale then red and haut then all green while he watched his father prepare what was going to be their dinner for the next week or so and then happened the expected his dad wanted him to finish the job sam and in spite his agony obeyed his father without a single word he started to empty the animal's stomach trying really hard to be fast and not to vomit and finally he was over his hands were full of blood and shit and he was sweaty as ever he couldn't hold it anymore so he went past his father next to a tree and he emptied what he thought was never there in the first place he wasn't even breathing and he couldn't stop even though he wanted so desperately he was feeling his father's eyes on him he tried to ignore that feeling that pushing him to peek over ad see his father as if asking for permission to show his weakness just for once but he wasn't going to do he didn't want to see the disapproval in his dad's eyes and you wouldn't know if it was more pethetique or terrifying for a 16 years old boy to ask permission from his dad to know if it is okay to show his pain and suddenly sam felt gentle hands on his shoulders squeezing them in an act of support rather than threat but it didn't stop him from flinching under the contact he isn't used at showing sentiments and stuff with his father but he appreciated the act at the moment .

they were at home by 6 and it took them 2 more hours to set everything right and to start eating sam felt like it was heaven hot meal and warm fire and a nice old book to read until his father came out from the shower all dressed and he went outside for a moment before coming in again holding a long thin switch in his hands Sam's eyes darted between the switch and his father he was so confused he didn't know if he was going to be punished or no or if his dad was frightening him to push further he kept guessing while his dad was calling him " sam come here , sam !" still sam wasn't hearing his father maybe it was fear or distraction he didn't know but he knows an order when he hears it " front and center boy !" sam didn't even hesitate he went directly to his father standing in front of him ready for whatever his dad was ditching on him even if it meant whipping him with a switch h-e looked straight in his father's eyes dumping his "yes sir" and then looking down finding more interest in the pattern of the map on the floor, he was done memorizing every inch of the ground until his father finally spoke saying " well , we're doing another kind of pushups I want you to them like usual but with fists and you have to pull your body at every pushup while this switch pass under you ,got it "

sam was a bit taking back he didn't expect this he was a bit ashamed of thinking about his dad that way he knew his dad would never do something like that if it wasn't for discipline or for raising them right which had a hole other meaning for john Winchester but still so he did as was told thought he couldn't keep it up and every time he failed the switch hit him on his hands multiple time like it was slicing him he would fall twisting from pain but then as he went down in an instant he rose immediately and started again ,he was hit about 50 times give or take a few but he never gave up even when his hands were all bloody and filled with scares and broses that definitely are going to take time to heal there was small cuts not so deep since his dad didn't go too harsh on him the first time but that wouldn't stop him from increasing the volume behind his swats in the following days , sam was literary suffering at the end he was again on his abdomen after 3 hard slashes in the same exact place he let out a small scream of pain that he hopped his father won't be able to hear but he was mistaken cause his father did hear him " come on , again" sam got up and started again as he was told , the flesh on his fists was all red and about to go off because of the constant contact with the hard floor and he was all sweaty his bangs were soaked and he pressed more on his lips every time he was about to cry or let a scream go past him to his father , john Winchester looked at his son trying and trying he knew he had special sons that any dad would dream of but then he noticed his son features, they were drawn of pain and suffering ,hurt and fatigue he didn't want to keep thinking of them because they'll make him want to stop he has to be hard on him like he was with his brother and that what gave him the will to continue with sam when his son completed 500 pushups he said " you can stop we're done for today"

" Sammy was so focused on doing his best that he didn't hear his father who had a big shock featured on his face still he repeated himself more sternly " boy I told you to stop " sam finally registered what his father was saying so he stooped immediately and got on his feats blood linking from his hand to the floor, creating a rhythm that echoed in his ears ,it was the only sound in the room and it felt like the time has stopped and everyone freezed he clenched his teeth clearing his throt and saying " I'll go clean this "he went to the kitchen grabbing a wet napkin and keeling in front of his father cleaning the mess he's done he didn't know if he was mad at himself for not doing better and getting smacked every minute which caused all the blood on the floor or if he was mad at his father for putting him through this .

when he finished he cleaned the napkin washed his hands and when he was drying them he said without even looking at his father "I am going to sleep "but john wasn't a men to disguard his son's behavior so he stood on his feats yelling " come here " sam placed the towel on the side of the sink sighing then he went and stood in front of his father eyes fixed on somewhere between his father torso and his beard " look at me boy " when john used to say something sam would do the opposite until he kind of stopped that after what happened with dean but now he decided to start again so instead of looking straight in the man's eyes he moved his head to the right and he heard his dad's breathing pattern getting hard like he was trying so hard keep his temper in check and somehow he managed to say from clenching jaws " is this a statement or a question" sam didn't reply and his eyes were still fixed on the wall beside him john waited for a couple of seconds and sam felt his father's eyes burning holes in his head so he finally broke saying "may I go to sleep ,sir "he really hated his father military background at the moment " no you are not you are sitting you ass back here to clean the weapons, maybe that'll teach you how to speak properly" he stopped as if taking a break but sam knew that the old man is thinking and trying to make his mind about something and he was right since his father continued " and if this ever happens again , you will be punished ,you hear me" sam was a bit afraid since his father was thinking about this for a while before declaring it but he didn't want to think about the issue any further he wanted to finish and go to sleep as soon as possible so he dumped his" yes sir" in the most respectful tone he could master at the moment .

so he went to the bag of weapons and brought everything he needed and started the work it took him like 2 hours to finish less than usual but he didn't really mind luck was finally give him a slack then he went to the bathroom to clean his cuts and take a long long shower he brought the first kid ate and he put some medicine on his knuckles and hands and that was it he didn't need any stitches and he had a feeling that they will do this routine every day so he had to keep some for critical injuries and not a simple slashing he sat on his bed and although he couldn't sleep most of the night he was grateful that his dad didn't come down on him too hard the first time .yeah Sammy was mad at the man but he knew that this is the first step of the road and more is yet to come and he needs to be more patent with the pain and to suck it up just like his brother did and just like his father wanted him to do so he made a promise to himself that he is going to get out of this alive .

he woke up the next day feeling enormous pain in every muscle and bone of his body it was 3 am and his father wanted him to run and so he did but it took him the hole morning to finish the distance his dad has set for him he was in constant pain every movement he made was like one of his dad's swat multiplied like 10 times he was back home at 12 and the rest of the day he spend it shooting at targets that his dad had planted for him they were distant specific not to wide and there was a timing his dad wanted to know the level of his skills he shot most of them not all in the right place but around it at least and not so far , then they started fighting with knives he got several cuts none of them was too severe since his dad backed down at the right moment but still he had a cut on his face several on his hands and a few on his legs that's when his dad wanted to stop for the day it was getting cold and they had to prepare some wood for the evening .so they returned to the house where john taught Sammy how to cut the woods and it was sammy's job from now on .sam was done by 3.30 so went to the house hoping to get some worm he found his father waiting for him so he set the fireplace and waited .

john finally spoke "there is two bottles of water in the kitchen I want you to fill them and bring them to me " sam's curiosity kicked in right away " but for what dad ?" he questioned , john gave him a hard look that was enough to send Sammy running to the kitchen , there was still some innocent in his son he didn't know if he wanted it to go away or to stay there was that sparkle in his son's eyes that would tell him that the world is okay and that some good is still there that we can trust people and afford unnecessary questions , but now wasn't the time for this thinking he need to prepare the kid to let him know that evil is lerking in the dark cause all it take is one mistake one and you're out and john couldn't stand the idea he already lost his wife he wasn't going to lose his kids too whatever it takes to make them stronger faster more flexible.

John was so lost in his mind that he didn't a knowledge Sam's return the kid was practically standing in front of him waiting for commands and commands he got " you're going to hold these buckets in front you holding your hands until I tell you to stop " he paused for a little then adding " you don't want me to tell you what happens if I saw this hands getting below you high waste line " he lowered his gaze to make his point and when he didn't hear a response from the young boy he said " you understand me boy " now that got him a response "yes sir" and a firm one. Sam stood in front of his father doing whatever he was sopposed to do e didn't understand why his father was doing all of this but he wasn't one to argue the old man's methods he knew his dad had his reasons it wasn't like he was torchering him for pleasure or was he ? he shook the idea of his head and focused on the water not to get spilled after half an hour his hands were shaking and here was already some drips of water on the floor his dad actually gad to tell him to get his shit together or he is going to face some consequences terrible ones that threat helped for another half hour but his muscles were sorrow and he couldn't hold it anymore he was about to drip them when he heard his father "don't you dare to drop those !" sam didn't even know how his dad managed to know what was going in his mind was he some kind of a psyck no way he was reading his newspaper all the time "I can't hold them anymore" john's features all dark and sad which sam never saw unless it was about their mom and in an loud voice john said"your brother had to drag me all the forest long after I was injured " he wasn't really blaming Sammy or compairing both of them he was kinda off thinking outloud he was ashamed of that night because he is the one who's supposed to protect them not the opposite it was like sharing a story and sam understood that and it what kept him holding those buckets for another 2 hours not saying a word and just listening to his father talking about monsters and quizzing him with questions . when the time was finally over sam, was releaved to put the wait off his hands but he knew that he isn't done yet for the evening "now start the pushups and tets see what emrouvements you've made " sam swallowed the glump in his throt and moved closely to his father falling to the ground in easy mouvements landing on his hands and thankfull not on his knuckles which still hurted him like a bitch sam was finding it more easy to lift his body but that didn't stop the slaches that hit him with more force than before from a while to another he was again left with many broozes and cuts to count. But his dad wasn't finish from him just yet he was tired and sore and just wished to go to sleep but his father isn't hearing any of this "this is a couple of pages that I need you to translate for me before you head to sleep" sam didn't mind to do the research stuff so he said" of course dad as you wish" he didn't think it would take him long he was an expert in Latin he could easily teach the whole language and more but when he started to read he knew that it was a whole other type of Latin s after 3 hours he went to his dad wanting to yell then thinking of better "dad you didn't tell me this a ancient Latin there is no books written in it except for some at bobby's place it is impossible to do them without ….." he was cut off middle of the sentence "don't you think I know that boy ?"

"Yes sir but," john couldn't believe his son was talking back at him" since when you talk back on me?"

"Sorry sir I didn't mean to all I am saying is that it is going to take time "

"I know Sammy that's why I gave you the whole papers I don't need them ready in one day but make sure to work on them every day I need them finished by the end of the month, got it"

Sam was feeling dumb at the moment but he nodded his head clearly forgetting who his dad is" sorry kid can't hear you nodding your head "

"yes, sir" he was way tried to argue that at the moment so he asked permission to go to sleep after he showed his father the progress he made until now .then he went to bed around 10 which is kind of earlier than the night before but he knows his dad is going to wake him up earlier that man never forget anything.

The next day he woke up in he was sorrier than the day before but that didn't keep him from doing his run "hey Sammy "called his father from the shadows he didn't even see him sitting there however he replied "yes father " this was actually the first time for while that he called something close to dad even if the word was said in ironic way which didn't go unnoticed "I want you to do the distance In half of the time " he said it in the same ironic tone which got him a sideway look from his son "I'll try" he said it in a lower voice close to a whisper he didn't know if he actually wanted the man to hear him or not but nothing go past john's ears " you mean you willll do it " he insisted on the word will so typical yet sam replied with his only answer "yes sirrrrrr " he wasn't one to let his father win the last rounds when he could then he walked across the door to do his daily routine he run and run and run until he couldn't breath anymore he laid down on a bench next the road put his hands on his face to swipe all the sweat and then put his elbows on his knees trying to ease their pain but failing deeply so he got up again inspite of everything wanting to finish in time until he heard a sound coming from behind so he prepared himself to the fight and turned around to punsh the guy who was trying to come close to him he was about to continue when the man spoke" hey take it easy " sam stopped dead in his steps and then went automatically to help the guy stand on his feats apologizing "sorry man didn't mean to" the man looked at him and he didn't seem like a threat he was older than him by two years maybe so he relaxed his nerves and laid down his shields" I am really sorry again I have to go now by " sam really needed to hurry he was already late , and when the man was trying to call him to give him his necklace back sam was already way to far ,he was puzzled by the kid's behavior what was he doing in the first place at 4 o clock in the morning , he thaught first that the kid was homeless when he glaced at him from the kitchen widow and when he was going to help him he got attacked and that was driving him crazy but he chose to ignore the issue for the time being focusing more on delivering the newspaper throught all the neighborhood.

When he returned he was 10 minutes late he was on his last breath when he arrived , and listening to his father yelling gave him some time to control the ups and down of his shest getting some air was impossible at the moment and he was close to passing out he ignored his father went straight to the kitchen poured himself a cup of water then sat on a chair trying to get some rest even if it was momentary he closed his eyes for a second then he felt his dad's presence in the room so he opened them again stood on his feats and said " I accept any punishement you give me ,sir" he stopped swallowed and then continued " for these actions and for the ones before " his dad was stunned at first for seeing his boy take responsibility for his actions but he is not planning on letting him get away easily " don't worry you'll get your punishement , but I want to know what delaid you cause I am damn sure you didn't stop midway thinking about resting for a couple of minutes " sam was surprised how the hell his dad knew was he watching him no ! he wouldn't anyway his dad has a special way of reading them so he thaught about coming clear "how did you know ? well I kind of stopped to catch my breath so I sat on a borch and then " his dad cut him there he was too angry to listen to the rest of the talk " what ! I don't know if it is the fact that you stopped for ten minutes when you know you are not allowed or the fact that you thaught that sitting on a borch was a better idea " sam tried to defend himself " no it is not like that " it was ment to come out as a valid argument instead it was more like a small yell " what the hell is wrong with you , you know you're oupt for a big punishement "sam knew that so he replied "yes sir I take full blame " it didn't occure to him that the incident with that guy was the reason for what was going to happen to him but it wasn't that person's fault it was him he should have been more carefull now he have to endure whatever his dad was planning for him .

John waited sam to finish the breakcfest until he spoke" follow me outside " sam went after his father then he stood right beside him in the freezing weather it looked like it was going to snow dark clouds were forming in the sky and the wind was blowing the nacked trees which were dancing like it was the party of the year however they weren't there to enjoy the beautiful nature " take off your clothes" sam turned at his father trying to make sense of what the men had just told him he was met with cold eyes that indicated no backing down , sam stripped off then he stood in front of his father only in jeans no shoes or anything else " hold that above your head " he pointed to a center of a tree not too long neither too short but enough for his son to bare lifting it sam walked in the mud feeling the cold yet not allowing it to slow him down then returning to his father who was sitting under a tree watching him closely , he did as he was told he lifted the weight above his hand all in one steady movement that impressed even john .he was a strong kid for his age too strong than any kid needs to be, he had a muscular body thaught it wasn't clear a lot under the layers of clothes the kid keeps wearing with an impressive height he was definetly going to become taller than dean and maybe john himself , he could easily put several mans down in a matter of minutes even trained tough guys. After 30 minutes he was really tired his hands were shaking just like before with the buckets and he knew that back then his father was getting easy with him too easy but he refused to give up to the pain and he kept his position for another 30 minutes , time was passing and his father hadn't told him to stop yet he was twisting a lot now it wasn't just his hands his legs too started to crack under the preassure until his dad yelled "quit dancing around if you know what's best for you" sam yelled back " yes sir" another 30 minutes passed it started to rain and that placed extra weight on him , he was about to let go of the peace of wood until he heard that familiar e sound " don't you dare put it down " he wanted to yell at that exact moment cursing the world why his father had to be that hard that strict that obsessive but he didn't have the energy god knows how much his dad is going to let him stay in the terrible weather so he gathered what was left of his energy to steady the weight again over his shoulders . john was watching and a brief moment of sorrow and sadness came across his face watching his boy trying to hold it together as hard as he can they were there for an hour and a half by now and finally sam crashed down throwing the thing on the ground and falling to his knees and the first thong he did was to look at his father wanting to apologize to sam sorry I couldn't do it anymore. Of course john didn't excpect the boy to hold it forever he was waiting for him to give all he can and he did good and when john was sure of that he gave the boy a simple nod with the head and went inside sam followed briefely after picking up his shirt, that guy from the supermarket saw the last scene hiding behind the house and he had a lot of question marks that he forget why he was there in the first place so he went back home trying to think of a reasonable explanantion finding none .

Sam took a shower although he couldn't move his hands he just stood under the hot water letting it wash all his dirt and tiredness, then he had to go with his father to bring some stuff they needed from the supermarket ,when they arrived sam was surprised to see the man he attacked the morning working there he was embarrassed and had to apologize again " hey man I am sorry again for what happened I didn't mean to throw you to the ground "

"don't worry we didn't interduce properly , I am ben, ben *** and you're ?"

" I am sam Winchester "

"nice to meet you I never saw you in the neighborhood before "

"yeah well we moved new we're living in that house close to the woods "

"you mean on the biller's old house "

"yeah I think so "they kept talking for a while getting to know each other when john came listening to ben telling his other friend how his son knocked him to the ground all in one movement they all kept talking for a couple of minutes and john was able to hear everything he was ashamed and prowed at the same time but what's done is done and he can't change anything but he can make it up to the kid later. They went back home , where sam prepared them their dinner for the day and they sat eating in silence then couldn't force the kid to do the pushups his hands must be hurting him badely since he didn't move them the whole time even that guy noticed him and the way he awed when he punshed his elbow in a friendly way, sam covered it up by making it sound that he was playing on him but it didn't fool john .So he decided to spend the night doing some sit ups it was about 7 when they started and this time john trained with his son which was harder since sam has to keep up with his father who slowed down for his sake sometimes when he yelled on him to hurry up in others , they reached 50 when sam started to get behind and he couldn't lift his body any further he just laid down he heard his father voice speaking to him " you're not to stop until I tell you so" john stopped for a while waiting for a reply when he didn't hear one he added with more force" you hear me boy!?"sam replied after taking a long breath " ok " though it didn't satisfy his father " try again" sam didn't mistake that tone so he replied " yes sir I wont stop until you tell me" he gathered his power and tried to do the damn sit ups as his father told him but sam felt like it ages before they were done they did like 200 then they was time for dinner so sam prepared something for both of them while his father was doing some research or something they sat in silence as usual dean used to light up the table a bit but now it was all weird and strange his father wasn't much for a talker and sam didn't have anything to say .

now it was 9 so john took his son in the truck and drove to the woods they walked for hours and when they stopped " I am going to put this on your eyes your job is to find the way back to the house you have until 4 o clock that means 6 hours now I am gonna spin you around " sam didn't even have time to register his father words when john was putting something on his eyes to block his vue suddenly everything went black and he was being turn around and then when his father stopped he fell to the ground feeling dizzy looking around not seeing anything but sensing someone's steps getting away from him he then realized it was his father, he was in shock for a while not knowing what to do not believing that his father was doing this to him but then he knew that no matter what he was on his own now and he need to watch himself , there was bears in this woods dangers animals and a lot of ways to die and he has to hold it together if he wants to stay alive to fight for another day he stood on his feats and started to walk putting his hands in front of him but inspite his affords he tripped on a stone and went down a cliff getting cuts on his face in his hands and leg his head bumped to a tree but there wasn't any blood coming from it , he laid down for a moment trying to catch his breath and check his injuries he stood up again paying more attention to his steps and he walked in the dim light of the moon he tried to find any signes of his father footsteps but found any that man was smart and a real hunter he didn't left any traces behind him so sam has to find his way on his own he tried to hear any sounds for cars or highway but it didn't work to he has to climb some tree and find out but first he need to get that thing off his eyes he remembered the knife dean gave to him and he send a secret thank to his brother after he freed his eyes he climbed that tree and noticed a distant highway that might take him some hours to catch but can send him back home . he started hiking marking points to know his way hiking for two hours straight and then resting for 5 seconds he was half the way there when he heard a noise coming from behind he prepared his weapon as well as some wood sticks, he found a medium bare coming to attack him with his claws 10 cm long and sharp teeth that can cut his arm a second he tried to strike the animal but he couldn't do him more than a small cut he then tried again and again succeeding once and failing the other he got some scratches from the bare himself but he was out of energy at the end the bare was about to strike again while sam was preparing himself to the attack he thaught that he was going to die but he was a Winchester and Winchesters don't die easily and from monsters at least not some bare in the woods so he lunched himself holing nothing but a simple knife he struck the animals throt and felt his blood dropping on him while the bare fall crashing on the ground in a magnified sound sam saw everything happen in small motion one second he was the victim and the other he became the killer he saw his father kill a lot of things over the years but he's never taken one on himself before . he fell to the ground too holiding the bloody knife in his hand looking at the dead creature in front of him and it made him feel sick that he had to kill in order to stay alive he suddenly felt a wave of andrenalin in his blood he wasn't able to breath normally his hands were shaking his brain was racing down his heart was about to get out of his chest he tried to do the breathing his dad taught him to do in extreme conditions he placed his head between his knees and tried to calm his nerves it took him 10 minutes to be able to see straight he knew he was late and he has to get out of there as soon as possible so he run and run in his top speed and he was actually gratefull for all the runnings his dad made him to do no matter how tired he was or exhausted because thinking about it now and in these situations it mint difference between hunt and being hunted sam understood that now understood why his father pushed him over and over again why he never accepted execuses and beggings why he punished them so hard every time they slacked on their trainings ,it was to keep them alive to make them strong enough to run and fight through injuries pain exhausting even desperation .

he arrived to the high way in half of the time he couldn't figure out if it was because of the adrinalin or if he just wanted to get the hell away from that scene and from that forest once he was on the road he tried to read the signes to know where he is and which way to go once he knew his destination and coordination he made up his mind and started to run again with no stop the sun was rising again and a soft touch of the light kisses landed on Sammy's face he felt some hope after all there will always be light after darkness , he finally arrived to the town and he was socked in sweat he had blood on his clothes on his face he looked like a total mess and he couldn't risk anyone seeing him at the moment so he tried to hurry up more it was still pretty dark inspite of the sun rising he arrived at that bench that he used to sit on and he thought about resting for 5 minutes before continuing and so he did but he didn't know that the guy from the supermarket was watching him all suspicious and nosy but he didn't notice the blood but he was determined to find that boy's story somehow .