Endless Pain
What does it mean to truly love someone?
It means giving up what you love the most.
Even if it means letting him go.
Of course it will be painful,
But something inside of you knows,
That I can't force him to love me,
Because I knew better and what love would that be?
I loved him too much to see him sad,
And I wanted him to have the best.
So I knew what I had to do.
And so it was.
It's been years since this pain clinging on to me,
Like a load I can't unbear of my shoulder.
Dragging me down lower and lower,
To the ground,
Until I couldn't even get up.
Feeling a sudden sting in my heart,
As I see you become a new person and live a new life.
That I wasn't a part of and so I felt forgotten.
But I feel the greater pain when I see you happy,
When I'm alone, left with nothing, left empty.
Wishing somehow you still loved me,
But you didn't, I knew you didn't.
And so I feel the pain flowing,
Flowing endlessly, never ending,
Like a river rushing.
Rushing wildly, clashing upon the rocks.
Like it was angry.
And sweeping and casting away anything that got into it.
Just like the pain I now can't control,
Because it was him that made me whole.
But he left and I don't know if I could take it.
Suddenly, water burst from my eyes.
Asking, "Why did it have to be like this?"
Remembering this is what love is.
And so much pain I thought.
So painful…..
Not realizing in return,
From a distance,
You glanced and smiled at me.
Then feeling the pain suddenly vanish,
I knew I've done the right thing.