Things I'll Never Say

"Can you go at my house right after school?"

Those words swam through my head and I was getting more nervous and nervous. He called me earlier. Greyson and I were childhood besties. It has been quite a long time since we both haven't seen each other. Once, back when I was 10, I really wanted to tell him what I feel for him. At first, I didn't understood a feeling like this. But, when time has moved and I started to adapt the teenaged environment, I understood this kind of feeling. I tried asking mom about all this... stuff. All she could say is "Riley, that's part of growing up" she haven't gave me any advice yet.

Now, I'm at their porch step. I can feel my legs shaking and my palms were getting sweaty. I can barely feel my heart pound so fast. Alright, my finger is about to press the doorbell. Okay Riley. You can do this. If you can do this, you can confess to him. Wait, what if he wants to be friends? Only friends? Nothing more? Look at the bright side, you can breathe freely.

Great. Just great. My brain is talking to me. My head is so confused and I can't think right.

"Follow what your heart desires"

I just remembered that one quote from all the movies I've watched. When I saw the outcome, it did end up so great. Just stay positive and it will happen. Before I could press the doorbell, the door flung open and saw Greyson. He grew up. He changed. His hair became darker, and he became so taller than me. I was just at the level of his neck.

"Riley?!" His eyes grew wide in happiness and he plastered a smile on his face. It wasn't just an ordinary smile. It was the BEST smile I've seen. He could almost light up a dark universe.

"Hey Grey-" I was cut off by the tightest hug I have received. Butterflies flew around wildly. I was tongue tied. I can feel his breath on my nape. It felt something. Something different but it was pleasurable. He let me go.

"I missed you so much!" He loudly said in delight, causing my heart to flutter.

"I know! It has been a long time since we haven't seen each other" I answered with a smile

"Well, since you're here, come in" Greyson gestured me and I sat on their couch. It was comfortable to sit on. "Do you need anything? I suppose a juice?"

"No, um, I have to tell you something" I replied. Then, I bit my lip.

Greyson sat beside me. He deeply looked into my eyes. His Hazel eyes are so perfect. "I'm listening" He answered

I bit my lip. I'm ready to face the consequences. Here goes nothing. "Greyson, I lo-" A ringing phone interfered what was supposed to be my confession. I hate those moments. We both checked to see whose phone is ringing. It wasn't mine. It was Greyson's.

"When will you ever learn Cody?" He mumbled. It seemed to be a text message. He looked at me again. "So, what were you gonna tell me?" He asked as he half-smiled

"I...I just wanted to say that...I missed you so much. I'm glad to have you back" I said. I think I'm not yet ready to spill the beans.

"Oh, I thought it was something" Greyson said as he pouted his lips

"I have to go now. Mom is probably worried" I said. Am I just nervous or not yet ready?

So, I thought to myself that it's not gonna be hard. I haven't confessed yet. Greyson and I hung out almost everyday. He sure do knows how to make up for things. I thought to myself that I fell in love with him already. And because of that, here I am standing on their porch step, readily. I'm already fine now. I'm 110% ready.

I noticed their door opened a little. Out of my curiousity, I gently pushed the door. I know I shouldn't have done this but, I can't help my curiousity. It always get me. When I got to the living room... My heart broke at what I saw. It almost felt like the world stopped revolving. I saw Greyson kissing a girl. She must be very lucky. Greyson saw me and then they pulled away. Tears were forming so fast.

"Riley, it's not what it seems"He said with a face that says 'believe me'

I stormed out of the house and ran to the park where I usually go when I'm sad. It hurted so much. I just wanted all of this to end.

"Riley?" I turned around to see Greyson.

"What are you doing here?!" I madly asked. I felt hatred on him.

"Look, why did you cried when you saw me and my ex kissing?" He asked

I didn't answered

"Why? Is it because you like me too?!" He yelled at me

Did he just said 'too'? I stood up and turned to him. "I love you Greyson! You're just an-" He cut me off

"I broke up with my ex because I developed feelings for you since the day we first met! When I got here, the reason why I wanted you to come is because I wanted to confess!" He answered

Oops, butterflies again. My heart fluttered and beat at its fastest pulse. I felt my heart together in pieces now

"I love you too Riley" Then, he pulled me into a deep kiss. Fireworks, sparks, war, explosions, everything. It was great

We pulled away. "Riley?" He called me

"Yes?" I asked

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

That one question changed it all. It felt so right. Everything is in it's place and my life now is full of happiness