The pity you can feel for someone that you watch everyday sit alone at a lunch table in the back of the cafeteria always on his phone,gameboy, or DS as he sits there bearly eating anything of his trey. You casually will see people or his 'friends' say something to him and he'll keep the same expression as he always did, pained and sadness. You sometimes had the urge to talk to him because he always seemed like such the loner compared to some other people you knew. But as you stare at him in class or in the hallway you always stare at his figure, skinny, tall, big hands and feet, his oddly colored dark brown almost red and blue colored eyes that were so alluring you could just dream about them all day, then his neck is what got you. Necks had always been so beautiful to you and it was almost the first thing you notice after someone's face, and his face was so handsome. His big glasses that almost hid his adorable eyes, the cutest way his dark brown hair had slightly grown sideburns on the sides of his pale face.
If you had told anyone how you felt about sollux captor they'd say you had a 'crush' on the nerd, you'd most likely blush in reply and bat your hand at them saying 'thats stupid, stop it, haha'. But it would be the definition of what your feeling towards the guy. But that is all it would ever be a stupid crush because you've never talked out of class because you needed a pen, or in the hallway when he dropped something and you'd pick it up giving it back to him. Then changing yourself staring at his hands then quickly jogging the opposite way, it would never work out like in your dreams. If you were right he'd never dated anyone and most likely won't want to be with a cat crazied girl who normally accessoried by adding a cat-eared headbans and a fake tail and uses cat-puns when ever has the chance.
But you nepeta leijon have had a three year crush with sollux captor.
A demaning hopeless crush that will fail if ever confessed. But should you even try ? Or just keep it held in from your friends and even best sweaty friend. You could just tell someone, let it out but that's to hard to do at this point, to confess that you actually love someone is-to-hard. It's not like you can trust what all the romcons try to teach you about love, because it's all 'fake'. Sadly it's true but titanic really does make it hard to think that'd there's some chance that your going to fuck before you die with your lover that you meet three days before. Or that your purfect prince is going to find you any day and carry you away into the sunset as you both sing love songs and disapear into the darkness then a 'Happy Ever After ' pops up from no where to say what happened after the fairytale ended.
But real life doesn't go like that and you know that because you've had a broken heart before, you can remember the over whelming crushed heartbreaking sadness you felt when you found out that the boy you liked most didn't like you back. Actaully this introduction has gotten to long let's get to the actual story before you die.
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