I refuse to answer the question on the grounds that I don't know the answer – Douglas Adams
Am I in love with John Watson? What the average person calls love is just a chemical reaction in the brain, driving the average person to rut like an animal. I refuse to be driven by such primal urges.
Just because the empty, hallow feeling in my chest that had been there for as long as I can remember went away when John came into my life does not mean I am in love. Just because I feel better because he is here, accepting me as I am does not mean I am in love. Just because my pulse speeds up at the sight of John and my hands get clammy when he speaks does not mean I am in love, does it?
For the first time in a very long time I, Sherlock Holmes do not know something. Imagine that. Of course I intend to find out. It may take a while but I can be patient, all experiments take time and somehow I think the results will be worth the time it takes to discover them.