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Timeline is roughly around the time the reporter tries to sneak into Horizon. This came out of me wondering why Scott can't get upset without tossing furniture or attacking someone.
A Matter of Trust
We had been talking about anger management in group today. I guess yelling Auggie out in front of half a dozen classmates could be made into an object lesson for everybody. Nobody lined up to thank me; although Auggie thought it was hilarious. The jerk.
Peter's idea was to describe how we felt when we got angry, what brought it on. Not as dumb a deal as we thought. Shelby blew it off or tried to. Peter doesn't let her get away with much anymore. She finally admitted it set her off when people wouldn't back off when she told them to. Subtle. Daisy said only stupid people tested her control. Ezra wanted to know how she handled being stuck here with us. He got to go next for that. His was being used. Go figure. Auggie's answer made the most sense, which was weird.
Auggie said it was when people attacked him or he felt like they were, that he started to lose it. When he felt like he was losing control. Sort of a get them before they can get you type reaction. Then it felt like his anger was an animal he couldn't control. Sounded familiar.
Being helpless and frustrated, yep that would be my secret trigger. Only the anger isn't something separate. It's me. I'm the animal. And how do you handle that kinda reaction? Something that primal?
Peter said it's all about trusting that not everybody's out to hurt us. Yeah right, good joke man. I trusted Elaine and she used me. I trusted Peter and he let me down. Dad practically disowned me when I trusted him with the truth. Shelby couldn't even trust me with her truth. Not that I've given her much reason to. But we're all we've got. How pathetic is that? We've got no one else and we still can't trust each other. I keep counting time 'til this crashes down around me too.
Four months, three weeks, five days and counting.
Endnotes:
The deal with Elaine was obviously the sexual abuse, Peter- the CPS disappointment, Dad- his less than stellar reaction to Scott's accusations of abuse on Elaine's part, Shelby- her own reluctance to admit she was a fellow victim of abuse.
Also, if anybody watches 'Outer Limits' and saw the one with Elaine in it (Rite of Passage), do you not agree with me that there is something seriously wrong with her being the mother of a new generation, much less the human race?