This is my first ever fanfiction, I have a lot of ideas, but this will be based mainly around Carla and Michelle, although it will not become a Carchelle relationship.
She sighed as she stood outside her flat, the flat she shared with the man that she was soon going to marry, the man who loved her more that life itself, the man she had cheated on.
They had been so happy, they were still happy, in his eyes at least, but for her there was an underlying sense of overwhelming guilt. She could feel it every time she lay with her fiancé, every smile he gave her, every kiss, every passionate night they had together. It was always there. Of course she had managed to build up her usual mask and hide her guilt from him, although it had been hard. She had had wobbles and had even tried to call of the wedding, but he always managed to change her mind. Always managed to show her how much he loved her.
She had wanted to tell him the day that it had happened as she knew full well how lies destroy relationships, but she didn't fully understand herself why it had happened and had no idea of how she would give him a truthful explanation. She had tried to tell him, but every time his love for her made it all the more difficult and she couldn't make herself break his heart. And then there was the blackmailing, that just made everything a whole heap more difficult, because now, not only did she have to tell him that she had done the dirty on him, but that the man he sold his business to was the man who she had gone to bed with, and if it weren't for her, he wouldn't have had to sell his business at all.
As she stood outside her flat, she thought about what she was about to do, she tried to compose herself but all she could see in her mind's eye was the look that would be spread across his face. Maybe he would forgive her, after all she had told him she would hurt him in the end, and it wasn't as though she didn't have a reputation for going with other men. But maybe he wouldn't, maybe he would be hurt and angry, what she feared most is that he would be disappointed, she couldn't stand disappointment, it made her feel worthless, and that was one emotion she didn't do. She had spent so much of her life feeling worthless, she had felt worthless with Paul, worthless with Frank and worthless with Peter, she couldn't feel it again.
She was Carla Connor and she was through with feeling worthless