I had to. This will most likely only be a one shot or a two shot….maybe a three shot…but I'm not promising anything! I CAN ONLY CONTROL L FOR SO LONG! Cause then he hurts me. I HAVE THE BLACK EYE TO PROVE IT!

ALSO: All of my Matsuda L stories are based off of the Movie, meaning they look like the actors, though if you want to imagine them as the anime characters that's perfectly fine to! ^^ I'm totally open to that. Haha

CHAPTER ONE

L sat crouched on the sofa, Matsuda standing opposite him, shaking with anger, though L seemed rather unfazed.

"How can you say that?"

"Well, it is quite simple, you stay late, you even are willing to stay here over night, where the others return home to their families or loved ones, and cannot stay over night often, which leads me to believe you have no one you care about." Matsuda flushed and took a step closer.

"You're wrong! For once you're wrong!"

"Am I?"

"Yes!" Matsuda snapped, his face reddening slowly. "There is someone I care about!"

"Then why do you not go and be with them when you can, when you are no longer needed here at HQ? Why do you waste your time here, you are still very young Matsuda and you should-" L's eyes widened as he felt lips pressed to his causing him to stiffen where he sat eyes wide, breath held hands trembling slightly as he starred into the eyes of Matsuda. Time seemed to freeze as Matsuda took L by surprise and captured his lips. They were soft. It was a frozen light closed lipped kiss. Matsuda slowly pulled back standing up to his full height and blushing slightly as he gazed down at L who gazed up at him, still frozen in place.

"M-Mr. Matsuda…what…what was that?" L questioned slowly unfreezing a slight pink blush creeping over the detectives cheeks.

"A kiss, you where wrong L…there is some one I care about, very much so…but," Matsuda looked away. "I doubt he shares my feelings, because when someone cares for someone else, they treat them as an equal. They don't call them names, or boss them around just because they know the other person will do it." Matsuda's words had a hint of bitterness to them causing L to bow his head, his mess of black hair hiding his eyes, which were wide as he gazed at his feet. He curled his toes, uncurled them, curled them, and uncurled them.

"I…don't know how to show others that I care…I've never known how…I blocked out my emotions when I was very young, and dedicated myself to my studies…but…maybe I treat another the way I do because…I'm taking their kindness for granted…" Matsuda blinked and turned to gaze down at the younger man.

"What are you trying to say L?" Matsuda demanded.

"What I'm trying to say is…I don't mean to hurt your feelings, and if I have over the past few months…I'm sorry." Matsuda's expression softened as he gazed down at the detective who was needing the fabric on his knees and wiggling his toes, two of the signs that he was uncomfortable. Matsuda sat down next to L and gently took the younger detectives chin and made him look at him. L's eyes were wide as Matsuda leaned in and pressed his lips once again to L's. L allowed the motion for a moment.

"Matsuda…I…"

"It's ok…" Matsuda breathed leaning his forehead against L's. "Trust me." L hesitated momentarily before nodding and relaxing slightly. Matsuda pressed his lips once again to L's before fingering the detectives jaw in such away causing him to open his mouth slightly. L made a surprised mumbling sound, eyes wide as Matsuda's tongue entered his mouth. As Matsuda ran his tongue over L's cheeks and then gently began rubbing his tongue along L's, L slowly closed his eyes enjoying the sensation.

'He tastes like strawberries, and coffee…and sugar.' Matsuda thought to himself as he deepened the kiss slightly causing L to moan in surprise slightly as Matsuda gently pushed him back, causing the younger to slowly fall on his back, Matsuda leaning over him. Matsuda broke the kiss, both panting slightly from the long kiss, L's eyes wide and slightly glassy. Matsuda leaned down and kissed him again, this time L gently, and a little nervously returning the kissing, though unsure of how to do so. Matsuda would have chuckled if he weren't busy rubbing against L's tongue. He gently placed his hand on the detectives shoulder and ran his hand along the detectives arm before moving to his shirt and gently slipping his fingers underneath it causing L to break the kiss and jump slightly.

"No, no…" He said panicking slightly. Matsuda looked at L who looked at Matsuda and then away nervously still holding Matsuda's hand.

'Is…' Matsuda frowned slightly. 'Is he self-conscious?' Matsuda leaned down and gently began kissing L's neck causing L to gasp slightly at the new sensation.

"It's ok L," he whispered against the pale skin. "Trust me." L bit his lip before releasing Matsuda's hand and gently holding onto the older detectives shoulder instead, leaning his head back slightly as Matsuda continued to kiss his neck and his collarbone which his shirt did not hide. He slid his hand under L's shirt and ran it up L's stomach, the shirt rising slightly with the motion till L's stomach was revealed. Matsuda returned to L's lips and began kissing him again slowly pushing up the shirt farther and farther, breaking the kiss so he could pull it off and over the younger detectives head. He tossed it to the floor and leaned up to gaze at L who wrapped his arms around himself and looked any where but Matsuda. L was lean, and the faintest outline of muscles could be seen. Matsuda leaned back down and gently kissed L's lips before moving to the detective's ear, nibbling on it slightly.

"You're beautiful." He whispered kissing his way down L's neck.

"B-beautiful?" L whispered in question.

'"The only thing I regret is ever having given birth to a child such as this." "He looks so weird." "He scares me…he's so creepy!" "You're so ugly L!"'

Matsuda nodded into the kiss.

"Yes." He whispered before recapturing L's lips to prevent the detective from speaking again as he ran his hand up and down L's lean stomach before gently running his fingers over one of the detectives nibbles causing L to gasp, allowing Matsuda's tongue entrance as he fondled the gradually hardening nipple. After a few minutes of Matsuda's teasing L gently pushed him away slightly panting as he lay there, sweat beginning to linger on his brow as he gazed up at Matsuda. L shook his head.

"I…I don't…" He continued shaking his head, his thoughts rather jumbled up in his head. "I don't know anything about…" Matsuda cut him off with a quick kiss.

"That's ok…you can learn at your own pace, we won't go farther then what your comfortable with." Matsuda stated perfectly happy with keeping it to kissing.

The door to the work area opened causing Matsuda and L to jump, L jumping from start so violently that he fell off the sofa with a thump. Watari, who had entered gazed momentarily shocked at what he saw before his eyes narrowed. L quickly got to his feet and blushed wrapping his arms around himself and looking much like a child who'd been caught with his hand in the cookie jar.

'I bet he'd been caught with his hand in the cookie jar when he was little.' Matsuda thought before snapping back to reality and standing up, wondering if Watari were going to kill him. L wanted to kick himself.

'I forgot about the cameras in here!' Unknown to them Watari hadn't been in the monitor room but had been coming through here to go to the kitchen which was on the other side of the work room.

"Ryuzaki, could you excuse us for a moment, I'd like to speak with Mr. Matsuda." L bit his lip.

"Umm…yes." He said crouching down grabbing his shirt and quickly making his exit. Matsuda gulped as Watari approached, slowly, eyes narrowed, taking very accurate steps.

"How could you possibly even think of putting such moves on Ryuzaki?" Matsuda blinked.

"Wait, what?"

"Ryuzaki may be an adult be he is still emotionally a child! He doesn't understand these matters, now what he chooses to do it is his decision, but let me make it very clear, if you do anything, in anyway to hurt him, you will regret it." Matsuda swallowed the lump in his throat as Watari turned and exited after Ryuzaki.

Watari entered L's room to find the detective crouched on the end of the bed fingering a fold of the blanket.

"You didn't kill him did you?"

"No."

"Are you mad?" The one thing Watari had to give L credit for was that he always worried about what he thought of him. L had even admitted often that Watari was his father figure. Watari had also known for a while that L not only favored women but men.

"No, I'm not mad. I just don't want you to get hurt." L began nibbling on his thumb and looked over at Watari.

"I trust Matsuda…he's nice…."

"He is, and if you trust him, then I will trust him to."

'Though I do not however trust Light Yagami.' He thought to himself.

"And if you do want to explore your feelings then go right a head, I will back you up no matter what your choice." He stated before turning and entering the bathroom. L listened as he heard Watari drawing a bath. L slid off the bed and pulled off his shirt and slid out of his pants leaving him in only his dark grey almost black boxers. He gazed at himself in the mirror and sighed.

'Matsuda had called him beautiful…and yet, he didn't feel beautiful, he couldn't see it…he never had.' He entered the bathroom running his fingers through his hair sighing.

Hehe Watari caught L and Matsuda making out on the sofa! Haha to funny. Ok well that's the first one. Next one will be updated when I decide to write yummy yaoiness. ^^