This is my first Calzona fanfic so please be gental! I know its short just an idea thats been floating in my head.
disclamier:I own nothing, it all belongs to Shonda Rhimes and ABC NOT me.
"Okay Sofia is bathed and down for the night. So now it's your turn to shower and then we can get some cuddle time. I thought you already took your pills." I say as I notice the bottle of pills in Arizona's hand.
"I can't do this anymore Callie. I'm done trying and dying every. Single. Time." Arizona says as she runs her hands through her hair as she sits up against the head of the bed.
"Wh-what? Wait, Arizona please let's talk about this for a minute!" I say taking a step toward the bed.
"No talking! I'm done. I've put you and Sofia through enough. I can't. I just can't, it hurts so much. To see the pain on Sofia's face because mommy can't play, and run with her anymore. And the exhaustion in your eyes after you put her to bed only to have to come and help your broken, crippled, and disgusting wife take a shower. I can't take one without your helping me, and it hurts me because I'm not used to being helped and having to be so depending on someone else just to pee!" She says as her voice starts to shake with unshed tears.
"That's what love is for Arizona."I say stepping closer to the bed.
"Please Callie. What is love? Tell me what love is." She says with tears falling down her face.
"Love gives us the energy to do what needs to be done. Love replaces the pain of everyday when I lay in bed next to you at night. Love gives us the strength to keep going when we feel like giving up Arizona! Can't you see that?!" I ask sitting on the bed next to her taking the bottle of pills out of her hand with little resistance on her part.
She stays quiet for awhile the only sound is her soft whimpers against my shoulder.
"Please don't leave me Callie! I can't do this without you. Ple-Please -I'm so messed up- please don't leave me. You are my rock. You keep me together. You can't leave me, please!"She cries in my ear and it breaks my heart.
"I'm not going anywhere Arizona I promise. As long as you promise never to leave me."I say pulling back to look her in her eyes.
"I promise. I love you so much Callie." She says burying her head in my neck.
"I love you too Arizona. But you know we have to talk about this at some point right?"
"I know just not tonight okay?"
"Okay."I say and kiss the side of her head and lay down with her in my arms, knowing morning will bring a discussion we both don't want to have but know we have to.