I Miss You, Dan

by drwhofan03

Phil is left broken after Dan's suicide, so resorts to writing him periodic letters to try and patch up his broken soul. He starts to self-harm, though, and begins having suicidal thoughts. Will he break through?

1. One Day

Dear Dan,

You died yesterday. I can't imagine a life without you, but I have to try. I still need to make a video for both of our channels, but it's hard. I miss your cute face and hobbit hair. I miss the way you used to smirk and bite your lip when I did something you found cute. I miss the way your hands intertwined with mine. I miss the way we used to have long meaningful chats about celebrities who were bisexual, just like us. I miss the way your body used to curl into mine as we lay in my bed, waiting for sleep to take us away from the world and lead us into a complete state of bliss.

I'm doing moderately well to say you arent here. I couldn't sleep last night, I couldn't stop thinking about your lifeless face lying on the floor of your bathroom as blood dripped down your wrists. I'm sorry i couldnt have helped you with your depression. I just wished you had told me sooner...

I knew about your self-harm, but i didnt think you had fallen that deep into the abyss of depression...

I love you

I miss you

I need you.

-Phil