Only You

Summary: Post season 3 "Widening Gyre" (Okay everything in the show happened, up to Widening Gyre. Jax does not find out Tara is pregnant in Ireland and Salazar doesn't kidnap Tara... Plus I didn't like the fact that Tara took Jax back so quickly.)

Category: Sons of Anarchy

Pairings: Jax and Tara

Rating: Mature Adult

Genres: Romance/Drama

Warnings: Same as the show.

Chapters: 1

Published: 10/28/2012

Completed: No

Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, Kurt Sutter does.

Authors Notes: So i am not used to writing anything other than Buffy The Vampire Slayer & Angel fics, so this has been a little bit challenging. Would love everyone's opinions. Happy reading! :)

It had only been thirty minutes and Jax was already getting impatient. He need to get to Ireland NOW...What the fuck was the pilot doing? Jax became angry and kicked the seat in front of him, "Jesus Christ, what the fuck is the hold up?"

"Don't worry baby, we're going, they are just checking the plane for any mechanical problems, calm down. We will get Abel, I promise."

Jax glanced towards his mother who was sitting across from him and he scowled, "Why did you have to go ahead and get Tara involved in your escape at the hospital, I swear mom if Tara gets caught, I'm holding you responsible." Jax glared at her before turning his head to look out the window beside him.

What the fuck had Tara and his mother been thinking, Gemma had been in the hospital on house arrest for the murder of Edmond Hayes— Cameron Hayes' son— the prick who kidnapped his son...killed Half-sac and almost Tara.

Jax closed his eyes tightly, picturing her beautiful face. 'God what an ass he had been to her. All she had been trying to do was get closer to him, he had known that Abel's kidnapping was never her fault, but he couldn't allow her to be involved with him anymore, all it did was lead to heartache and death. She deserved a better life, being involved with him would only get her killed. He needed her to hate him— to move back to Chicago. He didn't know what he would do if something had ever happened to her because of him.'

"If anything happens to Tara, I wouldn't rush to put the blame on me, Jackson."

Jax pulled out his cell phone and opened it, his fingers scrolled the contacts, he stopped scrolling when he got to her name and he sighed. 'Jesus Christ, Tara what were you thinking helping my mother escape?' He mumbled as he clicked on her name and went to text.

"What were you thinking when you helped my mother escape? I told you that getting involved with her could make you an accomplice. You could get charged and go to jail...Christ Tara, are you OK?"

"Jax? Are you listening to me?"

Jax snapped out of his thoughts and glanced back to his mother, when he heard her call his name, "What?" He snapped, glaring at her angrily.

"I said if anything happens to Tara, I wouldn't rush to put the blame on me, Jackson. What the fuck were you thinking sleeping with that porn bitch? I hope you wrapped your shit up!" Gemma scowled and she glared at Jax.

Jax flinched at his mother's words, he was about to respond when his phone began to vibrate, he glanced down quickly, Tara's name flashed across the screen, he sighed clicking on her message.

"I'm not your problem anymore, remember?"

Jax sighed heavily, god he had been such an asshole to her, she hadn't deserved any of it. All he ever wanted to do was protect her. "It's none of your damn business, Ma! Stay outta my shit!" He said, before glancing back down to his phone and hitting the talk button and pressing the phone to his ear. It rang three times before her voice came on the line. Jax sighed and stood up out of his seat, he glanced at his mother before pulling out a cigarette and exiting the plane.

"Tara, please don't be like that." Jax whispered taking a small drag of his smoke, he sighed heavily, leaning against the cargo plane.

"Like what Jax? Like the only man I have ever loved betrayed me. Used me until it wasn't convenient for him anymore. I understand you're angry and hurt and want to find Abel but, don't you think that I'd be hurting too...I don't care what you say, he's mine too. No matter how much you hurt me, that will never change. I might not be blood related, but he is my son. I am his mother."

"Tara, you're not safe with me. You are better off without me. You don't belong in this mess. You should have stayed in Chicago, you shouldn't have come back. I put you in danger. I…If anything happened to you, I don't know what I would do."

"Jax, have I not stood by you this last year through everything? You told me what I would be getting myself into, full disclosure, right? Well, I can handle myself. Stop treating me like a child. I took care of your son like he was my own. Put up with all the club bullshit. Put up with all the shit you've done to me these last few weeks, even after you cheated on me with that porn slut...I still stayed. I'm still here." Tara paused for a moment, she could hear Jax breathing heavily on the other end.

"I know you're scared Jax, so am I, but the way you've been acting, the way you've treated me, it isn't you. You're heading in the wrong direction and I can't let that happen. I'm not running away this time."

"Tara you deserve better than me." He whispered and he could hear a soft gaging then he heard her throw up.

He frowned slightly at the loud sounds that echoed through the cell phone from Tara throwing up and he became worried. "Tara, what's wrong? Are you okay? What's going on?"

"Bring home our son, Jax."

It had been a long, hard, stressful day at the hospital and Tara was more than exhausted. She yawned, rubbing at her tired eyes. Opening her office door she headed inside, taking a seat at her desk. Her head pounded and the nausea she was feeling was also getting worse and she sighed heavily, "Damn you Jackson Teller."

She moaned softly, her hand aimlessly rubbed small circular motions over her upset stomach, her phone rang loudly beside her and she reached for it quickly, smiling when Gemma's name flashed on the screen.

"Gemma… hey!" Tara answered leaning back against the chair, getting comfortable. "I miss you, how are you Gemma?"

"Tara it's me!"

Tara froze as Jax's soft voice whispered in her ear. 'Damn you Gemma' She cursed silently, "Jax, hey..."

"I have been trying to call you all day...I found Abel babe." Jax interrupted her.

Tara gasped loudly and her heart fluttered, a sob escaping her lips, "Is he okay? Did they hurt him?"

Jax swallowed, the pain in her voice awakening emotions he hadn't felt in months. "He's healthy babe— just perfect. He's asleep right now, in my arms...he keeps asking for you. He misses you." Jax paused for a moment, sighing heavily. "I miss you."

Tara's breath caught in her throat and she shifted uncomfortably in her chair, "Tell him I miss him too," She whispered, "Tell him I love him." Tara couldn't tell Jax she had missed him— not yet. She couldn't let him off that easily. He had hurt her badly— crushed her.

Jax was hurt that Tara didn't tell him she had missed him, he understood why she didn't. He had been a prick. "I know you're pissed at me right now, probably want to shoot my ass for the shit I put you through. I deserve everything I have coming to me. I would understand if you never want to speak to me again — I'd accept that—wouldn't like it, but I'd accept it."

"Jax..." Tara interrupted and Jax stopped her. "Tara please, I need to say this. I need you to know how I feel. "

Tara sighed, but didn't say anything, just waited for him to continue.

"The day in the hospital, after Donna had died...I...I meant every word, babe. Besides Abel, you're the only thing that matters to me. Not my mother, not the club— YOU. I had a lot of time to think while I was in Ireland and you were right. None of it matters. The only thing that matters to me in this world is you and Abel. You're my family Tara. Abel's mother...I fucked up bad babe, I know I did— I want to make it right. I need you in my life. I can't do this without you. I love you. I love you so much it hurts."

Tears streamed heavily down Tara's face as Jax claimed his love for her, she coughed as a sob caught in her throat and she gagged a little at the biol entering her lungs. Did he really expect her to take him back so easily? The shit he put her through, broke her more than she would ever admit. He had betrayed her.

"Just bring Abel home safely, Jax. We will discuss us later." Tara whispered softly. She glanced at the clock before grabbing her keys off the desk, "I'll be at my father's house, bring him there when you get to town. I want to check him out. I need to make sure he's okay. I'm not on rotation again until Friday. See you soon, Jax."

Tara hung up the phone not waiting for a response from Jax. She wasn't in the mood to be having this conversation on the phone with him, they were going to talk alright but it was going to be face to face. When she had told him cheating was a deal breaker, she hadn't been lying. Tara was no crow eater and she definitely wasn't his junkie ex-wife. She had never put up with it before when they were in high school and she wasn't going to start now. If he wanted to be with her, he was going to grovel and do everything she asked of him before she even thought of taking him back.

She closed her office door and zipped up her jacket and headed down the hallway to the elevator, but, before she reached it, a hand came out of nowhere, punching her hard in the face, knocking her unconscious.