Ahem… the fic below is in Yuzu-chan's POV… yarh, rather angsty, I know… ^.~ I got some inspiration from the depth of feeling and emotion in Mingfong Ho's Sing to the Dawn, a touching novel I read the night before…
Conflict
The roaring of the waves, endlessly and mercilessly breaking against the sandy shore… the howl of the wind in my ears, the music, reminds me of those conflicting emotions that run through my heart. For the millionth time, I sigh, and gaze upwards into the vast heavens. Could this all be a dream? I wonder. Is it true, every word that you said? Do you mean it? Or were you just leading me on…? Because I am a child, a young girl of fourteen; you find me barely mature? Kusanagi-san… are you thinking that this is merely a childish crush? Part of the phase that all teenage girls go through?
Sorrowfully, painfully, my mind vaguely wanders back to the days where no one could see Inuki. I felt so alone, so angry in my cause. However, now everyone I know has the ability to see him. And you were the first stranger I met with that ability. I had once promised that I'd love with the first guy whom could see my precious dog. And you are the one. Don't you know that?
When I first confessed, when I
first said, "Watashi Kusanagi-san no koto suki desu…", what were you thinking?
Were you shocked? That such a young girl could possibly love a little nothing
like you? You never did believe me, did you? Ha… how wrong could you are… Don't
you see, I like you for what you are. Your personality, love for all life on
earth, the way you are so easy to get along with, and the way you always cheer
me up. I just want to be with you. Could never hope for anything else but that.
To be away from my depressing duty, hurting when I see countless lives lost in
the earthquakes. To be with you... Where are you? I long to see you, am burning
with that aching emptiness in my heart. Sure, I'm really happy that you
accepted my feelings, but if I don't know when I'll see you again, don't know
if I'll ever see you again, then what's the point of confession? Perhaps, it's
for me to die in peace, knowing that the one I love knows my feelings.
I stare for a long while at
the boundless blue waters, and the shimmering mist slowly descending on it. I,
Yuzuriha Nekoi, leave the conflict of my heart with the sea, and now I've
decided. I'll follow my heart. Kusanagi-san… I'm not sure if I'll get to see
you again, but I'm already very sure… I hope I've left my footprints in your
heart. Even if I'm not there with you, I hope you'll feel me beside you, till
someday when we meet again……
~~~Owari~~~
Author's notes: Hope you've enjoyed that… I was in a daze while writing that… Pardon me!! Hope it doesn't sound too crappy ne… Please r&r kae?