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Chapter 01
Enduring the Fall
How do I get through one nite without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
Dawson didn't know what to think… she was gone. He sat on the docks and cried over Joey Potter. He cried until his eyes were red and his head hurt and then he got up, and he walked away.
Without you, there's be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
He walked up to his room and sat on his bed. Everything there reminded him of her. This wasn't suppose to happen.
And I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lose you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now
In the corner was the painting Aunt Gwen had given him of he and Joey at a simpler time. That would be the first thing he would put away.
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do, Oh how do I live
How Do I Live
LeAnn Rimes
Slowly at first and then more and more he put her things away. Not in anger, or jealousy, but out of need. He needed to get her out of his house if he was going to get her out of his heart, and so one by one things she had given him, or reminded him of her were put in a box, and put in the garage. Things that belonged to her, he left on her doorstep for Bessie. For now he needed to forget.
And to his surprise… each day it got easier.
"Hey," he heard coming from his doorway. "Busy?"
He was working on his laptop.
"Just writing as usual" he looked up to see Andie standing there.
"I'm sorry to bother you Dawson." She looked uncomfortable "I was just wonder how you were."
After Joey left it was just too painful to see her, it made him think of Pacey and so he figured it would be the same for Andie. "I'm sorry. I just figured that I would be a reminder of the whole Pacey/Joey thing."
"It's ok if it does Dawson. I thought it was wrong to still love him after all that happened, but it's not. We can't control how much we love them, just as they can't control how much they love each other. " It sill hurt to say the words. "So, I was thinking since it's been a while I wondered if we could reinstate movie nite? You know, you forcing us to watch some Speilbergized movie, us forcing you to watch the newest release..."
Dawson smiled "I would love that" and he really meant it
Summer started to fade and the leaves began turning shades of copper and gold and the air was growing cooler by the hour. Henry had come home days earlier and since then Jen had disappeared. She deserved it though… she was a faithful movie nite patron all summer and now it was her turn to be happy. Jack had met Holden, a very attractive boat mechanic over the summer and they were dating regularly. For the first time in a long time Jack was actually happy. Even his dad liked Holden. Andie was doing great. She and Dawson had practically become attached at the hip. They did everything together. Went to the movies…swan in the creek…corroborated on a screenplay that they would produce and direct this fall. He found himself looking to her like he use to look at Joey. His phone rang and couldn't even get out a hello before Andie spoke…
"Dawson! I have the greatest idea! WE are going on a road trip!"
"Road trip?" He questioned.
"Yeah! My dad has this friend at the University of Boston and well, they were chatting and he gave my dad some tickets, and my dad gave them to me and so I'm inviting you. Guess what's we're going to see?!"
"I'm afraid to ask..." he stammered
"All, I have to say is you are going to love me… are you sitting down… cause you should be sitting down for this…"
Dawson chuckled at her. She was obviously excited about something. He was still standing, but he decided to humor her,
"I'm sitting"
She took a deep breath, "We are going to Boston…. Because, you sure you're sitting?"
"I'm sitting"
Because Stephen Speilberg is hosting a film festival of all his films and we, that's you and me, have VIP tickets!"
Dawson almost fell over. He found his bed and sat on the corner. "Are you kidding me, because if you're kidding I might have to actually commit manslaughter."
"I'm not kidding Dawson" she squealed into the receiver.
They spent the next few minutes deciding when to leave the following morning. That night Dawson hardly slept. He wasn't only ready when Andie arrived to pick him up, but packed and outside waiting. The ride was long, but more fun then he had in a long time. The festival was fantastic! He not only got to see Speilberg, but talk to him as well, and as a bonus, Stephen asked Dawson if he had a copy of Sea Creature that had won the Boston Film Festival. As per usual he did, which he gave to Stephen only conveniently leaving out that the tape also contained his Creek Dazes, and Witch Island footage. He knew a golden opportunity when he saw one.
The festival ended late and they decided to stay the nite so they got a room at the cleanest hotel they could find. After checking in they ventured out to find food, finding only a McDonalds they got dinner and returned to the room to watch some TV.
"I don't know how I can thank you enough Andie"
"Why would you thank me. I wanted to come."
"I know, but that you thought of me."
She smiled, but it faded.
"Is something wrong?" he asked cautiously
She looked down and sighed "Look, I know the topic is old, and tired, and played out, and if you want me to drop it just tell me. " Dawson looked at her silently. "Do you ever wonder if they think about us?" She asked.
Dawson just sat there. This was always a sore subject. Finally he answered, "I hope so." She looked at him amazed. "At first I was angry, but after seeing the look on her face when she though he was leaving, well, I knew it was over. That she loved him."
Their conversation flowed away from the topic until finally spent they went to sleep. Driving home they laughed and talked and sang…he was beginning to realize how important she was to him.
Chapter 01
Enduring the Fall
How do I get through one nite without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh I need you in my arms need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
Dawson didn't know what to think… she was gone. He sat on the docks and cried over Joey Potter. He cried until his eyes were red and his head hurt and then he got up, and he walked away.
Without you, there's be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
He walked up to his room and sat on his bed. Everything there reminded him of her. This wasn't suppose to happen.
And I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lose you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now
In the corner was the painting Aunt Gwen had given him of he and Joey at a simpler time. That would be the first thing he would put away.
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do, Oh how do I live
How Do I Live
LeAnn Rimes
Slowly at first and then more and more he put her things away. Not in anger, or jealousy, but out of need. He needed to get her out of his house if he was going to get her out of his heart, and so one by one things she had given him, or reminded him of her were put in a box, and put in the garage. Things that belonged to her, he left on her doorstep for Bessie. For now he needed to forget.
And to his surprise… each day it got easier.
"Hey," he heard coming from his doorway. "Busy?"
He was working on his laptop.
"Just writing as usual" he looked up to see Andie standing there.
"I'm sorry to bother you Dawson." She looked uncomfortable "I was just wonder how you were."
After Joey left it was just too painful to see her, it made him think of Pacey and so he figured it would be the same for Andie. "I'm sorry. I just figured that I would be a reminder of the whole Pacey/Joey thing."
"It's ok if it does Dawson. I thought it was wrong to still love him after all that happened, but it's not. We can't control how much we love them, just as they can't control how much they love each other. " It sill hurt to say the words. "So, I was thinking since it's been a while I wondered if we could reinstate movie nite? You know, you forcing us to watch some Speilbergized movie, us forcing you to watch the newest release..."
Dawson smiled "I would love that" and he really meant it
Summer started to fade and the leaves began turning shades of copper and gold and the air was growing cooler by the hour. Henry had come home days earlier and since then Jen had disappeared. She deserved it though… she was a faithful movie nite patron all summer and now it was her turn to be happy. Jack had met Holden, a very attractive boat mechanic over the summer and they were dating regularly. For the first time in a long time Jack was actually happy. Even his dad liked Holden. Andie was doing great. She and Dawson had practically become attached at the hip. They did everything together. Went to the movies…swan in the creek…corroborated on a screenplay that they would produce and direct this fall. He found himself looking to her like he use to look at Joey. His phone rang and couldn't even get out a hello before Andie spoke…
"Dawson! I have the greatest idea! WE are going on a road trip!"
"Road trip?" He questioned.
"Yeah! My dad has this friend at the University of Boston and well, they were chatting and he gave my dad some tickets, and my dad gave them to me and so I'm inviting you. Guess what's we're going to see?!"
"I'm afraid to ask..." he stammered
"All, I have to say is you are going to love me… are you sitting down… cause you should be sitting down for this…"
Dawson chuckled at her. She was obviously excited about something. He was still standing, but he decided to humor her,
"I'm sitting"
She took a deep breath, "We are going to Boston…. Because, you sure you're sitting?"
"I'm sitting"
Because Stephen Speilberg is hosting a film festival of all his films and we, that's you and me, have VIP tickets!"
Dawson almost fell over. He found his bed and sat on the corner. "Are you kidding me, because if you're kidding I might have to actually commit manslaughter."
"I'm not kidding Dawson" she squealed into the receiver.
They spent the next few minutes deciding when to leave the following morning. That night Dawson hardly slept. He wasn't only ready when Andie arrived to pick him up, but packed and outside waiting. The ride was long, but more fun then he had in a long time. The festival was fantastic! He not only got to see Speilberg, but talk to him as well, and as a bonus, Stephen asked Dawson if he had a copy of Sea Creature that had won the Boston Film Festival. As per usual he did, which he gave to Stephen only conveniently leaving out that the tape also contained his Creek Dazes, and Witch Island footage. He knew a golden opportunity when he saw one.
The festival ended late and they decided to stay the nite so they got a room at the cleanest hotel they could find. After checking in they ventured out to find food, finding only a McDonalds they got dinner and returned to the room to watch some TV.
"I don't know how I can thank you enough Andie"
"Why would you thank me. I wanted to come."
"I know, but that you thought of me."
She smiled, but it faded.
"Is something wrong?" he asked cautiously
She looked down and sighed "Look, I know the topic is old, and tired, and played out, and if you want me to drop it just tell me. " Dawson looked at her silently. "Do you ever wonder if they think about us?" She asked.
Dawson just sat there. This was always a sore subject. Finally he answered, "I hope so." She looked at him amazed. "At first I was angry, but after seeing the look on her face when she though he was leaving, well, I knew it was over. That she loved him."
Their conversation flowed away from the topic until finally spent they went to sleep. Driving home they laughed and talked and sang…he was beginning to realize how important she was to him.