Thoughts of a woman in love
AN: This is yet another Season 5 finale fic. I know, there have been an abundance of these, but this is how I think Lorelai's thought process goes during Luke's rant.
AN: I don't own any of this. At all. So, DON'T TURN INTO JASON AND SUE ME! Besides, I don't own anything of actual value.
"Rory dropped out of Yale."
That's what started it all. My trip into the diner after that disasterous dinner. I mean, didn't they understand me? I didn't want this dream of Rory's to just go away! This has been Rory's dream since she was three, and read a book about Iceland. She wanted to go there, and write a story about a penguin. Of course, penguins don't live in in Iceland, but I didn't want to spoil her fun.
I can't believe that Mitchum Huntzberger! He just shot her down, and only knew her for a few weeks. Doesn't he have any tact in that fancy-pants soul of his? Knowing my parents, I doubt it.
I wondered sometimes if this was my dream, and I wanted to live vicariously through Rory. After wondering this, I realize that she needs to have more than me. I got pregnant. She didn't. It's as simple as that. She deserves to have this, which SHE wanted.
I thought I didn't raise a quitter. But apparently, I was wrong. People say we're so alike. And we are. At this point, we both threw our lives away.
"I know you think you have this thing handled, but I can help."
I know you can help Luke. You've always been there helping me, whether with Rory, or the inn, or anything! I should call you my Superman. Or Underdog. Whatever. Anyways, he always will save me. No matter what's happened, or whatever comes up, Luke is always there.
That's one of the reasons that I love him.
WHOA! Did I just think that? I love him? That's.. pretty scary. I've never EVER said that to a man. Not even Christopher. This is huge. But surprisingly easy.
Ok, now Luke's in a full blown rant. This is a big one. Never has there been a rant this big about something... since the test run. One year ago. One year ago? We've been together that long? And even during our breakup, I know I still had feelings for him. I've never been sad over a breakup for that long.
But, now that I think about it, I've never been with anyone as long as Luke. One year... and before that 8 years of friendship.
Usually by this time I would be running, but surprisingly, comittment sounds... nice, with Luke. I mean, with all that past there can't be anything but good in the future, right?
Now, he notices I'm staring at him. And the words just slip out:
"Luke, will you marry me?"
"what?"
Marriage sounds pretty nice right now.