Hey guys, so I loved this scene sm in the movie, and I loved all the close ups for Kylo Ren during the scene, so I kind of wrote this but it's rlly cringe now that I look back on it and I can't even bring myself to read it, but since I have more planned, I figured I'd just leave this up so that the rest makes sense and hopefully I'll see improvement as I keep going ahaha. I ship Reylo really hard, but it's been years since I wrote anything, so I'm kinda bad with words, sorry about that :/
And I'll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense, then you'll lose your mind
"You underestimate Skywalker, and Ben Solo, and me. It will be your downfall."
Rey's words rang in Kylo's ears as he bowed his head to hide the conflict raging behind his eyes. She believed in him. But she really shouldn't. He was powerless to help her now.
"Ooooh," Snoke hissed, "have you seen something? A weakness in my apprentice, is that why you came?" Kylo glanced up, tension prickling in his shoulders. He could not have any weaknesses. He had killed them all. He tried to read the Supreme Leader's expression, already anticipating the endless torture to come after Snoke was through with Rey. Snoke's mirthless laugh echoed through the room, and Kylo flinched before he caught himself and steadied his breathing. Then Rey was flying across the room, up above his head, struggling against the Supreme Leader's power. He wanted to block her screams out, push them away, anywhere, so he wouldn't hear them, and know that it was all his fault. He would do anything, anything to know those screams weren't hers, that they were Snoke's, that they belonged to Hux, or even that they were his own screams. But he was powerless to help her now.
When his lightsaber ignited in Rey's hands, in the back of his mind, a shadow of a thought flickered briefly. Was it hope? He didn't know, and didn't stick around to find out, quickly shutting it down before the illegal notion left the shadows and stepped into the light, under Snoke's ever knowing glare. Her defiant stance lasted only a moment, before she was swept across the room, his lightsaber tossed carelessly at his feet. But it wasn't his lightsaber he was studying. It was hers. Was he mad?
"Because of that, you must die." You must die. Rey must die. The death sentence invaded every corner of his mind, consuming all other thoughts, echoing the same phrase: You Must Die. He knew he would never let that happen. His mind began scrambling as he began calculating how to execute his hastily crafted plan, if you could even call it that. There was no chance it would work- Snoke knew him too well, he'd be prepared. But there was no other option, he had to try. Picking up his lightsaber, he looked into Rey's eyes, his mind too devastating to navigate safely, but his resolve strengthening in his heart. He would do anything to save her. He would do anything for her. That he knew.
Carefully, steadying his shaking hand, quieting his faltering mind, pushing the hesitation back, he walked towards Rey.
"I know what I have to do." Yes he did. Will you help me? But as he looked down at Rey's pleading eyes, he knew that she had helped him as much as she could.
"Ben" If he knew what he had to do, then why was he so scared, so hesitant? There was no room for doubt, he had to do this. For Rey. His gaze never leaving her, he steeled himself, then reached out with the force and turned the lightsaber on.
...
The emptiness in his mind nearly sent him over the edge, as Snoke's very presence was sucked out of him. All of his thoughts now bounced around chaotically in the vast emptiness where Snoke had watched over with scrutiny for so many years. The relief and shock in Rey's eyes brought him back to his situation, their situation. Her eyes probed his, searching for a reason, giving reassurance, maybe even thanking him, and he stared back, already calculating the million different ways they could die right now, but with the knowledge that they understood each other, and that they were in this together.
And that was why, when she fled, leaving him to deal with the consequences of his actions, the things he had done for her, she shattered his already bruised heart.