AN-This is my first 'L Word' fanfic. I've only seen the first two seasons as I don't have Showtime. I have read some spoilers for the other seasons, but I'm basically going blind after season two. This is set directly after season two ended. It's a Tina/Bette pairing. I hope you enjoy. Any feedback, good or bad, is greatly appreciated.
Bette was exhausted it had been a very emotional couple of months. First, she had done the unthinkable and cheated on Tina. That was the most unforgivable thing anyone could do. True, they had slowly drifted apart, but that was no excuse. Communication and trust were two of the basics any relationship should be based on.
There was also honesty. Once you lied, how could your partner ever trust you again? She had committed all three sins. The young woman had not communicated how she felt with Tina. Worse, she had not listened when her girlfriend had tried to communicate with her. Trust was broken and was so difficult to regain.
Her father's death had hit her hard as well. She had known he was getting older. But he had always been the strong and healthy one of the family. The fact that he could never accept Tina or the baby as part of the family had always hurt more than she could say. It cut her to her very core. It was how she realized how Kitt had felt all these years.
Something so amazing was happening for her now. Tina was asleep beside her. Their little one was asleep in the basinet beside them. Thought Angelica had her own room, the two wanted her as close as possible for awhile. It had been a fight to bring her into the world and not just the fact that there had been complications with the delivery. The very fact that her two moms were split made it a difficult way to bring a new life into the world.
But now, she had Tina back. Their family was complete. Would they ever add another little one to their love? Only time would tell. There was still a lot of hurt to be healed. There was a lot of trust to be rebuilt. Bette knew that she was the luckiest woman on the earth that Tina had even thought about forgiving her.
Now, it didn't seem real. The past few nights were so surreal. There had been very little time for the two lovers to make love. But it was so much more amazing the connection a baby brought to two people. Their lives were now complete in every way. They had found the person that made them whole. They love they shared was now multiplied by three.
Everything was as it should be in the lesbian's mind. Sure, they were going to have rough times ahead. She was still without a job. Tina supported her no matter what. It was a matter of time before things clicked for her on a professional level. In the meantime, she wanted to enjoy the family that she had.
Again, her thoughts went back to how surreal it felt. It was as if something were not quite right though everything felt more than right. Lying beside the woman you loved, how could it not be right? Having your little girl sleeping soundly near you, how could that not be right? Something deep down told her that it was right.
And yet, there was something else? What was it? Could it be fear? Could it be feeling they had not really gotten past everything? Could it be that things didn't always work out the way you wanted them to? Why did she feel that things were not as good as they felt?'
A soft voice broke her train of thought. "Aren't you sleepy?" Tina whispered.
"Exhausted." Bette leaned over and kissed her partner gently on the lips. "Just got a lot on my mind. But trust me when I say, I'm the happiest I've been in years. I never want us to be a part again."
"I agree." Tina smiled sleepily at her. "Now, wrap your arms around me and let's get some sleep. Won't be too long before it's feeding time."
"With pleasure." Bette wrapped both her arms around Tina. The two snuggled so closely, you could not tell where one started and the other ended. For now, the two were as one. They were a family.