Scared
By: xXxDaughteroftheKingxXx
AN: Wow, this is my longest poem thingy ever. Happy Dad's Day to all you dads(highly unlikely) on here, and all your dads! Tell 'em happy Dad's Day! (:
I'm sorry if this is OOC, but you know, if I was Thalia, and my mom hated me, I would want to impress my dad. And if my mom hated me and did all this crap to me, and I was NINE, I would feel scared to face my dad, who left me with my mom for nine years. So, I think even Thalia would be a bit scared of her dad. That, or she'd want to impress him. And she hates her mom.
Disclaimer: Don't own PJO/HoO.
She's s-c-a-r-e-d
(really super s.c.a.r.e.d)
What if he doesn't like it?
WHAT IF HE HATES IT?
What if he b~l~o~w~s up at her,
just like her mom did on Mother's Day?
_She was just trying to be nice..._
She made something especially
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[And only for him]
Not for her
not for Jason
{cute, sweet little Jason}
not for any of those g/o/d/s that he t*a*l*k*s about
/But Miss Belle said the gods don't exist...\
:And Dad just laughed...:
"Of course they do, Thalia,
you'll know more s.o.m.e.d.a.y..."
=He was in a good mood that day=
She could only
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E
he wasn't with her again
(Because she knows how that will end—very b~a~d~l~y)
All she's asking for is just a little alone t=i=m=e with him
No, Jason, no mom, no one.
[Was it that hard to ask for?]
So, praying to every g:o:d that's she's heard of...
{The Greeks, that 'Jesus' from Maddi's church, the Egyptians...}
...she timidly knocks on her mother's door
_Because if he's here, then he's definitely in there_
But she won't get her hopes up
(Not again; only to see them
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"Come in," says a masculine voice
[It's him, for sure.]
She shyly walks in, suddenly feeling so self-conscious
*Since when does anyone make her feel this way?*
"Hi, Dad," she says quietly, looking down.
Jupiter(Or is he Zeus? She never knows) smiles briefly at her, then says, "Thalia."
!She wants to p.l.e.a.s.e him so badly!
Why, though?
"I, um," she mumbles, scuffing her foot on the wine-stained carpet, "got you something."
He raises an eyebrow, and she flinches.
"You are worthless, Thalia. NOTHING."
"What?"
"I..." she mutters, refusing to meet his
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(They're sterner and wiser, but she knows them—Jason has them too.)
"I made you this." She holds up a small piece of paper
[So, so simple]
with a l:i:g:h:t:n:i:n:g bolt drawn on it and says
Happy Father's Day, Jupiter.
"It's not my handwriting," she adds quickly. "I had trouble writing, so I had Miss Belle write it."
He looks somewhat confused, then mutters, "But I'm not..."
That's it. Her mom was right. He didn't like it.
She was
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He must've n.o.t.i.c.e.d her upset face
because he sighs, then says, "Thank you, Thalia."
(It's probably the closest things she'll get to him showing affection)
She smiles briefly, then mumbles, "You're welcome," before running off
'Maybe he wasn't the best dad ever,' Thalia Grace muses.
*It's been at least thirty years since that, and she wonders if he remembers that too...*
'He's far from it. But he did save my life, and we did have that one moment...'
~So, after having an internal battle with herself...~
'You once cursed him to the high heavens and back!'
'So?'
...Thalia reluctantly mutters a p/r/a/y/e/r to Lord Hermes
/Luke's dad...\
And she reluctantly holds up envelope addressed to Zeus—her dad, not Jupiter
[Because today marks the 30th anniversary of when he saved her life…
…AND it's Father's Day]
And she's still kinda s*c*a*r*e*d
{Just like when she was 9}
He might be o/f/f/e/n/d/e/d…
…but then again he might NOT.
&& now, she's learned to
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Because, even if you're a Hunter, you never know how short life can be
So, she g~i~v~e~s Hermes the e;n;v;e;l;o;p;e
*and a d|r|a|c|h|m|a, of course*
Then he f+l+a+s+h+e+s away
=It's too late to turn back now=
But she doesn't care, not at all
Because she's TIRED of being
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She'd done being the little girl who was terrified of her father
(Yeah, he can blast you into a million pieces. So?)
She's going to start t:a:k:i:n:g r:i:s:k:s
[You do it with everyone else, why not your dad?]
She's not worthless;
She's not nothing.
He doesn't b.e.l.i.e.v.e that, and neither does she.
She's not s`c`a`r`e`d of him
Like she was when she was nine…
She'd done with being
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[She is Thalia Grace.
She is fearless.]