Dear Liam,
Okay, so…I've done this before. Written you letters, I mean. But, you're probably thinking 'What? She never sent any letters…' and I know. You're right. That's the thing. I've written billions of letters and put them in a box. Because I was scared to send them, you see.
This letter…well, I know I have to send it. You'll be 18 now. I'm 16 years old, I'm about to leave Elm Tree House…and I know that I have to tell you now, or I never will. Plus, Tee kind of forced me into it. I'm going to enjoy being flatmates with her, I think.
But this isn't about Tee, so I shouldn't be getting off track. That's what she just said, anyway. She's packing her stuff and sort of looking over my shoulder occasionally. She's making sure I'm going to tell you the absolute truth.
Do you remember when we first met? I arrived at Elm Tree, and we had to share a room for a while. I thought you were so incredibly annoying, and you thought the same about me. But we grew closer, and after you moved out of my room, we became good friends.
When Johnny made that mean comment about my mum and me, and you beat him up, I wasn't there. But I remember. Toby told me. I never did say thank you for sticking up for me like that. You've done a lot of things that I haven't thanked you for.
You saved my life. I was crossing the road, when I was 13, remember? I was going across and I was a complete idiot, stopping halfway to look at my phone. The car was getting really close and I wasn't listening to Lily's screaming and then you picked me up and ran with me, out of the road, and to safety. My hero, as always.
So…what I'm trying to tell you is…I'm madly in love with you.
Ever since we first met I have been, though I tried really hard not to show it. I think you knew, though, just before you left. I was being really nice to you, and so was Tee, but I think you knew that it was me who was in love with you.
So…here goes I guess. Liam, I love and always will love you, and I don't except you to return the feelings, so don't worry about that. I just want you to understand that my heart will always belong to you.
All my love,
Carmen Howle.