Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
"So it's… This is it." Kurt said, reaching for one of his husbands hands regardless of their feelings.
"I love you." Blaine tried simply and Kurt twitched a smile.
"I know. But you don't."
"I tired."
"Me too." Blaine could see the tears in Kurt's eyes and he cupped his cheek with his free hand, the pad of his thumb running under his husbands' eye gently.
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say
"It's going to be okay." Blaine reminded him and Kurt nodded before throwing his head back with a single laugh and a deep breath.
"It's funny." Kurt said, but Blaine couldn't understand why; he didn't find any of this funny. "I mean, I've – we've – known this was going to happen for a while now. It's just… Scary. I always thought I'd be with you for the rest of my life."
"You'll find someone better-"
"Don't. Don't do that, Blaine. You were perfect. We just weren't meant to be."
Kurt's voice was firm and Blaine nodded. "We need to tell the kids." Blaine stated, defeated and just sad.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
"They'll understand." Kurt comforted, reaching forward to stoke his fingers through Blaine's loose curls.
"What will we tell them?" Blaine asked while realising that this probably isn't that best place to have this conversation; back stage at a gig, but he needs to know. He needs this laid out in front of him if there is any chance of him surviving.
"We'll tell them the truth… We'll say that I… That I had an affair and things just hadn't been right between us for a while now."
"We don't have to say that you… We don't have to tell them about Ryan."
"They deserve to know the truth, Blaine. I know they'll probably hate me but they deserve to know."
"No. I mean, yes, they deserve to know. But we can tell them when they're older. When they can /really/ understand how we felt and what went on."
Kurt nodded as Blaine blinked away his own tears.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
"I really thought I could… I thought we would-" Blaine stumbled over his words but Kurt cut him off.
"I know, Blaine. I did too. But things will never be how they used to be, not before I-"
"Cheated on me." Blaine finished, still bitter about the subject and Kurt nodded in confirmation.
"Cheated on you." He repeats. "I should... I should go. I'll find a hotel."
Blaine's heart was well and truly in pieces at this point; he wanted to tell Kurt to stop this, that he forgives him, that he can be what Kurt wants him to be, but he just can't. Kurt hurt him one too many times and neither of them are happy.
Oh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
"Do I get a kiss goodbye?" Blaine asked, because it seemed safer than voicing how he felt.
The kiss was sweet and soft but short lived, because they couldn't stand how what they used to feel is no longer there – it's almost like kissing a stranger, only without the thrill.
Blaine watched Kurt walk away after that, they were both hiding their tears and heartbreak, but when the door closed Blaine let out a strangled sob. It's over. It's really over. He and Kurt, they're no longer in love.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star