Richard is a 44 year old man, whom has remained secluded from most of society. He Continues to live with his mother. He doesn't know this yet. But he has just enter- The Twilight Zone.

Entering the hospital

"How? Why?"

"I'm ok, I'm awake, right here."

"What are you doing to me!? Please leave me! Oh stop!" Yelling at the top of my voice.

"I don't need this! Cant you hear me?"

Body motionless

I can see myself lying on the hospital bed.

Why can't I move? Why can't I be heard?

Most fear is measured by observing, its a means of frightening you.

Watching the Hospital staff standing over my body.

Nothing is more despicable. Its fear which causes insanity.

"Wait! Where are they taking me to - The "MRI"? WHAT!? I'm unable to withstand small spaces! I can't! I CAN'T!"

The MRI, Magnetic Ray Image machine, moving over my head. The technician laughing. Why? Why me?

Fear is the main source of superstition and one of the main sources of cruelty. To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom.

The technician leaves as the MRI slowly moves across my face.

The sound of humming.

Fear, heart pounding, tears, as it slowly comes to an end.

Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.

My body is moved back to the main room. Nurses and doctors hovering over me.

I can see the whole room, I am observing their every move.

I remain lifeless on the bed.

The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, and one of anguish. Cutting the heart asunder.

As I watch the nurse insert a needle into my forearm, my heart pounds. I'm profusely sweating.

"How could she!? That looks so large!"

Fear is only as deep as the mind allows.

Why? I didn't feel it but I see it being performed. Why is the doctor performing chest compressions? What? WHAT!? It can't be!

--flat line-- "Clear!" Chest paddles.

Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live.

Continue again.

"What is the doctor doing? Listen to me! I'm right here!"

I fear now for my sanity.

Fear of monsters attracts monsters

The staff continues, laughter, cruelty as I watch.

The most dangerous person is the fearful; he is the most to be feared

I continue to watch

"Clear!" Goes the doctor as he places the paddles on my cheats.

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Life passes over him.

3 years old clutching his mothers leg for safety. His fear of crossing streets which continues to this day.

At the age of 7 which continues to the present, mirrors all covered in the house. Unable to look at himself for fear of the devil to appear.

His life continues to flash before him. Fear of dogs, running away quickly.

But his biggest, fear of people in society. Never leaving the safety of his own home.

Mother always telling him continuously over and over till he can't stand it any longer.

Closing her out.

Humming to himself as she says,

"Never be afraid of something new. Remember, armatures built the ark, professionals built the Titanic."

Every time we choose safety, we reinforce fear. Its like skating on thin ice, our safety is our speed.

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As a man I learned to keep his fears to myself, but share my inspirations with others.

I learn through observing my life as it flashes before me while the hospital staff are failing being able to put life back into my body.

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Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away.