Hey guys, so this isn't really a FanFiction, but I get more publicity on this sight than I do on FictionPress, so yeah... Please read and review, your honest opinions please. Um, yeah, I do actually own this... so go read! (My story)
Is it normal that I feel this way? Am I the only one that does? Or do other people do as well? I'm scared that I'm abnormal, that I'm a danger to society. But I just can't stand her anymore, and I don't think that it's the normal sister-sister love/hate situation. Just being in the same room as her aggravates me, hearing her voice, even if it isn't directed at me, or in the general vicinity as me, annoys the crap out of me. I just can't stand her, I'm sorry about that. But it's true, I just want to take her and shake her, and crush her, and just murder her. Do I have anger management issues? Am I a harm to my friends and family? Am I just going to snap one day and go on a murderous rampage? I am truly terrified of what the future holds for me.
I mean, I just hold all my anger in, well, at least most of it, and don't let anyone know about it. And I get mad at people for the smallest thing, things that most people would just shrug at. I tell people don't swear, and I have for the longest time, and that creates a reputation, but yet, I know that swearing those actually help relieves stress and anger, which is something that I need, and swearing in one's head really doesn't cover it, if you know what I mean.
Oh, stress, yes, stress, stress is also a big factor in my anger issues (if you/I want to call it that) see, the thing is, is that I am on student council, and my schools student council no longer has a president, vice-president, treasurer, secretary, anything. We also have new teachers supervising student council, so things are very different this year, so basically, the eighth graders rule student council, and I just volunteered to basically be the leader, so I am basically the official, un-official president of student council. And whenever somebody has a question, it's my name this, my name that. And it's just so nerve racking!
People think that I'm so smart and all, because I sort of give off that aura, but I'm not. It's fake smartness, I just do what I need to to be able to get a good grade. Yes, in group projects I take it all on myself, but that's because I don't like being dependent on others, on the other hand, then I feel so much pressure, and stress, that I just break down. And back to the taking it all on me thing, I guess it's also because when I'm not doing the project itself, then I always think of things that I want to put in it, but then the person who is doing it might not put that thing in, getting the group a bad grade. And I just don't like group projects.
Really, I'm that good girl on the outside, but sometimes, I just want to take off that cover, and be the bad girl that I truly can be, and really, am.
So, this is the end of this little story. Yes, I know it's short. But, it's what I have for you, please review. I will be immensely happy with you if you do. That's all I can say, and thank you for reading this.