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Kevin's Feelings
-Gwen-
Things have been fairly normal since I started collage, aside from a few alien troubles here and there. The only non-normal action that happens constantly is Kevin's behaviour. Since we moved his attitude has been different, like he's getting distant. I'm not saying he's the only one's who's feelings are changing; I, myself, have found an interest in one of my classmates, but I still have feelings for Kevin. How strong they are or what they'd be called I don't know, but they aren't as strong as they used to be. Anyway back to Kevin. Not only does he seem distant all the time, he also seems sadder; less like himself. I've noticed that if Ben calls, visits, or we visit him, Kevin seems to be normal, happier, a lot less distant. And since we haven't see or heard from Ben in the last six months he's been even worse. So I called him over to the dorms to speak with him about what I've noticed.
KNOCK, KNOCK. I opened the door to see Kevin on the other side texting someone. "Who are you texting?" I asked allowing him inside. "Ben. He won't answer any calls." He said, sitting at my desk. "Maybe he's busy." I suggested, taking a seat across from him on my bed. "All day?" He questioned. "Just give him some time to answer you back." I said. He sighed and nodded. "What'd you want to talk about?" He asked, sitting his phone on the desk. "Some things that I've noticed." I said and he looked at me with curiosity in his eyes. "Like?" He urged me to continue. "First off, our feelings aren't the same as they used to be; if they were even there in the first place. Second off, this conversation involves you and Ben." His breath caught when I said this. "Yeah, what about us?" He asked, adverting his gaze from mine. "As weird for you as this may sound. I think you have feelings for him as more than you're best friend." I said. His cheeks grew pinker and pinker. "I'm not angry at you for liking my cousin, but why didn't you tell me?" I asked, he looked relived yet also still worried. "I wasn't really sure who my feelings were for. Yes I have feelings for you, but lately I don't think they are more than a friend or sister." He sounded guilty. I gave him a soft smile. "You don't have to feel guilty for who you like. I'm not mad at you either. And not to be rude, but I've also took an interest in someone else." I said and he looked at me with worry. "So that means we're done?" He asked and I nodded. He sighed as if in relief. "Sorry I sorta lied to you." He apologized. That stunned me, Kevin never apologizes. He must have felt really guilty. "What are you worried about?" I asked. "Ben's not gonna return the feelings. He's straight. If I even tell him I like men he'll never want to talk to me again." He covered his face with his hands. "You'll be surprised. I over heard an argument between him and Cash once. Cash was dissing on a gay couple at school and Ben stood up for them, saying it didn't matter that they liked the same gender; as long as they were happy. Of course Cash beat him up and started calling him gay. He also does those silent days." I explained and him mood seemed to brighten. "Its pretty late, do you want me to head home and come back tomarrow?" He asked getting up from the desk. "No I'll come over and help you pack to go back to Bellwood." I said. He looked stunned that I was already pushing him back to Bellwood. "O-ok." He said then left.
For the rest of the night I did my home work for the weekend and read. Eventually I fell asleep. The next day I woke up, took a shower, dressed in work clothes, and headed to Kevin's. When I got there I rang the doorbell and waited about two minutes before ringing it again. After five minutes of waiting I rang it repeatedly until Kevin yanked the door open. "WHAT?! Oh, hi Gwen." He stepped back to let me enter. "Kevin, did you just get out of bed?" He nodded rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. While I was in a pair of black leggings, running shoes, and a blue tank top; Kevin was shirtless with black basketball shorts and his hair pulled back into a low ponytail. Now it was just below his shoulder blades; I guess that's what four years of not cutting your hair will lead to. "What time is it anyways?" Kevin asked pulling a random shirt off the couch. "About 8:30." I answered as I started pulling flattened boxes out of his closet. For the next five minutes we reshaped them back into their box forms in silence. "So, when did Ben start with all the silent days and other stuff?" Kevin suddenly asked as we were packing the things in his room. "I think the school year after we meet you." I answered, trying to remember when it all started. I looked over to Kevin to see him mindlessly shoving things into a box. When I looked closer I noticed he was blushing; I had to stifle a giggle. After, maybe, five minutes of packing in silence Kevin spoke again. "So, why are you pushing me back to Bellwood so quickly?" His box was full when he asked this. "Well, it's almost Christmas, and if my assumption is right, Ben may like to hear the news around now." I said starting on the final box. It really didn't take to long to pack up his entire apartment, most of his stuff was in his room; in all it was ten boxes and one duffle bag of some of his clothes. "Well that didn't take long." I stated the obvious when we finish putting the boxes into his car; seven in the trunk and three in the back seat plus the duffle bag.
It was around noon so we decided to get lunch in a little diner close to the campus. During the meal we talked about different things; none of involved Ben or Bellwood. "So, want to do some Christmas shopping before you leave?" I asked when we finished. "Sure why not?" He started the car and drove to the small mall just down the road. We spent the rest of the day, at least till dark, going through shops getting gifts for everyone we knew. When the sun finished setting Kevin dropped me off at the campus and we said our farewells till we see each other again. I waved as Kevin drove off and smiled to myself, hoping things went well for the two.