He's gone and I'm pregnant. What am I going to do he's only just been buried im facing life on my own with Ella and now another baby on the way I don't know what to do. Im so worried what can I do. I can't cope on my own at the moment im Barely coping now what with another baby on the way. I'm keeping it for Mark's sake I cant do this to him he deserves this baby. Robert's been great to me since mark died and so has Rachel she's stayed with me she say's she likes it here. I don't know why. I came home from work today to find the house sparkling and dinner on the table she had fed and bathed Ella and put her to bed. I'm sorry for what? For making mark miss those important few weeks when Ella fell ill. I never thought that I would trust Rachel again but we became close when mark fell ill she helped out a lot. Rachel knew that Mark was Ill again when I went back home 'Dad's Ill again isn't he?' she asked me I just looked at her she knew my answer I didn't even have to speak. I felt so guilty did she think I was just moving back because Mark was ill well I guess I did, but Robert made me release something that no matter what happened to us I would always love Mark. He will always be watching over me Rachel, Ella and the new baby. I will always love you Mark Greene. I've decided something I'm going to change my surname to Greene. I guess I want to do it for Mark. Mark was the first man I really cared about and now he has gone



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