Author's Note: Ok I realize I'm in the middle of an Inuyasha story (uke Naraku), but I suddenly got a spark of passion to write this. So that story is still being written I'm just taken a break.

Disclaimer: I dont own Naruto. If I owned Naruto or any of the characters then this would be an anime.

Itachi was in the shower watching as his blood swirled into the water as the knife kissed his wrist. Everyday it was the same. Get up, deal with the teamates he hated, hurt people he doesn't want to, and tell himself he's not broken as tears fall from his eyes. He hated it. He hated who he had become, but he couldn't do a damn thing about it. Not if he wanted Sasuke safe.

Sasuke. His only brother. The only thing he had left. The only thing he truly cared about. The one who hates him for a crime he didn't commit. For his brother, Itachi had to keep the truth to himself. No matter how much he wanted to expose the truth, he couldn't.

"S-Sasuke..." Itachi let the tears he hadn't realized he was holding in slip down his face, joining the mix of blood and shower water.

He wanted so badly to tell the truth of the clans massacre, but he couldn't. For Sasuke's sake. Everything was for Sasuke. No matter how much he wanted to shine some light on the truth he couldn't. Madara made sure of that.

Madara. The one who ruined his life. The one he hated. Not just for the clan's massacre, but for being Itachi's personal hell. Madara was the reason for Itachi being so desperate for an escape that he'd take his own life.

Madara had stripped Itachi of his innocence the day he killed the clan. Itachi pushed thoughs thoughts away. He didn't want to think about it. About the first time he was raped. The thought made his stomach churn. Ever since that day he had been Madara's personal fuck toy. He was still virgin tight. A jutsu of Madara's. Which is why he still screamed, cried, and begged when Madara would take him. He couldn't go numb to the pain. It was always like the first time.

The only thing that kept him from ending his life here and now was Sasuke. Itachi knew however that he couldn't hold out forever. He had been here since he was 13. 8 years. He promised himself he'd go on as long as possible and his resolve was finally weakening, much to his dismay.

Itachi fell to his knee's and hugged himself. The water had run cold awhile ago.

He knew he'd be taking his life in a matter of days. He had promised himself he wouldn't do anything that could bring Sasuke harm, but he couldn't hold out much longer.

Itachi let sobs join his tears. He was finally at the end of his rope. He was going to end himself.

"I've failed...I'm so sorry Sasuke. I-i tried, but I can't protect y-you." Itachi whispered.

Itachi realized he had dropped the knife at some point. Picking it back up he slashed his wrist a few more times to keep himself at bay.

"Soon." he whispered to himself.

Pulling himself off the the floor he turned the shower off and walked out of the bathroom only to fall three feet from his bed.

'Damn. Lost to much blood this time.' He passed out as his thoughts slipped away.

Itachi woke up to a vicious kick to the ribs by none other than Kisame.

"Get up. Pein-sama wants you."

Itachi quickly covered himself when he realized he didn't even have a towel on.

After getting dressed Itachi went to his "leader" Pein's office to find out what he wanted. He knocked on the door, patiently waiting with a stioc expression on his face.

"Come in." came Pein's muffled reply.

Itachi walked in and stood on the otherside of Pein's desk.

"Kisame's been complaining that you've been losing focus on missions lately. I've noticed a change as well. It's like when you first came here, but much more depressing."

"Well It's not exactly easy to be happy in a prison."

" I guess your still bitter about being here."

Itachi just stared, his eyes never betraying what he was feeling. Finally the silence started getting awkward.

"Very well. You may leave. Start paying attention on missions. I would just hate for Madara to hete about your lack of concentration."

Itachi left the room feeling slightly scared that Pein would go through with his silent threat.

Itachi took off out of the Akatsuki base and ran. It was late at night. It had been a week since his talk with Pein and things had gotten worse. Pein had in fact told Madara about Itachi's slacking off. As a result Madara had been much more brutal and creative, for lack of a better word, than he already was when it came to raping and torturing the poor Uchiha.

Itachi fingered the rope in his hand as he ran.

"Tonights the night I end it all." he mumbled with a sad smile.

The stars were beginning to fade as reached his destination. He was roughly a mile from the Hidden Leaf Village. Briefly looking around Itachi climbed a tree. Tieing one end of the rope to a sturdy looking tree branch and the other end around his neck, he paused.

"I want to tell them I didn't do it. Even if they don't believe me. Even if I'm dead."

Itachi realized that's why he must have wanted to die so close to the Leaf.

He took off his Akatsuki cloak, glad that he'd never again wear it. After that he pulled out a kunai and pressed it to his skin an inch under his wrist, beginning to carve words into his skin.

"I didn't kill my clan" were the words that permanently scarred his skin.

"I'm sorry Sasuke." he whispered

Letting a single tear trail down his cheek, he jumped.

Kakashi's POV

Leaping through the tree's were Naruto, Sakura, Sai, Kakashi and Team Gai. They were heading back from a mission when he felt a familiar chakra signature.

"Stop."

Everyone turned to look at him.

"Do you feel that chakra? I think it's Uchiha Itach's."

"Your right, but I don't sense Kisame's." Sakura piped up.

"What! How can it be Itachi's it's to weak!" came Naruto's rant.

"We're checking it out." Kakashi headed of towards the signature.

'It's so close to the Leaf.'

Kakashi stopped dead in his tracks, hearing a few gasp behind him.

In front of him was Itachi. With a rope around his neck.

Sakura spoke up,"It looks like he tried to commit suicide, but look the branch broke. He's only unconscious."

Kakashi cautiously stepped forward. Peering at Itachi he noticed blood on his arm. Taking a closer look he froze.

"DIDN'T KILL HIS CLAN!" came Naruto's abnoxous voice.

Kakashu hadn't realized he said thoughs words out loud.