Haley´s thinking

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I don´t really know why I´m writing this but I saw just a piece of "100" and this came to my mind, I just saw a piece and it made me cry like a baby I don´t know what the whole chapter will do.

This is written from Haley´s POV

Disclaimer: I don´t own Criminal Minds

Haley´s POV

I´m dying , that monster got me, I did what I could to protect Jack to give Aaron time to find him, to give his team time to find him, he´s my concern, Foyet wouldn´t get to Jack.

I love my baby, he´s the product of Aaron´s and mine love, and I know that he´s the reason why he does the job, I wish I could realise this sooner but I don´t have any time now.

Love and laughter for her baby, she wished she could be there but she knew him and he will do everything in his power to make their son the man she dreamed he will one day be.

During Haley´s funeral

Haley´s POV

I stay, I didn´t follow the light, not yet I wanted to see, and it breaks my heart to see my baby so sad, I don´t like that, Aaron is heartbroken to, and I don´t like that either, my death wasn´t his fault, I never regret to love him, how could I? He give me Jack, I see his team always on his side, I can see JJ, Derek Morgan, Dr Reid, the odd tech, I remember Aaron called her Garcia, I see David Rossi, and I see her, Emily Prentiss.

For a while I was jealous of her, she spend a lot of time with Aaron and I know that he went to see her the day he told me that he need it one more case, I never got this feeling with JJ no, I saw the way Aaron look at her, like a sister but Prentiss was a different story.

She and Aaron started the road with a few bumps, he didn´t trust her and well I don´t knew her so I can´t say what she tough about him, but I know things change and he begun to trust her, I know she make herself part of "the family".

I always suspect she felt something from Aaron, I never got any evidence Aaron Hotchner was too good to cheat on me, I knew that.

When we got a divorce I knew she was there for him when he had trouble "Emmy" as Jack called her was with him, and now she was here, I can see that she´s trying her best to not fall apart in from of my son, in front of Aaron, all of them I can tell that they cried, but they´re focusing on giving Aaron and Jack their energy, and for that they got my bless.

I can see that they blamed themselves for my death but isn´t their fault either, and I keep watching her with my baby, only compassion and love are in her eyes, I see my baby lean in to her, to look comfort in her arms and I watch her giving everything she had, I keep seeing her with my baby and to hug him, and going to Aaron.

Aaron is beyond pain but she somehow can make him not going into the darkness I now know he thinks he deserves, she´s in pain I can see that they´re a lot alike, they all have that darkness inside them, they have to because of they jobs but there´s something about her that tells me that she and him shared a lot more, so she can tell.

I never tough that I couldn´t be there for my baby, that I will never see him grow, that he´s in pain, that they´re in pain for me, but what I realise is that they´re not alone, in his team they have a family, in her they have a family.

I can see the light again and this time I follow but not before whispering to the wind, whispering to her.

"Take good care of them for me, OK" and I see her lift Jack in her arms and I know she will, so I go into the light.

The End