Author's Note: It is official I Lost My Mind! Best episode ever!. All I see is purple! SEDDIE! Speghetti! Lol.

Disclaimer: I sadly do not know iCarly. It is owned by a man named Dan Schneider.

I never was the type to buy into the sappy teen love stories. It just seemed crazy that love was real. There is too much proof that love doesn't exist.

Look at my mom, she loved my dad and all it got her was heartbreak. He ended up leaving us and it drove her to insanity (and trust me she is truly insane).

My whole life I've tried to avoid that. I convinced myself that I would not let myself fall so hard for someone that I would be risking getting hurt. I would not be vulnerable.

So instead I became the one in control, the tougest girl in school.

Then he happened.

He is all into computers, Galaxy Wars and school, which makes him basically the biggest nerd on planet.

How could I like him?

I mean sure he is somewhat cute in a dorky way. (Okay let's face it the boy is hot.)

And he is kinda smart and nice. (Don't tell him I said that or I will hunt you down and kick your behind.)

But it's Freddie. I can't like him.

We would never work.

I am all aggressive and he is all nerdy. We are total opposites.

And yet I managed to momentarily forget that. Leading to stupidest (best) thing I have ever done.

I kissed him.

I couldn't help it I just had to. He was talking about taking a risk and I took one.

It was a moment I can never take back. The worst part is I don't know if I would if I could.

It was great ….

Wait, no, I mean it was... Uhh! I'm officially crazy.

I really am going insane. It was bound to happen with my mother like mine. (Is insanity hereditary?)

Better go check myself into a mental institution. There is one by house Touble Waters that aunt went to. I hear they have good quesidillas. I'll go there.

Author's Note: Review! Or I will have Sam hunt you down! lol.

This is my first iCarly story . Should I have this be a oneshot or make it a story? Story will take place during and after iLost My Mind if I write it. Review and let me know what you think.

ROCK ON SEDDDIERS! WE ARE CANON!