Title: Finding Grace
Author: Me
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I do not own anything, just having some fun with my imagination.
Summary: Based on the song "I kissed a girl" by Katy Perry. One night at a party, Mia kisses a girl and she doesn't exactly hate it. A game of I Never changes her life completely.
Author's Note: Italics mean flashbacks, I will skip back and forth from Mia telling the story and writing how it actually happened. There is only Girl/Girl kissing, nothing more than that.
"I never made out with a girl." Letty grinned and drank a shot to her own 'I never', she had kissed a girl before but, she was messing around with Mia who had always been the innocent one. Mia frowned and tilted back her shot. Letty didn't expect her to actually drink on that one because Mia didn't seem like the type and even if she had then she expected to know about it already because they are best friends.
"Mia... really?" Letty grinned. It was definitely surprising to say the least.
"I want to hear the dirty details." Their good friend Helena stated as she too, tilted back a shot. They were over at Helena's having a sleepover type get together and Letty had brought alcohol to make it that much better.
"I really don't want to go there guys." Mia groaned as she put her palm to her forehead. She should have just pretended that she really hadn't kissed a girl.
"Oh come on Mia, we're your best friends, you can tell us anything." Letty urged her.
"Fine, it was a couple years ago, junior year..."
Even though she wanted to come in the first place, this party seemed to die down some after two guys got into a fist fight over the school skank. Some people paired off to make out and some left just in case the cops showed up. Mia had a warm beer in her hand that she'd been carrying around the last hour or so. Drinking wasn't really her thing so she just carried it around so people wouldn't try and give her more. The friend she came with ditched her to hang out with her boyfriend. Getting bored, she stood up and began to look around the house. It was a huge house in a ritzy neighborhood. These parties always turned bad once people were too drunk to stand. As she walked through the rooms, she looked at the pictures lining the walls. This must've been an office judging by the big desk and numerous awards and trinkets that lined the walls. There was a pair of double doors leading outside so she opened one and walked out in the night air and she didn't feel trapped anymore.
The yard was neatly lined with flowers and shrubbery. Mia was careful to walk on the stepping stones. Finally she stopped and just looked up towards the sky.
"Boo!" Mia jumped as the cup fell from her hands; spilling all over the yard. Her heart raced as she looked around nervously. A snicker could be heard from behind a bush. Bending down, she picked up her cup and walked over to mystery person who scared her.
She found a slim girl with short brown hair sitting on a bench smoking a cigarette. Mia looked her up and down really quick and found that she was wearing slim, baggy pants and she had a lip ring that was cocked to the side of her lip. She was really pretty but, it was obvious that she was a tomboy.
"Did I scare you?" She smiled sweetly up to her. Mia just nodded and picked at the rim of her cup. Was she supposed to stay and talk to this girl or was she supposed to just walk away and pretend it never happened? "What are you doing out here anyways?" She asked Mia casually; taking another drag from her cigarette.
"I didn't feel like being at the party." Mia shrugged her shoulders and leaned against the brick of the house. "Why are you out here?"
"I don't really party, period. My friend dragged me out here." The girl stated as she motioned for Mia to take a seat on the bench. She hesitated before slowly sitting down next to the girl.
"So what? You meet her at the party and then just make out with her?" Letty asked.
"No, you didn't let me finish Letty!" Mia said shaking her head.
"Alright Mia Christ!"Letty snapped before grinning and urging her to continue.
"Smoke?" She asked her holding out an open pack of cigarettes. Mia shook her head.
"I don't smoke." The innocent girl answered.
"It's a habit I can't break, I don't drink though." The dark haired girl said grinning.
"I don't either." Mia stated.
"What was in the cup you dropped?"
"Beer." Mia said laughing. The other girl followed suit. "I'm Mia by the way."
"I know who you are, we share a couple classes. I'm Gray."
"Did your parents really name you that?" Mia asked smugly.
"Nope." Gray shook her head before laughing. "Grace just didn't fit me as you can see." She said as she pointed to herself. It was the truth though. She was wearing baggier clothes, her hair was sort of wild like she hadn't brushed it that day and her voice was deeper and really smooth. She carried this air of confidence that left Mia a little intimidated yet, she felt she could joke around and say just about anything around this girl; she seemed like a really laid back person.
"I think Grace is a nice name." Mia said shrugging slightly; making conversation.
"Eh..."
"Did that hurt?" Mia asked pointing to the lip ring.
"Not as much as this did." Gray said pointing to her boob. Mia's jaw dropped in shock from such boldness of the statement. Gray laughed loudly and put out her cigarette. "I'm kidding, no it didn't hurt too much."
"The nipple ring or the lip ring?" Mia asked her.
"I don't have a nipple ring..." Gray just laughed and shook her head at Mia. She seemed so innocent.
"Oh..." Mia smiled shyly. It went silent.
"So isn't it past your bed time little girl?" Gray teased her pulling a piece of her curly hair.
"We're the same age little girl." Mia said pushing her. Gray stuck out her tongue and looked ahead. Silence fell between them but it wasn't an uncomfortable one.
"Come on, let's get out of here." Gray said standing up; breaking the silence.
"Where are we going?" Mia said following her.
"I don't know, just for a walk." Gray said putting her hands in her pocket. She played with her keys that lay in her pocket while she stared sideways at Mia. She was very beautiful and it took everything in her not to make some sort of move. Ever since Mia sat down she couldn't help but want to just touch her or kiss her. The wind blew around them with just a hint of salt in the air from the ocean which wasn't too far away. Mia smiled to herself and laced her fingers together in front of her.
Twenty minutes went by with only small talk here and there before Mia asked about where they were.
"Um, we're around..." Gray smiled and lit up a cigarette.
"I'm gonna have to start my way back soon you know... I have to be home by midnight." Mia said nonchalantly.
"No worries Mi," She grinned at the nickname she would now call her. "I can give you a ride."
"With what? On your back?" Mia chuckled. Gray stopped and pointed behind Mia.
"No, with my car." There was a car sitting in the driveway of a simple one-story house. "But hey, if my car isn't good enough, I still have a back." Gray laughed and headed towards her front door.
Mia didn't know what made her want to follow her. Even though they just met a short while ago, she felt completely comfortable with this girl. Sure, she'd seen her around school but she never talked to her at all or even asked about her. Mia had her own group of friends and they didn't really travel outside of that. Gray had this ora that made Mia just want to be around her; to see what she would say next.
"It's okay you know, I can walk back to the party and catch a ride with my friends." Mia said starting to get slightly nervous. Gray just gave her a warm smile and ushered her into the house.
"Relax Mi, I'll take you home." Under the porch light she realized that Gray's eyes were a deep blue. Mia nodded and smiled sheepishly before walking into the dark house. There was a click and lights turned on to reveal a simple living room. Mia followed her silently into the kitchen where she poured them both something to drink. Mia was starting to get slightly uncomfortable because she didn't know what to do from here. She was in Gray's house; an unfamiliar one with a very unfamiliar girl. Mia finished her drink and rinsed out the cup before walking around the house.
"Where is everyone?" Mia said looking at the few pictures that adorned the shelves. She couldn't help but smile at the one of Gray when she was younger; she actually looked like a girl.
"Um, my brother is in his room and my mom and dad are out for the weekend." Gray explained as they walked into her room. It was simple; most everything was black. Nothing was really on the walls; just a plain room. "What kind of music do you like?" Gray said flicking on her radio.
"I'm up for just about anything." Mia said sitting on the floor at the end of her bed. Music filled the room as Gray sat down next to her.
"You should watch what you say Mi, people may get the wrong idea." She joked, grinning over at her.
"Pervert!" Mia shouted; laughing as she playfully punched her arm. Gray chuckled and shoved Mia towards the floor but, Mia grabbed her last minute and they both crashed to the floor in a fit of laughter. "You're such a child!" Mia's eyes sparkled with joy.
"I'm the adult here Mi, not you." Gray said matter-of-factly.
"Well how old ARE you?" Mia asked in defiance.
"Eighteen..." Gray said finally calming down.
"Really? I'm only seventeen." Mia said casually.
"My point exactly." Gray stated. Mia huffed and elbowed her in the ribs. "I don't know what it is about you Mi, but I haven't had this much fun in I don't know how long. Shit is pretty serious now-a-days and then all of a sudden I'm picking up a LITTLE GIRL at a party; and end up having so much fun." Gray smiled sweetly over at Mia as she rested her head on the palm of her hand.
"How many times do I have to tell you, I'm not a little girl!" Mia chirped. The mood was still playful.
"I don't know, I guess you just gotta prove to me that you're all grown up." Gray flirted; but, she guessed Mia didn't catch that anyways.
"I will not! I'm a big girl and that's final!" Mia said knitting her eyebrows. Silence fell between them before they both erupted with laughter. The room was dim; with only a small lamp in the corner while the music played in the background. Gray leaned onto her side and just watched Mia as she stared at the ceiling with a small smile on her face. They had both been acting childish but, it was so fun to just let loose for a change. Gray couldn't hold it no more, she had to kiss her. But how would Mia react? As much as she wanted to kiss her, she wanted Mia as a friend also. It was now or never though; there was only an ounce of courage left in her body and she needed to do it before it was too late.
Finally she stopped the battle that was going on in her head and she leaned forward until her face was over Mia's. Instantly, Mia looked her in the eyes; staring in confusion. Gray just smiled, shook her head, and leaned down and gave her a long peck on the lips. Gray felt Mia tense up real quick and she felt terrible about it so she pulled away.
"I'm really sorry Mi, I... I just had to do that." Gray said sitting up.
"No, it was..." Mia stuttered. "It's okay Gray, really." She insisted.
"Okay so you obviously freaked out. So then what happened? Did you run home?" Helena asked smiling.
"Well not exactly..." Mia said rubbing the back of her neck.
"What did you do?" Letty asked.
"I kissed her back."
"I'll just take you home now." Gray stood up quickly and reached for her keys. Mia stood up just as fast to grab her arm.
"Gray, calm down! It's okay really!" Mia said trying to calm the other girl down even though she was freaking out on the inside.
"I was out of line Mia..." Gray said as her body stiffened; at least she was sitting still though.
"Just..." Mia tried to find words but, she turned up blank, what was she supposed to say? So she did the next thing that came to mind; she stepped forward and caught Gray's lips in a deeper kiss. Gray was caught off guard to say the least so it took her a few seconds to regain her thought. Mia wrapped her forearms around her neck and tilted her head to the side. Gray's piercing was cold against Mia's lips; never had she experienced a kiss like this. It was deep and full of passion; this kiss left her completely breathless. Finally they pulled away.
"Wow..." Mia said touching their foreheads together. Gray caught her eyes and smiled. Somewhere in the mix, her arms had wrapped around Mia's slender waist. "Just wow..." Mia whispered as she kissed her again; this time she walked forward and pushed them onto the bed.
"I didn't hurt you did I?" Mia murmured, concerned against her lips. Gray just shook her head and continued to kiss her.
"Wow, I never expected this from you Mia. I'm impressed." Letty said taking a shot of the hard liquor. Mia just nodded and sipped her beverage.
"So wait," Helena started. "What happened after that? Did you date, have sex, never speak again, what?"
"Tell me you didn't have sex with her after only knowing her for that long." Letty said pointing a finger towards her.
"No, we didn't have sex." Mia explained.
"But?" Letty knew her too well; there was more to the story.
"But, we didn't stop kissing either." Mia smiled in embarrassment.
"Just exactly how long did you guys kiss? You're making it seem like you did for a long ass time." Helena exclaimed.
"Four months." Mia stated sheepishly.
"What?! Wait a minute... Grace?! That was Gray wasn't it?!" Letty yelled as if she just discovered a new planet or something. Mia just turned red and put her head down. "You were always at her house. You dirty little slut!" Letty laughed.
"So you didn't sleep with her, you didn't date her, you just made out with her?" Helena asked again as if she couldn't believe it.
"Yeah, pretty much, she never once tried anything more with me. She was so respectful, she made my ex-boyfriends look like shit." Mia chuckled. "Most of the nights I stayed at her house we just hung out." Mia shrugged as she began to think about Gray.
Mia broke the kiss and checked her watch. It was almost midnight, they had been lying here for over and hour.
"I have to get home." Mia said sitting up; slightly out of breath. Gray nodded and sat up. She dug in her pockets and pulled out her keys. Standing up; she put her hand out for Mia to grab; and she did, then she walked her out of the house and into the car.
Almost the whole way home, Mia couldn't help but stare at her. She was such a genuine person yet, she was silly and confident also and when she wrapped her arms around Mia, it made her feel so safe. She felt so different and she just met her a couple of hours ago. Finally they pulled up across the street from the Toretto home.
"Here's your stop." Gray said smiling. It seemed she couldn't stop smiling since they left the house. Mia nodded and looked at her; she couldn't help but look at her. She had her mesmerized as she sat in the driver seat with one elbow resting on the door and the other hand holding the steering wheel. Mia thought she would feel uncomfortable by now but, the mood had stayed light the entire night; that she was thankful for.
"Yeah," Mia said softly. "I'll see you later I guess." Gray nodded and smirked. Mia took a deep breath before leaning over and giving her a goodbye kiss. Gray didn't expect her to do that and once she did, she couldn't help but lay her palm against the other girl's cheek. It was midnight so Mia had to go in the house.
Finally, she exited the car and walked up the front walk. It was hard not to grin the rest of the night but, somehow she managed. Dom became a little suspicious though but, Mia made a good enough excuse that got him off her back. That Monday at school, Mia couldn't help but look for Gray. She wanted to see her more than anything and she couldn't understand why. It was right before lunch when Mia saw her; she was at her locker putting her things away when Gray came up behind her and scared her once again. Mia slapped her playfully.
"Why do you keep doing that to me?" Mia stuck her tongue out. Gray just shrugged and stuck her hands in her pockets.
"Want to come to lunch with me?" Gray said fingering the cigarette that was in her pocket; she needed one badly but, she wanted to see Mia before she left.
"I'm on my way there now." Mia replied.
"I meant, leave off campus and get real food." Gray stated simply.
"Can we do that?" Mia asked as she shut her locker; her wallet in hand with every intention of leaving with her.
"I can, you probably can't but, I know a way around it." She grinned as they began walking towards the gym. Once they made it inside, they snuck through the girls locker room and out the back door. As they walked past the cars that lined the parking lot, they ducked down until they made it to her car so the security guard wouldn't see them.
"Okay duck down." Gray ordered as she pulled out of the parking lot. Mia did as she was told until they were away from the school. Mia laughed and sat up.
"I know you for two days and you're already turning me into a delinquent." Mia joked as she rolled her window down all the way; letting in the cool air.
"Hey, you came willingly." Gray replied defiantly. "Besides, who can resist good food?" Gray lit a cigarette and turned up the radio as they drove to get some food. They stayed in a comfortable silence until they made it to their destination. Once they both were inside, they ordered their food.
"I got it." Gray said handing money over the older lady working behind the counter.
"No, I have money." Mia said digging through her wallet. Gray just pushed her wallet away.
"I got it Mi." Gray insisted as she smiled and shook her head as the cashier handed her change with a knowing smile.
"Well, thank you." Mia said as they waited for their food. She felt sort of bad that Gray paid; she had money so she could have bought her own food. They sat down and ate their food and talked for a small while before they had to rush back to school so they weren't late.
"So you wanna hang out later?" Gray asked as they pulled into the school parking lot.
"What did you have in mind? I'll have to check my schedule" Mia replied sarcastically.
"Isn't my company enough?" Gray scowled playfully at her. Mia chuckled and pushed her.
"Well when you put it that way, how can I ever resist?" Mia cooed.
"So that's what you guys did for all those months? Just hung out and shit?" Letty said feeling pretty drunk by the end of the story. Mia just nodded as she still thought about Gray.
"So what made it end?" Helena asked.
"Well, Gray said she was starting to fall for me and that we had to stop seeing each other unless I wanted to be with her." Mia explained sadly.
"This bitch gave you an ultimatum?" Letty said angerly.
"No, she just knew that I couldn't or maybe, wouldn't be with her like that and in the end, I didn't want to hurt her so she graduated and moved on." Mia explained.
"So you haven't seen her since?" Letty asked; they looked over and realized Helena had passed out on the couch.
"No," Mia answered sadly.
"You miss her don't you?" Letty asked softly. Mia and Letty were closer then close and they could talk about anything.
"Yeah, but how would I explain that? Little Mia misses her old make out partner who just so happens to be a girl." Letty realized that Mia was close to tears.
"Mia, I don't think it would really matter who you're with. Your family just want to see you happy and if you decided that you wanted to be with Gray or any girl in general I think it'd be weird at first but, they'd get used to it." Letty said as Mia leaned into her for support.
"It's not that I'm a lesbian, I mean, I'm not into girls... I'm just into Gray and just sitting here talking about it makes me miss her so much. Back then I was so worried about my reputation. I knew it was best if we just went out separate ways."
"Mia, if they were really your friends, they would have loved you no matter what. Just like I would, no matter what you do or who you are, I'm still gonna be your best friend. Besides the only people that matter are your family, fuck the rest of them. If you want this girl then I say, go fucking find her and tell her!" Letty ranted. Mia just smiled lovingly towards her best friend.
The next morning despite her hangover, she woke up early and went home to get dressed. Today, she decided she was going to find Gray so she could talk to her. Whether they got together or not, she still missed her and wanted her back in her life no matter what. Just the thought of seeing her made her feel giddy. It even made her get all dolled up special just the way Gray always liked it. So despite the heat, Mia left her hair down and curly while she wore a tank top, shorts and some flip flops. Next, she put a little makeup on so she didn't look hungover then she walked outside and got in her teal integra.
The only thing she thought of was going to Gray's house and either finding her there or maybe finding out where she was now. Once she pulled up in front of the house, she stopped to take a deep breath. She was nervous but, she was already here so it was now or never. Finally, she found an ounce of courage, she walked up to the door and rang the doorbell. Her older brother Jake answered.
"Hi..." Mia said lowly.
"Can I help you- Mia?" Realization hit him as he looked at the now older girl. "Hey, uh, what are you doing here?"
"Is Gray around?" Mia asked; full of hope.
"Um, no, she doesn't live here anymore." Her face fell. "But, I can give you her address." At the sound of this, Mia nodded and smiled eagerly.
This was it; she was sitting outside of Gray's apartment and she knew that Gray was here because her car was parked right outside. She was extremely nervous but very anxious about seeing her. What if she was already in a relationship? Then they couldn't even stay friends because it would be weird. Without another thought, Mia opened her car door. She knew that if she thought about it anymore than she would talk herself out of it. When she got to the door; music was blaring loudly but, she knocked on the door anyway. A few minutes passed and no one came to the door so she knocked louder and louder until the door swung open to reveal an agitated Gray. But her face quickly changed from agitation to surprise when she saw Mia standing in her doorstep.
"Mia? Hey..." She was speechless. "What are you doing here?" Mia opened her mouth the talk but nothing came out, this went on for a few seconds before she just closed her mouth and leaped into her arms. Gray tensed at first because she was still confused about what was going on.
"I've missed you so much." Mia whispered in her ear. This warmed her up so she wrapped her arms around Mia and held her tight. They pulled away and Mia looked her up and down; she hadn't changed a bit. Even her lip ring was still there.
"I missed you too but, what are you doing here Mi?" Gray asked seriously. Mia smiled at the sound of the nickname Gray always called her. Sure other people called her that too but, it never felt as good as it did when it came out of her mouth.
Gray was definitely overwhelmed by Mia's all of a sudden presence. She was just cleaning up her apartment like any normal day and then boom, out of no where, there's Mia at her doorstep and she looked stunning.
"I had to find you... those four months we spent together were the best months of my life," Mia began to pace the floor and she spilled her feelings. "I haven't been able to stop thinking about you and," Mia decided that her words were hopeless so she stood toe to toe with Gray and asked something that astonished the other girl."Can I kiss you?"
Gray just blinked a few times as she processed the situation. Was her mind playing tricks on her? Shaking that thought, she lifted her hand to Mia's cheek; something she always loved to do because no matter what, Mia would lean into her hand; slowly she ran her thumb over her bottom lip before leaning into her; silently giving her permission even though she wasn't completely sure it was a good idea. Mia caught her lips in a fast kiss. It felt so familiar and so right being here with Gray. When they pulled away, Gray leaned her forehead against Mia's and stared into her big brown eyes.
"What are you doing Mia?" She asked barely a whisper. There was more meaning behind that question. Mia wasn't a lesbian; Gray was and she knew that Mia wasn't so this caused some major doubts. She couldn't put her self in the position to get hurt again.
"I'm doing what I want... and I want you." Mia stated boldly as she played with the hair behind Gray's ears.
"I thought we already went there Mia? It didn't work between us back then, how do you expect it to now?" Gray said as she closed her eyes; inhaling the scent of Mia's perfume.
"I was stupid back then, I was scared of what people would think. That's different now, let them think what they want, I'm not going to let them dictate my life and stop me from being happy." Mia explained; they still hadn't moved. They were standing in the living room; the door was still open but neither cared.
"I make you happy?" She sound like a child when she asked that. Mia smiled lovingly towards her.
"You always did..." Mia dipped down and pecked her on the lips. Those words made Gray melt to the point to where she just didn't care about anything anymore. She just wanted to scoop Mia up and carry her off into the universe. But, despite her best efforts to stop them, there were still doubts that this was too good to be true.
"I don't know Mia..." Gray said shaking her head slowly.
"You just have to trust me Gray." Mia whispered in her ear.
"I do trust you," Gray replied as she hugged Mia tight, lifting her off the ground. "I do."
END