Hey guys:) Since there's stil no new extended promo I decided to write what I'd like to happen in the next episode;) Let me know whether I should continue or not...;)

It was cold outside and Jane was glad that he had his airstream parked right in front of the hospital. He opened the door and got into it to drive to the FBI parking lot since that was where he was going to spend the night.

Jane sat down in the driver seat and started the engine when he noticed that it was beginning to rain outside and small drops of water covered the front window.

After turning on the lights he drove off to where he initially came from.

He was confused and angry and he was hurt.

He hadn't felt that kind of pain in a long time and had almost forgotten how it felt and he had to admit that he hadn't missed it.

But what was this feeling? Was it hate? Was it sadness? No. It felt different.

Jane didn't really pay attention on the road, but he knew the way so it wasn't a big deal.

When he finally arrived at the parking lot he was aiming to get to, right in front of the FBI building he closed the curtains and looked into his empty fridge, still hoping to find something there. He had known that it was empty, but he still did it out of habit.

Maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to go to a grocery store once a while and not only live from the pick-up truck's food.

But he just didn't ever feel like going outside and doing stuff like that.

This had gotten much worse since a certain person had entered his life. This certain person was Agent Marcus Pike from the FBI Arts Department. He knew that Pike was a good guy, he hadn't really gotten to talk to him yet though... All he knew that he made Lisbon happy and for him that was all he needed to know.
He certainly must be a better man than him at least for Lisbon. She deserved to be with a good man, he had even told her that and he really wanted to be that man! He realized it more and more every minute he thought about it, but he wasn't good enough! He had hurt her, he had basically controlled her life and still owed her a lot of apologies for stupid things he had done in the past 12 years or so...

And then he had asked her to come here. The biggest thing he had ever asked her to do. It had been the most selfish thing he had done so far.

So far, because if he wouldn't do an even more selfish thing soon he would probably lose her forever. She would be gone and he wouldn't ever see her again, or jst occasionally. This was the exact opposite of what he actually desired.

He wanted her, to be with her every day, wake up next to her, go to bed with her and be there for her all the time.

He needed her, he didn't want her to go...

She had thrown it at him like a fist-punch. Of course that hadn't been her intention, but it just was a huge surprise for him. A not very appreciated surprise but what could he do... He needed her to be happy, needed to see that she found what she wanted so badly! It was as if he was hoping for a character's happy end in a TV show or a book.

She said she was happy and he had believed her so he had just said that whatever made her happy would make him happy too.

He had lied. The whole conversation had been a huge lie and now that he looked back at it and reversed it in his head he realized that he hadn't been the only one who had lied.

It was so clear now!

The looks, the too big smiles, the adding of words and the uncertainty... He knew her so well he could read her mind easily. Just like an open book.

So why hadn't he noticed it before?

Why did his brain stop working so often lately when she was around?

Since when wasn't he able to control his emotions?

What had happened to him?!

Although it was so hard to admit and so hard to say to himself and others, he just knew...

He had fallen in love. Madly, deeply.

And he had to do something or else he would regret it forever. He had always thought she would be there forever, waiting for him, being ready anytime he was and he didn't ever think about it going any other way. Well, looked like he misjudged the situation.

And... he needed a plan.

A damn good plan! Because she would need good arguments...

Actually there was only one big thing he could say that would change it all.

He knew the words, he knew they were true, he just had to make sure that it wouldn't be the wrong decision. That he wouldn't ruin her life, that she wanted him too.

Jane put aside the cup of tea he had made while he was thinking about his love life and his future and decided to go shower and get ready for bed.

The warm water made him relax and he could think about what he was going to do and when he was going to do it.

Lisbon hadn't said anything about the time of their departure if they indeed moved to DC together, but it could be too late any day. Of course she would need time to think about it and she would need time to finish the thing with P... But what if she said no to him? What if she had fallen in love and didn't want him anymore?

What if he had pissed her off so much that she wouldn't want to stay with him?

What would he do then?

He didn't know.

Jane just hoped that his interpretation of her facial expressions hadn't mislead him.

Should he tell her tomorrow? Should he ask her tonight?

After turning off the water and getting into his dry clothes he decided to do it now.

Now or never.

He knew that he would change his mind if he didn't do it now. He would overthink it all and he would get insecure, he wouldn't do it.

So he got into the driver's seat once again and drove off.

Fortunately he knew where she lived and so it wasn't difficult for him to get there.

When he arrived- he had managed stay convinced of his plan- he noticed that her lights where still on...